Last Blog for 2007

My Paretns went to the casino and I am home alone. I am drinking by myself and having my own party. I am gong to cry when the ball drops and no one will know it. It's 11:48 and it's almost the New Year. I am toasting to myself and hoping that 2008 will be a good year for me. I am crying because I need to leave behind all the pain form 2007 in the past and start fresh for the new year.
See you in 2008.

~So here is to a Happy and joyful 2008. Happy New Year Everyone.~
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Here is to 2008

This coming year I have a lot to get done. I have to lose weight for my class reunion then in the fall I am going on my sisters annual wine trip. I think this is the 3rd of 4th year. I have seen the pictures and it seems like a lot of fun. It would be nice to be around 190 lbs or lighter. I hope that 2008 will bring me a job,weight loss and someone to love.

I am here alone for New Years and I am used to it. I have done it for New Years before. I wanted to go to my cousin's but my mom has to be a ass and wouldn't let me go by myself to South Lyon. Which is about an hour away. I hope I can get a full time job so I can save up for a car and I can go anywhere I want to go. I also need to move out away from my mom and dad. They are a pain in my ass.

Saying Good-bye to 2007

This is the end of 2007 and I am so glad it's almost over. I have been through a lot these last few months. With my 2 jobs that didn't' work out and then to my dad having a heart Attack to my Grandma being sick and in the hospital.

It breaks my heart to have to see my grandma in the hospital. I wanted to breakdown. She means the world to me. I don't know when I am gonna do when she passes away. I will be a wreck for sure. Just typing this brings me to tears.

I will update later before the New Year. I think I might be spending this one alone. Tom is going to a wedding and I don't' know what the rest of my friends are doing. I am hoping that 2008 brings me a full time job, a car, weight loss, a new life and someone to love. I am sick of being single and I am ready for love.

Then I come to find out that all 3 of my Bloop Dairies have been deleted. At first I wa bumbed but then I thought I have this one. It will be good enough.

3 more days

Well it's 3 more days until Christmas and I have been spending my time with my family. This year has been crazy but I am glad it's almost over and a new year will began and I can start it fresh and new. I have a lot of things to focus on. Such as a job and weight loss and getting myself healthy.

Today we are going to the mall and then after we are going to see my grandma and after that we are going to see to visit my aunt and uncle.

I think we are going to my aunt and uncles house for Christmas Eve and then we are having Christmas here. I love this time of year cause it gives me a chance to spend time with my family.

I have a lot going on in 2008. I have my 10 year high school reunion (if we are having one). Then I am planning on going to California in the fall.

Excited

I am excited that my sisters are coming home but I am really excited that only my older sister is coming home not my younger sister. I haven't seen my older sister in a long time and I can't wait to give her the gift I made for her. I hope she notices a change in me. I have lost a total of 12 lbs from my highest weight. I have already had one comment form my Aunt last month. She said "You look like you lost weight" and I said that I did. I felt so good getting that complement from her. It's been a long time since I had anyone notice a weight loss in me. It's also a boot for my motivation for losing this weight.

I am hoping that 2008 will bring me a job,weight loss, new experiences, new friends, and someone to love.

My 130 lb Goal Reward

When I reach 130 lbs. My reward is to have professional pictures taken. I have 2 awesome photographers in mind. The first one is The Shooting Gallery and the second one is Arising Images which was voted # 1 photographer in Metro Detroit. These 2 photographers do a awesome job. I will have a hard time picking one.

I am excited about this goal. I am going to work hard in the coming New Year. I have joined a new gym that is way better then Fitness USA and also I will start run and hopefully join the Team in Training team. I will be attending one of the meetings in January.

Here are some of my 2008 Goals:
~Be more active
~Buy a Car
~Attend The Team in Training Team meeting
~Run a 5K Race = 3 miles

2008 Mission

In 2008 I will be on a mission to try to complete a lot of my goals. I am determined to accomplish them. My first goal is to attend a Team in Training meeting and learn about it. There is a meeting in January and I am gonna attend that one.

Then I am focusing on my weight loss goals. I wish I lived someplace warn so I can start running and maybe run a 5K this year. I can't wait to try out my christmas gift. I got it early this year. My Christmas gift is a new I-POD Nano and along with it came the Nike+ kit. What this is it tracks how many miles you run and how many calories you burn. I am excited to try it out but I gotta wait till my new gym opens up next year.

Inspritional Lyrics

Mpulz - The Journey Lyrics
I know that you're searching for answers,
Afraid that you'll be left behind,
But you can't rush time,Got to wait in line,
In time the answers you'll find

(Chorus)
You'll get your wings at the right time,
Even birds must learn how to fly,
You gotta move on from what’s breaking your heart,
Don't let your life pass you by.

I know that you're scared of failing,
But you can't succeed if you don’t try,
To see what I do,
I believe in you,
And soon your wings will take flight.

(Chorus)

(Bridge)
Sunshine always follows the rain,
Happiness always follows the pain,
Let's never look back and learn from the past,
Heart and soul is all you need, all you need.

(Chorus x2)

Taking the journey,
Enjoying the ride,
Be true to yourself,
Let your heart be your guide.
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Christina Aguilera - Soar lyrics
When they push, when they pull
Tell me can you hold on
When they say you should change
Can you lift your head high and stay strong

Will you give up, give in
When your heart's crying out "that is wrong"
Will you love you for you at the end of it all

Now in life there's gonna be times
When you're feeling low
And in your mind insecurities seem to take control
We start to look outside ourselves
For acceptance and approval
We keep forgetting that the one thing we should know is


Don't be scared
To fly alone
Find a path that is your own
Love will open every door

See in your hands the world is yours
Don't hold back and always know
All the answers you will unfold
What are you waiting for
Spread your wings and soar

The boy who wonders, is he good enough for them
Keep trying to please them all
But he just never seems to fit in
Then there's the girl who thinks she'll never ever be
Good enough for him
He's trying to change and
That's a game she'll never win

In life there will be times when you're feeling low
And in your mind insecurities seem to take control
We start to look outside ourselves
For acceptance and approval
We keep forgetting that one thing we should know is

Don't be scared
To fly alone
Find a path that is your own
Love will open every door

See in your hands the world is yours
Don't hold back and always know
All the answers they will unfold
What are you waiting for
Spread your wings and soar

In the mirror is where she comes
Face to face with her fears
Her reflection looked forward on to her
After all these years
However how she's tried to be
Something besides herself
Now time has passed and she's ended up
Somewhere else with regret

What is it is that makes us feel the need
To keep pretending
Gotta let ourselves be

Don't be scared
To fly alone
Find a path that is your own
Love will open every door

See in your hands the world is yours
Don't hold back and always know
All the answers you will unfold
Don't wait no more
Spread your wings and soar

Find your road
Love will open every door
See in your hands the world is yours
Don't look back in the window, you'll find your way
Always know all the answers will unfold

Oh don't wait
Spread your wings and soar
Don't wait no more
You've got to soar
Spread your wings and soar
Don't wait no more
No don't you wait no more
Spread your wings and soar
You've can soar

So what you waiting for
Don't wait, Don't wait
Soar

The reason for TNT

I am excited to get started. I got interested in the Team in Training a while ago. I saw a flyer and thought about it and since my sisters friend is in it and has already been to many places to run makes me wanna join and help with a cure.I still have to train for my first ever marathon. that will take sometime but I know I can do it. My cousin had Hodgkin's Lymphoma and is now free from it. It's been 10 years since she had it. She is a SURVIVOR.

She isnt the only reason I got interested in the Team in Training. I read stories that really inspired me and if I can do this and help fun for a cure then that makes me feel good.

Another reason I want to do this is that I want to start running more and getting in shape. If Running for a reason like this will help me get inspired and start running then that will be my inspiration. My dad had a heart attack 3 days after Thanksgiving and that really concerned me. I need to do this for me and not end up like my dad and have to go through what he did.

Working towards a marathon

I said that I was gonna start running but I haven't yet. I didn't have enough motivation to start but I will be soon that will be one of my New Years Resolutions.

I want to join the Team in Training team and run a marathon and it's also a great cause to run for. They have many places that I can go and run a marathon and also get a chance to see the world.

This is gonna be a BIG lifestyle change but I know that I can do it. 2008 is the perfect year to get started since 2008 will be my 10 year Reunion.