There is something that I'm afraid that will get in my way of moving out to California but I'm keeping in mind that it is my life and I make the decisions. No one is going to stop me from doing what I want to do.
The one thing that is getting in the way is Tom. I keep thinking that he will somehow he's going to change my mind. But I gotta remember those 3 things he had said to me in the past. The first thing was that straight out I wasn't his type. The next thing was when I asked him if he wanted to go to the movies and he said that going to the movies was like going on a date. The last thing was when I had my arm on the arm rest and he said why do you have your arm there it's not like were a couple.
I'm remembering that every time I have my doubts. I think that I still have feelings for him that its hard to let go and I'm still hoping that he'll tell me he likes me. So after I've given it a lot of thought and I said in my last few posts that I'm not waiting anymore for anyone. I'm making things happen in my life and not gonna wait anymore cause all that will lead to is me holding back on my dreams and being unhappy.
I can't stop thinking about what it would be like to start my new life. I can vision what my life will be living my life on my own. It's gonna be scary at first but I know that once I am used to my new lifestyle it won't be scary anymore.
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