Update

It's been a long time since I last wrote in here. My life has been a mess. I'm trying to focus and slowly start to organize and work on all my problem spots. Starting with distancing myself from my feelings for Tom. It's going to go back to where I didn't have these feelings.

Today set it off when I hung out with Him. I now see how selfish and rude he is. All he cares about is himself. I'm second thinking our friendship. I'm sick and tired of his selfishness. He doesn't see it. I want to say something but I don't want to start an argument. He has disappointed me many times and when I do it to him he does it right back. He is SO SELFISH to see I'm trying to teach him a lesson. I hope he stays single for the rest of his life.

I have so much anger and disappointment bottled up inside me that needs to be said to him that I kind of take it out on other people. My focus is on finding a job, my health, and planning my future business. My plate is too full to think about love. Even though I'm lonely and want to be in love. I guess that is the story of my life, always being alone. Weather it's lack of friendship to having guys not attracted to me.

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