Nervous & Excited

Well Tomorrow is my first day at work and I am both nervous and excited. I don't know what to expect but I know that I do have a job now I can now start making my dreams come true.

I have so much on my plate right now. I am in the process of getting back on Jenny Craig and saving money for a car.

Good News!!!

Well I have some great news. The Lady that I had a interview with just called me a few minutes ago and said that she wants to hire me. So I meet with her on Monday night at the same place to fill out a few papers. I am gonna ask some questions also. So I feel feel that my life is starting to look up. Now that I have that goal done I have to work hard at that job to keep it. My next goal is to get back on Jenny Craig for the 3rd time. I will probably start that in a few week but I am gonna go back to weight myself on their scale and talk with them about all the new things that have been going on since I last left.

Then my next BIG goal I have to focus on is saving money for a car. I can't wait till I start making money again and not having to worry about not finding a job. It seems that this job came to me.

In the process of me saving for a car. I am also gonna be saving for massage school because I don't want to go for a loan or a grant if i can save on my own.

All in all I am excited about working again. I hope I don't screw up and get fired.

These Dreams

I had another dream. I can't really explain it but it had my cousin Janae and Bob. Here it says on the dream website:To see your cousin in your dream, represents something or some aspect of your character that is somewhat familiar. Perhaps you need to spend more time in cultivating and developing some emerging ability or character. In particular, if you dream that your cousin is ignoring you indicates that you are not acknowledging some aspect of yourself that is represented by your cousin.

I got a new cousin

My Cousin Donna had messaged me and she said that my cousin Ursula just had a baby girl. I don't know what she named it but I will write it in here. My family keeps on growing with cousins and now it's my dad's side that is having babies.

Dreams

I have been having some weird dreams lately. From a few nights ago and what I wrote about in my last couple blogs. I had another weired dream and this time it was about me at the casino and I was playing video card game and I hit it a couple times and on the third or forth time I got a game and I guess I was betting high and I had all these free games at the end I won over 17,000 dollars. When I woke up I was like what the hell did that mean. So when I woke up I went to check my e-mail and such then I went to this dream website that I always go to and here it what is said.

~(To see or win money in your dream, symbolizes that success and prosperity is within your reach. Money may represent confidence, self-worth, success, or values. You have much belief in yourself. Alternatively, dreaming about money, refers to your attitudes about love and matters of the heart. It is frequently a symbol for sexuality and power)~

Clueless

Well Today is here and it's finally my cousins baby shower. I am looking forward to it. I am also excited to give her the memory book that I made for her. I can't believe that times goes by so fast.

Yesterday I went to my churches festival. I saw my friend Tom. I don't even know anymore what the hell is going on between us. I am not gonna focus on him. I have way to more important things to focus on.

Crazy Dreams

I have been having these crazy dreams like the one I had 2 nights ago. I also had one last night. Of what I can remember is that I was walking down the aisle with my father next to me. I have other wedding ones in the past but this one. I still couldn't see what the groom looked like but I do know that he was tall. I hope that one day I can see this guy in my dream and it will be my future husband.

My crazy dream

WOW. 2 nights ago. I had this weired dream it was about the country group Little Big town. Towards the end of my dream. I was talking to Little Big Town at a picnic table and when I saw Kimberly(the blond one) was pregnant. I had told her I was the last to know an then I woke up. Then I find out last night as I was watching CMT and it was true she just had a baby girl named Daisy. When I saw that I was freaking out and I was speechless and I was in shock.

Beginning of a good week

I am starting this week to a good start. I have a interview today and tomorrow. Today is for a cleaning company. It's a private owned company. She found my resume on the Michigan Talent Bank website and called me yesterday and so I called her this morning to say I was interested. Then tomorrow I have a interview at Tim Horton's. Then I am gong ot a job fair if I don't get called in for a another interview with both those companies.

I hope I get some kind of job. I need it badly. I need to start saving money for a car and moving out to apartment. I am crossing my fingers and hoping for the best.

I am a FOOL: MEN SUCK!!!

I am so freaking confused. I though that Tom liked me. My friend was talking about going to the semaiar to become a priest and at first I thought he was just talking out of his ass. But he already regerestered for classes. So I guess I am a FOOL. I still can't understand why he tells people that he likes me and tell some that I am his girlfriend or "this is my girl". I am not gonna say anything that I like him. I wonder why he says that and then leads me on to think that he likes me.

How could I be om cloud 9 one day and be in hell the next. I don't know why I am foucsing on finding love when I should be really be focused on ME. Making me happy. I come first not LOVE I am gonna kick LOVE in the ASS and out the DAMN door.

I am still gonna plan on moving to California within the next 2 years cause now my little sister is gonna get a job out there this october. There are so many job opptinunities out there and there are also alot more things to do and not to mention the weather won't freeze my ass. I hate the freezing cold.

I am dissapointed but I can get through it. I have to look for other fish in the sea. I am still gonna be friends with him. I guess what ever will be will be between us. Friends or something more. I gotta know if he is really serious about being a priest.

Yesterday

Yesterday was the usual day, We to church with my family, came home relax and then around 3:30 My parents and I we to go visit my Grandma at the nursing home.After that we headed to visit my aunt. She gave us something to eat. ( as always). The long story short. Tom called and so I went outside. We talked for about an half an hour. After that we left and my parents went to the casino and my mom won $750.00 on the first machine she was . She usually plays nickles but she thought she would play the quarters. Her luck. DAMN!!!!

When went got home it was around 12:00 a.m. Then around 12:30 I got a phone call on the house phone and it only rang once then my cell rang and I could not belive it. Tom called me again.So we talked till 1:00 a.m.

That again made my night and I had pleasant dreams.

What a day

Yesterday was my mom and my dad's Anniversary. It's been 33 years since they been married. My sister came home yesterday for the weekend to celebrate this occasion. They wanted to go to the casino to eat and of course play. We had the buffet and usually we always have good service but I was so disappointed. When they sat us down. My dad, sister, and I went to get out food as soon as we came back the waiter brought my mom and my dad their drinks and after that my sister and I had to get our own drinks for the rest of the time we were there. We didn't leave a tip. I am going to write a letter of compliant to the casino. I also forgot to mention that the our waiter bumped into my chair twice and didn't even say sorry. I should say that we didn't have a waiter.

The rest of the night went fine. My mom won the money that my dad and sister lost. All night I was thinking about my friend Tom ( the one I like and he likes me). When we got home it was late and about 12:00 I was watching TV and i heard the house phone ringing and it was Tom. Then he called my cell. He told me that he called the wrong one. We talked for about 15 minutes. I am glad he called me. It made me sleep better.SO that was my day yesterday.

Today is my friend Tiffany's 28th birthday. We are going out. I have never went out to a bar with her so that will be fun. She was my first friend that I met when I moved from Detroit) We recently got back to our friendship. We lost touch after her wedding in 2000. I had wanted to find her and see what she was up 2 so one day out of the blue she called me and I was so happy she did. Anyways back on today. I am going out again with my parents for their anniversary this time we are going to a restaurant. After that I am gong out with Tiffany and her boyfriend.

Update

Wow I haven't updated this in a long time since then I have been using Bloopdiary on and off. I guess that I am not much of a blogger anymore like before.

Anyways, I am still unemployed and looking for a job. I finally come to realizing that i do have feeling for my friend Tom and I do like him, I can't stop thinking about him.

I have been thinking about massage school. I took a trip to southfirld and drove past Irene's. It's like 27 minutes to get there. So it's not much of a drive. I also have been thinking about taking classes again at Macomb. Some photography and some other ones I need to get close to my Degree that I don't really need but want it cause once I start something I have to finish it. I don't know when I will start but I know once I get a job I will be attending Irene's part-time as soon I can get a grant.

I also have a 2 year plan that I have set for myself. By the time I am 30 if I don't have a boyfriend then I am moving out to California. If I do have a boyfriend and I am not in a serious relationship then I am still gonna move out there. If I do have one and were serious and talking marriage then I am gonna stay here in Michigan. It's as simple as that. I told my friend Tom (the one I like). He really didn't say anything about it when I told him that. If I do move out to California and meet someone and he does propose to me. I told him that I will get married here.

It feels real

I have been doing a lot of research about moving to California. I don't think that my parents think it's real and that it's all talk but I am serious and I will show them it's real.

I been been looking at the California website to see what I need to do before I move out there . When I am ready to move I have to get a lot done. The first thing is to find a job then get a apartment and then apply for a driver licence. It's a lot of little things that I have to do and haven't really thought about.

I know my little sister wants to move out there but I don't know when she wants to. Right now I'll have my older sister and my cousion which is about an hour and 15 away form where I want to move to and I like to move in my sisters apartment complex. It's close to the freeway rap and that far away from downtown. It's not in a really good area but what I like about it is that it has underground parking and nice apartments.

I will wriete more later......

50% Sure

Well I have been thinking a lot more about standing up my friends wedding and I don't think I am . I don't even wanna go to the wedding. She's not that good of a freind. It's not like I hang out with her that often. She spends a lot of her time with her friend Kari. She recently reformed her friendship with her. I guess she is a friend from High School. If you think that I am gelous. I'm not.

Last night I was thinking about maybe standing up but now I am 50% sure I don't want to. So half of my mind is made up. I am still thinking about the pros and cons to this problem.

First Entry

Wow I have a blooger account now. I'm still gonna write in my Bloopdiary cause I have readers there. I have to use internet explorer for that cause firefox doesn't work with it. Anyways, I am looking for another job at the one I have now I don't get enough hours and I need money badly. I have a lot of things to save money for my first thing is to buy a car. That is all I am focused on and that I need a better job.

I have so much stress right now. Besides the fact that I am focusing on finding another job. I am still thinking about standing up to my freinds wedding. That is a long story and I will put more information about it later. Right now i am too tired to write anymore