Staying Positive

I am so fortunate that I have a family and friends I love. I have done the things I wanted to do so far and still need goals to accomplish. I believe that I can do anything I can put my mind too. Soon my life will be changing and I'll have job and then soon I will get a car.

Failure is not a option anymore. I have to do anything I can to get myself on track to a life of my own and block out the negative people and thoughs in my life and I gotta keep on reaching my goals.

The Biggest Loser

When I watch the Biggest Loser. I get motivated to workout and get healthy. I love this show and I thought I would want to be on it but after 7 seasons of watching it. they put the contestants to hell. they really lose a large amount of weight in a small period of time. I am lucky to lose 2 lbs. I have to work hard at exercising and eating healthy.

Looking Forward

I can't wait till I am finished with MCTI then I will be on my way on to establishing my life. On to bigger and better things.

On to bigger and better things

I can't wait till I am finished with MCTI then I will be on my way on to establishing my life. Once I get a job then I can check off that off my list then I can focus on saving money for a car after that I have to start saving to move out maybe even into a apartment or even better yet to move to California. I will be able to buy my own groceries, go to my own church and be able to support it. I also want to learn how to cook healthy for me and my parents. Plus it will save me money and also I am sick of always going out to eat.

I was talking to Tom yesterday and he was telling me that he went to Assumption Grotto and after he was helping out with the pancake breakfast. He was playing basketball with some 10 year old boys and he told me that he would be a great father and I said priest and he said no a dad. So I don't know why he said that. I just hope that he will be able to follow through into the priest hood. I have given up on him and on to bigger and better things. I will support him either way and I hope he goes through this.

My Priorities

I have a lot of priorities to focus on and my first one is my career and to get to my career I have to go through MCTI study hard and graduate and then after my priorities come into focus.

1. career
2. weight loss
3. buying a car

I just want to establish a carrer so that I know I am doing something with my life. Im not a loser just sitting at home and not doing nothing. I also don't want to be living at my parents house.

Poland, Prague, and Budapest

I want to go to Poland, Prague, and Budapest with my sisters, cousins and some of her friends. By then I would be done with school and that ends on July 11. They are leaving on Aug 27 and staying till Sept 14. I hope to have a full time job and start working so I will have a little money for myself. I really want to go and I hope I can borrow some money from my mom and sister. Once I start working I can pay it back. I would like to travel to some other county other than Canada. If I am not able to go then it wasn't meant to be. I will be able to go one day.

Why I want to move to California

Pros

• My Sisters live here
• My Cousin live here
  
• Better job opportunities
  
• Warmer weather/no snow
• Always something to do
• Start a new fresh new life - A start of a new chapter in my life.
  
• Ocean
• Beaches
  
• New places to visit
• Celebrities
  
• Meet new people
• Make new friends
  
• I love the atmosphere - I wnat to live the California Life,
• Make new memories

Cons

• Earthquakes
• Mudslides
• Fires
• Miss my family and friends
• Get used to living in a different state
• I’ll have to learn how to drive in California
• Drive in lots of traffic
• Expensive to live there
• Away from Friends
• Miss out on Family Functions
  

Pros

• My family and friends are here
• I’ve lived her all my life
• No major disasters
• Cheaper to live here
• Cheaper gas prices
• Won’t miss out on Family Functions

Cons

• Miss out on better job opportunities
  
• Weather changes - 4 seasons
• There aren’t any jobs here
• My past is here
• Need to get out of this state
• Missing out on new experiences

~Why I want to move to California~

When I leave Michigan to visit California I’m happy to step off the plane, get my luggage and out of the airport. To smell the California air, feel it on my skin. Then Angie comes to pick me up, I get in the car & glance around LAX airport as Angie heads to her apartment, I look at everyone living their lives, Then I stay for awhile and enjoy myself, then it’s time for me to leave to go back home, my sister takes me back to the airport, I say good -bye, I am sad and I feel like crying, as I leave to wait for my plane I get tears in my eyes, then I board the plane, about 4 hours later I get off the plane, step into the Michigan air, feel the Michigan air, My mom picks me up and then it’s HOME! But…..I do miss California when I am not visiting.

I want my new home to be California. It will be good for me to move here. It's a fresh start in my life with a new state and a new atmosphere. I make new friends and drive in the California traffic and live my life as a Califorian. I can't wait to finally move and start a new chapter in my life.

I will be back to Michigan to visit that is for sure cause my family and friends are here. I just need a new life and that is why I want to move to California.

I need a new life. Away from my past and I need to make new memories. Since 2008 my younger sister Patricia, Neha and Rich (my older sisters friends), and Keri (my younger sister friend) have moved there and soon rich will be there. It is a bad time in Michigan with may people losing their job and moving out of state to find work.

Having a good day

Horoscope for January 23, 2009
You awake this morning feeling happy and enthusiastic, Kristine. Your intuition is telling you that you will achieve whatever you set your mind to. Whatever your goals are, whether they are success with your career, in your studies or in your personal life, you are bound to succeed. If you don't have a significant someone by your side to support your steady progress, all signs indicate that you will meet someone soon. If you already have a mate, lucky you!
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When I read this it put a smile on my face and what it said it was true caue I did wake up feeling happy and enthusiastic. I know that I can achieve what ever I can set my mind to and I hope to have success in whatever career I am supposed to do and with school I will be going on February 24th. Then comes my personal life I know I am succeeding. I am setting focus on my goals and I am seeing them accomplished. There comes love, well I am not focusing on that right now and I am just wait till he comes and finds me. I have more important things to think about then finding a guy in my life. If I meet someone with out even expecting it then it will be good. I believe that things happen for a reason and there is a time a place when things happen for you.

The East Coast to the West Coast

I can't stop thinking about how my future how much better it will be with me going to MCTI and after when I graduate, It will be hell living in a dorn and I have to study hard and focus on my studies. I can not wait until I save enough money to move out of Michigan and to California.

I love watching shows that on TV and I see LA. Its like awww I so can not wait till I will be able to finally know that for sure I will be moving out there when I get a apartment. My older sister is looking for a condo and it would be night to move in with her until I can get my feet on the ground but I want to show everyone I can do it on my own without no one helping me just like it was in the past until now.

Closer to California

It's 50 percent official. I finally got my packet from MCTI. When I go and register then that is when it will be 100 percent. I am so excited cause all I want is to go to that school and then graduate and finally get a full time job and start making money so I can start saving it. Then I can buy a car of my own and go anywhere I want to go.

I leave MCTI on February 23rd and start class the next day. I have a lot to do before then to get ready and packed. Then in between I will come home a couple times and then on May 15th is registration for the summer term ans that will go through July 10 and then I graduate on July 11th.

I an getting closer to moving out of Michigan and to California. I can not wait till that day when I can say goodbye to MI and hello to CA. Leaving the East coast to the West Coast. It will be an end of a chapter in my life and a start of a new one.

Staying Focused

I weighted myself today and I lost 3 lbs which is good but not cause the last time I weighted myself I was 265 and now I am 262. I have to be back below 259. I have to keep focused and watch what I eat and exercise. I exercised a little yesterday an I also exercised today. Shoveled the snow they plowed on the driveway and I also did some weights. I still have more to do on my stability ball but I will do them tonight.

All I want

1. In my life all I want is to establish a career which I am focusing on.
2. Weight loss in which I am struggling with but tiring to work on.
3. Love, well love can wait. I have more important things to focus on than finding love.

I have made my decision and I am sticking to it

My Horoscope for January 19, 2009

A deep and intimate conversation could take place today between you and a romantic interest, Kristine. If this is officially only a casual relationship, it may suddenly become more. If you're involved but not committed, an understanding could be reached. If you're already committed, there may even be talk of marriage. The end result of this conversation should be, needless to say, happiness for both of you. Celebrate tonight at home.
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WOW!!! All I can say this is so off. I don't have a love at this time cause I am too busy focusing on me. My first priority in my life is to establish a career and then get a car of my own and then to get the hell out of my parents house and in to a apartment of my own. Then in the near future I want move out of Michigan and to California.

Tom is on his journey into the priesthood and I am supporting him on his decision. If something happens when he decides that the priest hood isn't for him and he tells me that he has feelings for me then by then I will long gone. I have made my decision and I am sticking to it. By that I am a lot more happier.

I also a few weeks ago and 2 nights ago. I had another dream about my grandma. A few weeks ago we were downstairs in her old bacement and then 2 nights ago I was in her old house in the living room I was hugging her and she was laughing and happy. I miss her but I am happy that she is in a bette place where she won't have to suffer anymore. I will see her when my time has come and that will be a long time. I will always think of her and she will always be with me in my heart and she will be with me on my wedding day. I will have a meery frame on my bouguet and I will walk down the aisle with her rosery as my something old.

Looking back

I am so happy that Talia and I are friends again. I missed her so much. I forget how funny she is and I love that she can make me laugh. Back in 2004 we ended our friendship over something stupid and she told me she also missed me and it good to know that I have her back in my life. Also Talis's mom told her that it was about time her and I were friends again. I also missed Karina and Dave and all the gang. We had so much fun together in the past and it sucks that Talia is now in Louisiana but I can always see her when she comes to visit. We both forgave and forget about the past that was bad and we can never forget the good times we had and oh did we have them. Those memories is what I had thought about before I seen Talia.

When she was in town during Christmas I am glad that I met with her and I got to see Karina,Dave, and Trina. Now the one other person I wish I was in good terms with is Annemarie. I did see her that day I seen Talia but maybe one day I hope we can rekindle our friendship but all I have to do is wait until something comes up. It was my fault that we aren't friends anymore. I was a bitch. I am hoping that I can have enough courage to write her and apologize for what I said 4 years ago. I would like to see if we can become friends again is she wants to and if she doesn't then it will be ok then at least I know what she thinks.

Diet Plans

I was thinking that once I get a full time job and get myself working and established that I will be able to buy my own grocery's. I was thinking about trying NutriSystem, I think it's cheaper than Jenny Craig and I have heard the pros and cons to the diet system. So I will maybe try it when I get the money.

1. Take your Vitmins
2. Drink Water
3. Eat on hour before and right after you exercise

No Support

I am so pissed that the MCTI packet hasn't come in yet and it's already Saturday. I'll have to wait until later until the mail comes. Well anyways, I started looking for a job already and I have been looking forward to that packet cause by that I am close to seeing a brighter future.

The way I am now is because of my parents. I blame them for not supporting my dreams. They never believed in me and that is why I am 29 with no job and unsuccessful with both my sister had been supportive by my parents. They both graduated from U of M and now are in the same field successful. It hurts me to think that I am a loser.

All I want is to have a career going for me with a car of my own,a apartment. Being able to support myself. I want to show my parents that I can do this on my own. Once I move out I will not be calling or visiting for a while. I need to be on my own to live my own life with out the support of my parents.

Portion Control

I just got home from the gym. I worked out at LA Fitness. I did 15 minutes on the treadmill and 20 on the Elliptical. As I was almost done with my workout one of the workers/trainers come up to me and asked if I had my free personal training and I said no and he told me that when I was done to come talk to him and I did and scheduled a appointment for January 14th at 3:00. I am looking forward to that. I feel good that I wanted to go to the gym but didn't feel like it so the secret is that I have to go the gym no matter what I feel. Just get up and go.

The thing I have to focus on is eating healthy = Portion Control and along with that is working out = cardio and weight training.

I feel good that I worked out and also I went the full 20 minutes on the Elliptical, which kicked my ass. The last 5 minutes I was thinking if the Biggest Loser contents can do this...so can I and I had Jillian Michales in my mind telling me I could do it and not give up.

A Summary of My Life - What makes me happy!!!!

God - With out having my belief in him. My life would be lost and would head down the wrong direction. I need him to guide me in the right direction so that I can continue to believe in myself and become successful. I used to pray when I was younger but somehow I didn't until last year. When I began praying again my life is focused and I happier.

Family - I love and cherish my family. I don't know what I would do if I didn't have a family and also have my extended with my Aunts and uncles and cousins.

Friends - If I didn't have friends I would be alone. I love that whatever I do I have friends that I can hang out with and have fun. That makes me happy to know I have friends.

Music - Music has been in my life since I was a little girl. I could not live without it. I love listening ot all kinds of music, playing it on my guitar and even writing it.

Writing Poetry - I've been writing poetry since I was a child and since then I have gotten a lot better. I am glad I have the ability to write it and express my feelings in this way. I keep all my poetry private cause they mean so much to me. They come from my heart and soul. I hope to one day publish them for the whole world to see.

Changes instead of Resolutions

There are going to be a lot of changes between This month until the end of the year. I am from nwo on not making any resolutions but instead I am going to change a little through out this year. I plan on going to the gym today at LA Fitness. Since I am paying 29.99 a month I need to take advantage of this great gym with a lot of machines to choose from and its also nice to see the men working out. I love eye candy. My problem is that I make alot of excuses like oh I don't feel like going so I will go tomorrow. I have to stop that and it's getting me no where. I have to learn how to stick to working out 3 days a week for 30 minutes, which it's a start to get back on this diet wagon.

My diet wagon has stopped and it's hard to get back on again. But today is a new day that I will start getting healthy.

Taurus: Yearly Overview - Outlook for 2009

It's time to celebrate yourself, Taurus! You are pouring yourself into your life's mission and rejuvenating yourself with abundant thinking, which attracts great things to you. You're diligently creating a public arena where opportunities will emerge for you to be a teacher or messenger. Engagements for speaking, writing and sharing your thoughts will open up. Other people will be inspired by your enthusiasm and insight, and will support you in accomplishing your goals.

Taurus's excitement radiates more than ever this year, bringing with it a magnificent energy the world has been lacking. As you embrace the power of your heart and spirit, you are allowing yourself to transform and align with a universal energy source. You discover the space for your creativity to flow and abundantly bring the truth of your being into the world. Your focus on your connection with a higher purpose brings out the best in you and refines your self-expression.

You appreciate all the expansive shifts that are taking place in your life, and you are learning to break up routines and old patterns of rigidity. This allows you a new level of awareness and acceptance of your ultimate purpose. Pay attention to what has heart and meaning. Express your truth and you will advance. You will find avenues to bring your talents and belief systems to philanthropic endeavors. By the end of the year, you will be able to slow down a bit and find more time to enjoy the new you that you have created.

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I so hope this is true. This gives me a positeve outlook on my future and more good things are about to come as time goes on. By the time I graduate from MCTI. I will have a degree in something I can get a decent pay job. Me going to this school is just a stepping stone for my life and hope it will bring me a good job with good pay and benifits. So I can be able to save enough money to buy a car and move out of Michigan and move to California.

Things are looking up

Wow, so far this year been good to me. 2 days ago I called my counselor at MRH and left a message. It seems that every time I call her she is out of the office but the next day she got my message and e-mailed MCTI and as soon as she got a responce she called me and told me that they said they would sent me the information packet yesterday and I should be getting it sometime next week. I am excited cause this means that I am half way closer to seeing a brighter future.

My plan still is after I graduate from MCTI in 6 months that I would find a full time job here and to get work experince and save up money to buy a car and then to save money so I can move out to California. I am positive the future will bring me success that I am looking for and be able to reach a lot of my goals I set for myself. I think 2009 will be my year to finally see my dreams come true.

Ashamed

Ashamed is how I feel right now. I am having a hard time getting back on the wagon. I just need to tray harder and stayed focused. Since I don't have to worry about a man. I need to make myself my #1 priority in my life. Starting with finding a job and now I can focus on getting healthy. I have to stop worrying about the future and start living in the now. This year I am taking little steps to change and I hope this is my year to finally change my self from the outside

My Plan

My upcoming plan is to attended MCTI and then in 6 months graduate and after I graduate find a full time job here and save money for a car and then to save money for my move to California. Here is a list I made......

Save money for……

1. California Diver License
2. A car - Down payment/car payments/Insurance and registration
3. Apartment - Deposit/monthly rent
4. Groceries - Food
5. Necessities - shampoo/toothpaste/face wash
6. Couch (maybe)
   
7. Kitchen - Table/Chairs/Pots, Pans/Silverware/
8. Bedroom - Bedroom Set - mattress/
9. Bathroom - Bathroom Towels
10. TV/DVD - VCR Player/Desk/Chair/Computer - Laptop/Radio/Bookcase/CD Bookcase/Cable/Internet

A year of Luck and Happiness

This year has been looking up for me. Nothing but good things have been happening to me. So far USC (one of my favorite Teams) won the Rose Bowl against Penn State and then today my least favorite team OSU lost the Fiesta Bowl against Texas. All I have to say that I hope that this year brings me a lot of good luck and success with a job and weight loss and maybe if I am supper lucky a move to California.

The last 2 years 2007 and 2008 were bad for me with my grandma getting sick on the end of 07 and then passing away in March 2008. Then my cousin Donna got a divorce and I hope this year will be a year of luck and happiness for me and my family.

Life as a Californian

Its the new year and a lot of things will be changing this year. I spent my new year with Tom at his cousins girlfriends house. It was a fun night.

Since Tom will be going into the priest hood. I am free of him and will be focused on moving to California. I no longer have feelings for him and I am happy to say that my mind is on Cali. Every time I see a show that takes place in California. I think of how it will be for me to move out there and live my life as a Californian. I will be close to my sisters and cousin. My older sisters friends Neha and Rich moved there last year along with my little sisters friend Kari.It's like what the hell. Its my turn to move out there.