Last Blog for 2007

My Paretns went to the casino and I am home alone. I am drinking by myself and having my own party. I am gong to cry when the ball drops and no one will know it. It's 11:48 and it's almost the New Year. I am toasting to myself and hoping that 2008 will be a good year for me. I am crying because I need to leave behind all the pain form 2007 in the past and start fresh for the new year.
See you in 2008.

~So here is to a Happy and joyful 2008. Happy New Year Everyone.~
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Here is to 2008

This coming year I have a lot to get done. I have to lose weight for my class reunion then in the fall I am going on my sisters annual wine trip. I think this is the 3rd of 4th year. I have seen the pictures and it seems like a lot of fun. It would be nice to be around 190 lbs or lighter. I hope that 2008 will bring me a job,weight loss and someone to love.

I am here alone for New Years and I am used to it. I have done it for New Years before. I wanted to go to my cousin's but my mom has to be a ass and wouldn't let me go by myself to South Lyon. Which is about an hour away. I hope I can get a full time job so I can save up for a car and I can go anywhere I want to go. I also need to move out away from my mom and dad. They are a pain in my ass.

Saying Good-bye to 2007

This is the end of 2007 and I am so glad it's almost over. I have been through a lot these last few months. With my 2 jobs that didn't' work out and then to my dad having a heart Attack to my Grandma being sick and in the hospital.

It breaks my heart to have to see my grandma in the hospital. I wanted to breakdown. She means the world to me. I don't know when I am gonna do when she passes away. I will be a wreck for sure. Just typing this brings me to tears.

I will update later before the New Year. I think I might be spending this one alone. Tom is going to a wedding and I don't' know what the rest of my friends are doing. I am hoping that 2008 brings me a full time job, a car, weight loss, a new life and someone to love. I am sick of being single and I am ready for love.

Then I come to find out that all 3 of my Bloop Dairies have been deleted. At first I wa bumbed but then I thought I have this one. It will be good enough.

3 more days

Well it's 3 more days until Christmas and I have been spending my time with my family. This year has been crazy but I am glad it's almost over and a new year will began and I can start it fresh and new. I have a lot of things to focus on. Such as a job and weight loss and getting myself healthy.

Today we are going to the mall and then after we are going to see my grandma and after that we are going to see to visit my aunt and uncle.

I think we are going to my aunt and uncles house for Christmas Eve and then we are having Christmas here. I love this time of year cause it gives me a chance to spend time with my family.

I have a lot going on in 2008. I have my 10 year high school reunion (if we are having one). Then I am planning on going to California in the fall.

Excited

I am excited that my sisters are coming home but I am really excited that only my older sister is coming home not my younger sister. I haven't seen my older sister in a long time and I can't wait to give her the gift I made for her. I hope she notices a change in me. I have lost a total of 12 lbs from my highest weight. I have already had one comment form my Aunt last month. She said "You look like you lost weight" and I said that I did. I felt so good getting that complement from her. It's been a long time since I had anyone notice a weight loss in me. It's also a boot for my motivation for losing this weight.

I am hoping that 2008 will bring me a job,weight loss, new experiences, new friends, and someone to love.

My 130 lb Goal Reward

When I reach 130 lbs. My reward is to have professional pictures taken. I have 2 awesome photographers in mind. The first one is The Shooting Gallery and the second one is Arising Images which was voted # 1 photographer in Metro Detroit. These 2 photographers do a awesome job. I will have a hard time picking one.

I am excited about this goal. I am going to work hard in the coming New Year. I have joined a new gym that is way better then Fitness USA and also I will start run and hopefully join the Team in Training team. I will be attending one of the meetings in January.

Here are some of my 2008 Goals:
~Be more active
~Buy a Car
~Attend The Team in Training Team meeting
~Run a 5K Race = 3 miles

2008 Mission

In 2008 I will be on a mission to try to complete a lot of my goals. I am determined to accomplish them. My first goal is to attend a Team in Training meeting and learn about it. There is a meeting in January and I am gonna attend that one.

Then I am focusing on my weight loss goals. I wish I lived someplace warn so I can start running and maybe run a 5K this year. I can't wait to try out my christmas gift. I got it early this year. My Christmas gift is a new I-POD Nano and along with it came the Nike+ kit. What this is it tracks how many miles you run and how many calories you burn. I am excited to try it out but I gotta wait till my new gym opens up next year.

Inspritional Lyrics

Mpulz - The Journey Lyrics
I know that you're searching for answers,
Afraid that you'll be left behind,
But you can't rush time,Got to wait in line,
In time the answers you'll find

(Chorus)
You'll get your wings at the right time,
Even birds must learn how to fly,
You gotta move on from what’s breaking your heart,
Don't let your life pass you by.

I know that you're scared of failing,
But you can't succeed if you don’t try,
To see what I do,
I believe in you,
And soon your wings will take flight.

(Chorus)

(Bridge)
Sunshine always follows the rain,
Happiness always follows the pain,
Let's never look back and learn from the past,
Heart and soul is all you need, all you need.

(Chorus x2)

Taking the journey,
Enjoying the ride,
Be true to yourself,
Let your heart be your guide.
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Christina Aguilera - Soar lyrics
When they push, when they pull
Tell me can you hold on
When they say you should change
Can you lift your head high and stay strong

Will you give up, give in
When your heart's crying out "that is wrong"
Will you love you for you at the end of it all

Now in life there's gonna be times
When you're feeling low
And in your mind insecurities seem to take control
We start to look outside ourselves
For acceptance and approval
We keep forgetting that the one thing we should know is


Don't be scared
To fly alone
Find a path that is your own
Love will open every door

See in your hands the world is yours
Don't hold back and always know
All the answers you will unfold
What are you waiting for
Spread your wings and soar

The boy who wonders, is he good enough for them
Keep trying to please them all
But he just never seems to fit in
Then there's the girl who thinks she'll never ever be
Good enough for him
He's trying to change and
That's a game she'll never win

In life there will be times when you're feeling low
And in your mind insecurities seem to take control
We start to look outside ourselves
For acceptance and approval
We keep forgetting that one thing we should know is

Don't be scared
To fly alone
Find a path that is your own
Love will open every door

See in your hands the world is yours
Don't hold back and always know
All the answers they will unfold
What are you waiting for
Spread your wings and soar

In the mirror is where she comes
Face to face with her fears
Her reflection looked forward on to her
After all these years
However how she's tried to be
Something besides herself
Now time has passed and she's ended up
Somewhere else with regret

What is it is that makes us feel the need
To keep pretending
Gotta let ourselves be

Don't be scared
To fly alone
Find a path that is your own
Love will open every door

See in your hands the world is yours
Don't hold back and always know
All the answers you will unfold
Don't wait no more
Spread your wings and soar

Find your road
Love will open every door
See in your hands the world is yours
Don't look back in the window, you'll find your way
Always know all the answers will unfold

Oh don't wait
Spread your wings and soar
Don't wait no more
You've got to soar
Spread your wings and soar
Don't wait no more
No don't you wait no more
Spread your wings and soar
You've can soar

So what you waiting for
Don't wait, Don't wait
Soar

The reason for TNT

I am excited to get started. I got interested in the Team in Training a while ago. I saw a flyer and thought about it and since my sisters friend is in it and has already been to many places to run makes me wanna join and help with a cure.I still have to train for my first ever marathon. that will take sometime but I know I can do it. My cousin had Hodgkin's Lymphoma and is now free from it. It's been 10 years since she had it. She is a SURVIVOR.

She isnt the only reason I got interested in the Team in Training. I read stories that really inspired me and if I can do this and help fun for a cure then that makes me feel good.

Another reason I want to do this is that I want to start running more and getting in shape. If Running for a reason like this will help me get inspired and start running then that will be my inspiration. My dad had a heart attack 3 days after Thanksgiving and that really concerned me. I need to do this for me and not end up like my dad and have to go through what he did.

Working towards a marathon

I said that I was gonna start running but I haven't yet. I didn't have enough motivation to start but I will be soon that will be one of my New Years Resolutions.

I want to join the Team in Training team and run a marathon and it's also a great cause to run for. They have many places that I can go and run a marathon and also get a chance to see the world.

This is gonna be a BIG lifestyle change but I know that I can do it. 2008 is the perfect year to get started since 2008 will be my 10 year Reunion.

Crazy

It's been a long time since I last wrote in here. A lot has been going on. I had 2 jobs and now I have none. I quit my last job last week due to some problems. And now I just found out my dad had a heart attack and is in the hospital. It's been crazy.

The Winners-4 The Best List

Arts and entertainment
Art Gallery : Scarab Club of Detroit
Indie Theater : Michigan Theater

Live Comedy : Mark Ridley's Comedy Castle

Local Bands : George & the YoungBloods

Museum : The Henry Ford Museum and Greenfield Village

Theater : Emagine Novi

Theatre group : St. Dunstan's Theatre

Auto

Auto Parts : Schram Auto Parts

Auto Repair : Autometric Collision Inc.

Car Stereo : Sound Security Inc

Custom Paint : Street Legal Customs

Engine Specialist : Victory Racing Engines D&S Engine-Specialists Great Lakes Engines

Beauty

Day spa : Spa Julianna

Facial : Lamia & Lamia Salon and Day Spa

Hair color : Figo Salon

Hair salon : Edwin Paul Salon

Manicure and pedicure : V.I.P. Salon and Spa

Massage : Healthworks Massage Therapy and Wellness Center

Tanning : V.I.P. Tanning

Tattoo and Piercing : American Pride Tattoos

Waxing : Charisma

Cheap eats

Barbecue : Famous Dave's BBQ

Breakfast : Original Pancake House

Burger : Miller's Bar

Coney Island : National Coney Island

Pizza : Buddy's Restaurant & Pizzeria

Sandwich Shop : Cafe Luwak

Wings : Buffalo Wild Wings Grill and Bar

Fashion

Designer Jewelry : Astreins Creative Jewelers

Lingerie : Bra World

Men's clothing : Dueto Clothing for Men and Women

Men's shoes : City Slicker shoes

Vintage and resale : ReSale Connection

Women's accessories : Oliver's Trendz

Women's boutique : Katerina Bocci

Women's shoes : Sole Sisters

Great meals

Brunch : The Gandy Dancer

Chinese : China Moon

Greek : Auburn Cafe

Italian : Andiamo

Mexican : Xochimilco

Middle Eastern : La Shish

New American : J.Baldwin's

Romantic restaurant : Iridescence at MotorCity Casino

Seafood : O'Brien's Crabhouse

Steakhouse : Kiernan's Steak House

Sushi : Cafe Sushi

Tapas : Small Plates

Thai : Taste of Bangkok Cuisine

Vegetarian : Salad Creations

Health and fitness

Bike shop : Albe's

Dance Studio : Children's Dance Theatre

Golf Shop : Jawor's Golf Center

Gym : Pointe Fitness and Training Center

Martial arts : Detroit Martial Arts Institute

Pilates studio : Real Results Training

Ski and Snowboard Shop : Sun & Snow Sports

Yoga studio : Body Language Fitness and Yoga

Nightlife

Beer selection : Ashley's Restaurant & Pub

Bowling : Airway Lanes

Brewpub : Sherwood Brewing

Dance Club : Luna Royal Oak

Gay and Lesbian Bar : Necto

Irish Pub : Full Kilt

Jazz Club : Firefly Club

Live Music Venue : Diamondback Saloon

Neighborhood Bar : Dino's Lounge

Pool Hall : Main Street Billiards

Sports bar : 24 Seconds

Trendy bar : Proof Martini Lounge

Shopping

Antiques : Town Peddler

Arts and Crafts : The Scrapbook Zone

Bookstore : Squirreled Away Books

Camera Shop : Express Photo & Camera

Children's gifts : Village Toy Company

Comics : Back to the Past Comics

Furniture : Fred's Unique Furniture and Antiques

Gift Shop : Dixboro General Store

Housewares : Village Peddler, Milford

Musical Instruments : McCourt's Musical Instruments

Pet Services : Obedience Dynamics Canine Training & Behavioral LLC

Pet supplies : Doggy Deli

Records and CDs : Stormy Records

Specialty food and drink

Bakery : Mannino's Bakery

Coffee Shop : Beaner's Coffee

Desserts : Elan Candies

Gourmet grocery : Colasanti's

Ice cream shop : Guernsey Farms Dairy

Tea House : TranquiliTea

Wine shop : Filipo Marc Winery

Weddings

Cakes : Cake Nouveau

Caterer : Catering 2 You

Flowers : Viviano Flower Shop

Invitations : Gourmet Invitations

Limousine : Checker Sedan

Music : Mike Staff Productions

Photographer : Arising Images

Rings : Pat Scott Jewelers

Tuxedo : President Tuxedo

Venue : Crystal Gardens

Videographer : George's Video Productions

Wedding dresses : The Wedding Shoppe

Wedding planner : Laura Davis Weddings

Go far so good

So far my JC program is going good. I do feel hungry at night but I am learning not to eat at night plus that is a big NO NO.

I am also trying to get up early and start eating breakfast. I eat my Jenny Craig food and I am hoping this sticks.

Goal: Lose10 lbs by October 12th.

Yay!!!

Wow. I am excited. I am finally going back on Jenny Craig. I start tomorrow but my appointment is today at 4:30p.m. I have missed the food and the support that I get at my center. I hope to start losing again.

I need to start going to the gym at 3 times a week doing cardio the days I am not working and pooped out. My job has me busy and on my feet so that should help me too.

Back on Jenny Craig for the 3rd time

The Day is finally here. I am going back on the program. It's been a long time since I have been on. I start tomorrow with the food. I hope I can get enough hours to afford it this time. This is my third time on it and I am hoping to stick to it. I also can't wait to try all the new foods they have and finally start losing this weight and looking good for my 10 year class reunion next year.

Nervous & Excited

Well Tomorrow is my first day at work and I am both nervous and excited. I don't know what to expect but I know that I do have a job now I can now start making my dreams come true.

I have so much on my plate right now. I am in the process of getting back on Jenny Craig and saving money for a car.

Good News!!!

Well I have some great news. The Lady that I had a interview with just called me a few minutes ago and said that she wants to hire me. So I meet with her on Monday night at the same place to fill out a few papers. I am gonna ask some questions also. So I feel feel that my life is starting to look up. Now that I have that goal done I have to work hard at that job to keep it. My next goal is to get back on Jenny Craig for the 3rd time. I will probably start that in a few week but I am gonna go back to weight myself on their scale and talk with them about all the new things that have been going on since I last left.

Then my next BIG goal I have to focus on is saving money for a car. I can't wait till I start making money again and not having to worry about not finding a job. It seems that this job came to me.

In the process of me saving for a car. I am also gonna be saving for massage school because I don't want to go for a loan or a grant if i can save on my own.

All in all I am excited about working again. I hope I don't screw up and get fired.

These Dreams

I had another dream. I can't really explain it but it had my cousin Janae and Bob. Here it says on the dream website:To see your cousin in your dream, represents something or some aspect of your character that is somewhat familiar. Perhaps you need to spend more time in cultivating and developing some emerging ability or character. In particular, if you dream that your cousin is ignoring you indicates that you are not acknowledging some aspect of yourself that is represented by your cousin.

I got a new cousin

My Cousin Donna had messaged me and she said that my cousin Ursula just had a baby girl. I don't know what she named it but I will write it in here. My family keeps on growing with cousins and now it's my dad's side that is having babies.

Dreams

I have been having some weird dreams lately. From a few nights ago and what I wrote about in my last couple blogs. I had another weired dream and this time it was about me at the casino and I was playing video card game and I hit it a couple times and on the third or forth time I got a game and I guess I was betting high and I had all these free games at the end I won over 17,000 dollars. When I woke up I was like what the hell did that mean. So when I woke up I went to check my e-mail and such then I went to this dream website that I always go to and here it what is said.

~(To see or win money in your dream, symbolizes that success and prosperity is within your reach. Money may represent confidence, self-worth, success, or values. You have much belief in yourself. Alternatively, dreaming about money, refers to your attitudes about love and matters of the heart. It is frequently a symbol for sexuality and power)~

Clueless

Well Today is here and it's finally my cousins baby shower. I am looking forward to it. I am also excited to give her the memory book that I made for her. I can't believe that times goes by so fast.

Yesterday I went to my churches festival. I saw my friend Tom. I don't even know anymore what the hell is going on between us. I am not gonna focus on him. I have way to more important things to focus on.

Crazy Dreams

I have been having these crazy dreams like the one I had 2 nights ago. I also had one last night. Of what I can remember is that I was walking down the aisle with my father next to me. I have other wedding ones in the past but this one. I still couldn't see what the groom looked like but I do know that he was tall. I hope that one day I can see this guy in my dream and it will be my future husband.

My crazy dream

WOW. 2 nights ago. I had this weired dream it was about the country group Little Big town. Towards the end of my dream. I was talking to Little Big Town at a picnic table and when I saw Kimberly(the blond one) was pregnant. I had told her I was the last to know an then I woke up. Then I find out last night as I was watching CMT and it was true she just had a baby girl named Daisy. When I saw that I was freaking out and I was speechless and I was in shock.

Beginning of a good week

I am starting this week to a good start. I have a interview today and tomorrow. Today is for a cleaning company. It's a private owned company. She found my resume on the Michigan Talent Bank website and called me yesterday and so I called her this morning to say I was interested. Then tomorrow I have a interview at Tim Horton's. Then I am gong ot a job fair if I don't get called in for a another interview with both those companies.

I hope I get some kind of job. I need it badly. I need to start saving money for a car and moving out to apartment. I am crossing my fingers and hoping for the best.

I am a FOOL: MEN SUCK!!!

I am so freaking confused. I though that Tom liked me. My friend was talking about going to the semaiar to become a priest and at first I thought he was just talking out of his ass. But he already regerestered for classes. So I guess I am a FOOL. I still can't understand why he tells people that he likes me and tell some that I am his girlfriend or "this is my girl". I am not gonna say anything that I like him. I wonder why he says that and then leads me on to think that he likes me.

How could I be om cloud 9 one day and be in hell the next. I don't know why I am foucsing on finding love when I should be really be focused on ME. Making me happy. I come first not LOVE I am gonna kick LOVE in the ASS and out the DAMN door.

I am still gonna plan on moving to California within the next 2 years cause now my little sister is gonna get a job out there this october. There are so many job opptinunities out there and there are also alot more things to do and not to mention the weather won't freeze my ass. I hate the freezing cold.

I am dissapointed but I can get through it. I have to look for other fish in the sea. I am still gonna be friends with him. I guess what ever will be will be between us. Friends or something more. I gotta know if he is really serious about being a priest.

Yesterday

Yesterday was the usual day, We to church with my family, came home relax and then around 3:30 My parents and I we to go visit my Grandma at the nursing home.After that we headed to visit my aunt. She gave us something to eat. ( as always). The long story short. Tom called and so I went outside. We talked for about an half an hour. After that we left and my parents went to the casino and my mom won $750.00 on the first machine she was . She usually plays nickles but she thought she would play the quarters. Her luck. DAMN!!!!

When went got home it was around 12:00 a.m. Then around 12:30 I got a phone call on the house phone and it only rang once then my cell rang and I could not belive it. Tom called me again.So we talked till 1:00 a.m.

That again made my night and I had pleasant dreams.

What a day

Yesterday was my mom and my dad's Anniversary. It's been 33 years since they been married. My sister came home yesterday for the weekend to celebrate this occasion. They wanted to go to the casino to eat and of course play. We had the buffet and usually we always have good service but I was so disappointed. When they sat us down. My dad, sister, and I went to get out food as soon as we came back the waiter brought my mom and my dad their drinks and after that my sister and I had to get our own drinks for the rest of the time we were there. We didn't leave a tip. I am going to write a letter of compliant to the casino. I also forgot to mention that the our waiter bumped into my chair twice and didn't even say sorry. I should say that we didn't have a waiter.

The rest of the night went fine. My mom won the money that my dad and sister lost. All night I was thinking about my friend Tom ( the one I like and he likes me). When we got home it was late and about 12:00 I was watching TV and i heard the house phone ringing and it was Tom. Then he called my cell. He told me that he called the wrong one. We talked for about 15 minutes. I am glad he called me. It made me sleep better.SO that was my day yesterday.

Today is my friend Tiffany's 28th birthday. We are going out. I have never went out to a bar with her so that will be fun. She was my first friend that I met when I moved from Detroit) We recently got back to our friendship. We lost touch after her wedding in 2000. I had wanted to find her and see what she was up 2 so one day out of the blue she called me and I was so happy she did. Anyways back on today. I am going out again with my parents for their anniversary this time we are going to a restaurant. After that I am gong out with Tiffany and her boyfriend.

Update

Wow I haven't updated this in a long time since then I have been using Bloopdiary on and off. I guess that I am not much of a blogger anymore like before.

Anyways, I am still unemployed and looking for a job. I finally come to realizing that i do have feeling for my friend Tom and I do like him, I can't stop thinking about him.

I have been thinking about massage school. I took a trip to southfirld and drove past Irene's. It's like 27 minutes to get there. So it's not much of a drive. I also have been thinking about taking classes again at Macomb. Some photography and some other ones I need to get close to my Degree that I don't really need but want it cause once I start something I have to finish it. I don't know when I will start but I know once I get a job I will be attending Irene's part-time as soon I can get a grant.

I also have a 2 year plan that I have set for myself. By the time I am 30 if I don't have a boyfriend then I am moving out to California. If I do have a boyfriend and I am not in a serious relationship then I am still gonna move out there. If I do have one and were serious and talking marriage then I am gonna stay here in Michigan. It's as simple as that. I told my friend Tom (the one I like). He really didn't say anything about it when I told him that. If I do move out to California and meet someone and he does propose to me. I told him that I will get married here.