My last day I was in California. I had video taped my sisters friend/roommates dog which is a puggle. At first she barked at me but then the next day she got better and by the end of the week she was good. Well I do miss playing with her. That what I was donig in the video. Well watch and enjoy.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EkCWvWLl8jU

Politics

~Just a quick update~
I am so sick and tied of hearing about politics. I am do glad that we only have the beginnig of next month. I am sick of Obama and his lies and BS talk. If he becomes president he will scew up America. He just tells the American people what they want to hear. When it all comes down to it, he is fake and full or hot air.

Well yesterday I went to see my friend Sarah and Elliot and their 2 beautiful baby girls. This was the second time I had seen them. I got to hold Ariana when I was at the hospital on my first visit and then yesterday I got to hold Rebecca and also Ariana. Holding them just makes me wanna have one of my own but one day I will.

when I was holding Rebecca, I made a joke to Sarah telling her that I was gonna take her home with me and Sarah wouldn't notice cause she has a another one. Then I said NO I wouldn't do that. Sarah is very lucky to have 2 beautiful baby girls and even though they are premature, they are both healthy.

Vegas 2009 Update 3

I had written months ago about gong to Vegas for my 30th Birthday. Well seems that I might still have classes then I might go in May. It was will during the week since I am on a budget and it's a lot cheaper to go during the week.

I know some of you had told me that you wanted to go and you are more and welcome to come. I will post more information on my blog when I know what dates,what hotel I will be staying at, and what we will be doing when we are there.

It will sure be a good time since I will be celebrating my 30th in Vegas and also what goes on in Vegas, stays in Vegas.

A little about me - Reliving my past

Music has always been in my life since I was a little girl and it will always be in my life until the day that I die. I also love to dance and that goes with music. My favorite music era has to be the 80's I grew up listening to the radio. I remember dancing in my grandmas living room with the radio. I go down in the basement and play. But there are songs that remind me of my past and when ever I hear them I think back to a place of my past. I sometimes cry cause some songs remind me of my grandma. I lived upstairs from my grandma from the time I was born to age 10. So I have many memories songs like Live to tell by Madonna remind me of my grandma and it's weird cause the day my grandma passed away that song was playing. I don't remember if it was before or after she did. Also when I hear Crazy for you by Madonna that also reminds me of my Grandma.

Babies

My friend Sarah and Elliot just had twin baby girls yesterday 10-01-08. Ariana Grace Stephens 5 lbs 9 oz and Rebecca Sierra Stephens 5 lbs 10 oz, Both are so adorable and precious. I even got the chance to hold one. The last time I held a new born was a long time ago and all I can say is that holding a new born is awesone. So small and cute with the little fingers and toes. I went to go see them today and both are healthy and doing good.Oh and the Mom too. I am very happy that Sarah and the babies are healthy and nothing went wrong during her c-section. I have heard some stories and I didn't want anything to happen to Sarah. Congratulates Sarah. If you need anything let me know I am happy to help you.

Then earlier on in the week my cousin Jordana had her second baby and it was another boy for her. I am hoping she is doing well.

I love getting happy news from my family and friends. Since some of you know that it has not been a good one for me. I know that God takes life away but he also gives life. The saying: One life goes away while another one is born. That is the way life goes.

Writings

I have been writing poetry for a long time now and I have given a lot of thought about publishing my poetry and I am also working publishing 2 books in the future and maybe even writing more. I have put this aside for a while cause I have had writers block and every chance I get a idea I write something down. I still have to do some research on the subjects of my books.

Time for a change - Part 2

Life is too short to think about a guy. What I need is a fresh new start in my life even though I don't like changes that much but it's time for me to end this chapter in my life and start a new one. A while ago I made this thing that I compared the good and bad about staying in Michigan and also about moving to California.
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~Moving to California~Good & Bad~

The Good

• Angela & Patricia live there
• Better job opportunities
  
• Warmer weather/ no snow
  
• Always something to do
  
• Start a new fresh new life
  
• Ocean / Beaches
  
• New places to visit
  
• Celebrities Expensive to live there
• Meet new people
  
• Make new friends
  
• I love the atmosphere
• Make new memories

The Bad

• Earthquakes
• Mudslides
• Fires
• Miss my family and friends
• Get used to living in a different state
• I’ll have to learn how to drive in California
• Drive in lots of traffic
• Away from Family and Friends
• Miss out on Family Functions

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Staying in Michigan ~ Good & Bad~

The Good

• My family and friends are here
  
• I’ve lived her all my life
  
• No major disasters
  
• Cheaper to live here
  
• Cheaper gas prices
  
• Won’t miss Family Functions
  

The Bad

• Miss out on better job opportunities
• Weather changes - 4 seasons
• There aren’t any jobs here
• My past is here
• Need to get out of this state
• Missing out on new experiences

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~Michigan to California Summary~

Overall I am still thinking about if I really want to move to California. It all depends on if I meet someone here and fall in love and we decide to get married then I’ll stay in Michigan but if I am single by age 30 then I will move to California to pursue a new life. Moving to California will give me the opportunity to start a fresh new life. I’ll be able to make new friends and memories. To be able to leave my past behind. I’ll be able to explore new things that California has to offer. Leaving all that I know here, my family, friends, and all of the memories I have made here. I need to start a new beginning of my life somewhere away from my past. I’ll keep all of my memories that are good close to my heart and let those bad fade away. This is why I need to start a new life in a another state other than Michigan.

When I leave Michigan to visit California I’m happy to step off the plane, get my luggage and out of the airport. To smell the California air, feel it on my skin. Then Angie comes to pick me up, I get in the car & glance around LAX airport as Angie heads to her apartment, I look at everyone living their lives, Then I stay for awhile and enjoy myself, then it’s time for me to leave to go back home, Angie takes me back to the airport, I say good -bye, I am sad and I feel like crying, as I leave to wait for my plane I get tears in my eyes, then I board the plane, about 4 hours later I get off the plane, step into the Michigan air, feel the Michigan air, My mom picks me up and then it’s HOME! But…..I do miss California when I am not visiting.
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As you can see that there are a lot more advantages to moving to California rather than saying in Michigan. I tried to think of more but I couldn't. I guess that California beats Michigan so until I can think about more good things about staying in Michigan I guess my future home will be in California.

Time for a change

Since I got back from my trip to California. I can't think how many times I go and visit California and every time I hate to leave and can't wait to go back again. Since 2002 I have been wanting ot move out to California. I know it costs a lot of money to live there but I know what I have to do to move out there. Save a lot of money, by a lot I mean I need to make enough money to help support myself. By paying my rent,bills such as my car, grocery, and the things I need for my apartment.

When I am in California I feel so much happier. I can see myself living there and dealing with the crazy traffic. I have never drove in it but I have been in it with my sister, so I know how bad it can be during rush hour. I know I have all my family and friends here but it's time for a change and for me to get a fresh start in my life. As soon as a get a full-time job I will be saving up for a car and then after I get a car I am saving to move out of my parents house. That is what I can not wait for. I need freedom from them. To live on my own will be a BIG change for me and it's a first time experience and everyone goes though it and I am hoping that I can do it. I am also hoping then when I do move out it will be to California.

I did look at some apartments and I am liking the one that my sisters live in. It's close to the 101 freeway and close to LA and many things to do and see.

What I love about California is........I love the weather and there are so many places to go and see. My different kinds of restaurants to eat at and not to mention the experience to live in California is so different Michigan. Plus I am hoping I can be lucky and find a good job out there making a lot of money so I can be able to support myself.

Hi everyone,

I am so happy that I am in California and having a good time so far. so many things planned and cant wait for the wine trip on Saturday.I will write about that when I get back. So far I went out to dinner with my older sister and her friend Jamie last night and right now I am going to keep Lola company.(my sisters friend/roommates puggle). I love this dog. she'll be suprised to noticve when I leave next week Wednesday that Lola will be gone. HEHE.Well anyways I hope everyone is doing well. I will see you when I get back. Well that is if I want to.

She's done it again!!!

OMG! The damn Dugger family has done it again. That woman can't keep her legs closed. She has to keep reproducing. She is on her 18th Child. I thought she was done a few kids ago. I just do not like that family for some reason. I don't know what kind of religion they are but they have to fashion sense and she needs to stop having these damn kids.

YAY...One more day

I can't believe I am leaving for California tomorrow.It is such a beautiful day out today and tomorrow will be the same and I checked the weather forecast for when I am there and it's gonna be nice, no rain for the week I am there but they do need it.

I will be taking the redeye flight back home on Wednesday, September 24 and I will arrive home in the morning If anyone wants to do something when I come home let me know.I will gvie you a call when I am in town when I all rested up on Friday.

It's 2:45 in the morning and I can't sleep

It's 2:45 in the morning and I can't sleep. I am so excited that I have one more day until I leave for California. It's been a couple years since my last visit. Lots of new things to see when I arrive. then I still have to pack and print out my e-ticket. I can't wait to see both of my sisters and cosin and go on my first wine trip Also I am exctied to see that my friend Sara is finally here back in Mi. Can't wait to see her then sometime this month or early next month my other friend Sarah is going to have twins. I am hoping they are healthy when they are born. Then I have my 10 year reunion in November and I never thought this day would come to quick. Damn I feel old. It will be good to see old classmates again. Then I keep asking my self where has summer gone. Well for a week for me it will still be warm. Ahh that California sun. I love it.

Unplug myself from everything today

My horoscope for September 11, 2008.........This kind of strange day doesn't come around very often, Kristine. It will seem as though you no longer know what you want. Do you have a yen to work or to take off for the other side of the globe? People may become nonplussed because you will be thinking that to explain your point of view is pointless. The best thing to do may be to unplug yourself from your usual activities and go for a walk. At this point, you have nothing to lose.
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Wow this is true. Right now I don't know what I want to do. So I am glad that I am going to California next week Wednesday. I need a vacation away from here and the state of Michigan. Later on tonight I am going to plan on taking a walk just so I can clear my thoughts and figure out what I want to do. Plus I had a dream last night that didn't make sense.

9/11 - 7 years later- The Day that changed the world.

Wow! Its been 7 years since the attacks in New York City, Shanksville Pennsylvania, and Washington DC. I am watching the replay of that day on September 11,2001 on MSNBC. This is the day that changed the U.S and probably the whole world.

I remember what I was doing on that day. I woke up and answered the phone and my sister was asking me if I knew what was going on and I said no so she told me turn on the TV and I saw one of the Twin Towers on fire. My first thought was there was a fire but as I was watching I heard a plane flew into it. It was on every news channel. Back then I was 22 years old and now here I am 7 years later and I am 29 years old. Watching TV and reliving that day. This is the day that the war started and still we haven't gotten Osama Bin Lade. We don't know if he is alive or dead. We hacent heard from him in a while but we have to be ready for him.

I was in California 7 years ago before 9/11 and I am going again after 9/11 and security has been really tight to protect the passengers flying.

~Moment of silence~
8:46 a.m. - Marking the time of impact at the north tower.

9:03 a.m. - Marking time of impact at south tower.

9:59 a.m. - Marking collapse of the south tower.

10:29 a.m. - Marking collapse of the north tower.

We will never forget what happened on September 11, 2001.

I can't believe it happened

Well on Saturday I had my friend Sarah's Baby Shower. It was nice she had about 25 women there. When the Baby Shower ended I was waiting to help them and Amanda walked by and said she thought my purse was cute and I said thank you. Well anyways, I had helped bring the pop to their house and who else helped was Shawn (Kevin's Girlfriend) and Amanda (my ex-boyfriend's wife) . I had talked to some of Elliot's family until Tom called and I talked to him for a while and he asked me who was there and I told him some of Elliot's family,Shawn and Amanda. then after I got off the phone with him Amanda was talking to Sarah about going to dinner for my ex-boyfriend's birthday. Then as I got off the phone with Tom. She asked me me if I wanted to join them as I was more than welcome to join them and I said yes. So I went to pick up Tom and we went on our way. So we headed to their condo and waited for Kevin and Elliot and Sarah. Then we all headed to Fishbone's on the Nautical Mile in St Clair Shores.

We go there waited about 15 minutes for a table and then we got seated. We all talked I even talked to Amanda for a bit. I can't even believe that I would actullay talking to her and I was fine with it. By that I knew am over my ex. After dinner we went back to my ex's condo and had drinks and some ice cream cake which was good.

Over all I had a long day and I am glad that had happened and it is done with. I already got a thank you note from Sarah. This is the fastest I had ever gotten a thank you note for someone. I can't wait till she has the babies. I will go see her when they are born.

I have 1 week till I leave for California and I am getting excited to see my sisters and cousin Donna and not to mention Lola my sisters friend/roommate Jamie's Dog. It's a cute puggle and I'm going to be able to play with it during the day. I love dogs. When I arrive I plan on gong to dinner with my sisters but I'll see what happens cause both of my sisters have been fighting and I hope they make up when I get there.

Another Wedding Dream

Lat night I had another Wedding Dream but this time I saw myself Thin and wearing a Red wedding Dress. Why a red wedding dress. I don't know. I am a traditional girl and I would not be wearing a red wedding dress on my wedding day. Anyways, I was walking around waiting to get married. There were a few before me. The bouquets were fake and they looked ugly as hell. Not my style. Then somehow I was ducking and trying to hide while I was walking so that none of my guests could see me. I think I saw my friend Tom standing at the end of the aisle waiting for me but I wasn't sure. Right now I am not focusing on him. I have more important things to focus on such as my cleaning business.

Well anyways here is what dreammoods.com has to say.....To wear a wedding dress in your dream, indicates that you are evaluating and assessing your personal relationship......ok what I don't know is what this exactly means. It could mean many things, like I am trying to figure out if I should really forget about Tom or just leave it alone and let things work out on their own until I am focused on my life and that is going to take a while. Since I will be starting MCTI soon and then it'll take me 6 months to Graduate and then I will be focused on finding a full-time job while I am trying to figure out my cleaning business.

A New Beginning

~My Horoscope for Today~
You can expect your mood to improve today, Kristine. The projects that you have at the moment, both professional and private, should be progressing well. You feel reassured and are encouraged to make some new plans. If you continue to keep up the good rhythm you will have success redefining your professional life...
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I had another wedding dream last night but this time I wasn't getting married it was my cousin Lucy which is already married and I was her Maid of Honor. So I looked up what my dream meant and this is what it means....To see a wedding in your dream, symbolizes a new beginning or transition in your current life. Dreams involving weddings are often negative and highlight some anxiety or fear. It often refers to feelings of bitterness, sorrow, or death. Alternatively, wedding dreams reflect your issues about commitment and independence.

Venting : Confused & I don't care

Last night I was over my friend Elliot's House and we were talking about things and some how we were talking about guys and girls and somehow he mentioned that I wasn't his type and pats me the leg. Then he still touches me and when we calls me he says how is my sexy mama. He said he does like this girl named Sheryl and wants to know how he can get her to go out with her then I tell him. I told myself this is my last draw and I will not be interested in him. I have too many things on my mind to think about some guy. I still want to move to California in the future. I still have things here to get accomplished before I start a new chapter in my life.

I am still thinking about owning my own cleaning business. I am focused on that getting the things I need to get done. I still have some thinking to do and I am so confused about Tom's actions. Since he did tell me I am not his type then I am taking that it's a sign telling me to back off and stop the flirting and stop thinking about men. I do hate them. They are nothing but trouble and right now and I need to focus on me.

Venting

~My Horoscope for Today~
If things haven't been going too well with those you spend the majority of your time with, it might be time to consider your expectations of them. Ask yourself what kinds of demands you place on others and if they're truly fair. Is it possible that you expect the same from others as what you give but that maybe they aren't able to match your level of performance? Consider talking with the people involved and find out how they are feeling.
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My horoscope is partly true. I am pissed that I always have to see my friend and he never wants to see me at my house. It's all one sided. All he cares about is himself and his own feelings. I don't know how to tell him in a way I don't want to have him get mad at me. It's been hard for me to express my feelings to anyone. I always keep them to myself. But I am sure that if Tom and I ever get together I am not gonna be seeing him as much as I am now or else we won't see each other.