Remeber the 80's

1. You've ever ended a sentence with the word SIKE.
2. You can sing the rap to the Fresh Prince of Bel-Air and can do the Carlton
3. You know that 'WOAH' comes from Joey on Blossom
4. If you ever watched 'Fraggle Rock'
5. It was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons.
6. You wore a ponytail on the side of your head.
7. You got super-excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.
8. You made your mom buy one of those clips that would hold your shirt in a knot on the side.
9. You played the game 'MASH'(Mansion, Apartment, Shelter, House)
10. You wore stonewashed Jordache jean jackets and were proud of it.
11. You know the profound meaning of ' WAX ON , WAX OFF'
12. You wanted to be a Goonie.
13. You ever wore fluorescent clothing. (Some of us...head-to-toe)
14. You can remember what Michael Jackson looked like before his nose fell off, his cheeks shifted and his nationality became questionable.
15. You have ever pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.
16. You took lunch boxes to school...and traded Garbage Pail Kids in the schoolyard.
17. You remember the CRAZE, then the BANNING of slap bracelets.
18. You still get the urge to say 'NOT' after every sentence.
19. You thought your childhood friends would never leave because you exchanged handmade friendship bracelets.
21. You ever owned a pair of Jelly-Shoes.
22. After you saw Pee-Wee's Big Adventure you kept saying 'I know you are, but what am I?'
23. You remember 'I've fallen and I can't get up'
24. You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates.
25.. You have ever played with a Skip-It.
26. You remember boom boxes and walking around with one on your shoulder like you were all that.
27. You remember watching both Gremlins movies.
28. You thought Doogie Howser/Samantha Micelli was hot.
29. You remember Alf, the lil furry brown alien from Melmac.
30. You remember New Kids on the Block when they were cool... and don't even flinch when people refer to them as 'NKOTB'
31. You knew all the characters names and their life stories on 'Saved By The Bell,' The ORIGINAL class.
32. You know all the words to Bon Jovi - SHOT THROUGH THE HEART.
33. You just sang those words to yourself.
34. You still sing 'We are the World'
35. You tight rolled or french cuffed your jeans. And still debate on which is the right term!
36. You owned a bannana clip.
37. You remember 'Where's the Beef?'
38. You used to (and probably still do) say 'What you talkin' 'bout Willis?'
39. You're still singing shot through the heart in your head, aren't you!

Vegas

I can't believe that time is going by fast and soon I will be on my way to MCTI. My sister IMed me on Facebook and she was asking if we were still planning on going to Vegas for my 30th since I will turn 30 when I am up at school. I told her that I thought we weren't going since she has a trip planned to Poland then she said that we can still go end of July beginning of August for 5 days. I am hoping that I will be able to go I need wanted to do this for a while.

Taurus Outlook for 2009

It's time to celebrate yourself, Taurus! You are pouring yourself into your life's mission and rejuvenating yourself with abundant thinking, which attracts great things to you. You're diligently creating a public arena where opportunities will emerge for you to be a teacher or messenger. Engagements for speaking, writing and sharing your thoughts will open up. Other people will be inspired by your enthusiasm and insight, and will support you in accomplishing your goals.

Taurus's excitement radiates more than ever this year, bringing with it a magnificent energy the world has been lacking. As you embrace the power of your heart and spirit, you are allowing yourself to transform and align with a universal energy source. You discover the space for your creativity to flow and abundantly bring the truth of your being into the world. Your focus on your connection with a higher purpose brings out the best in you and refines your self-expression.

You appreciate all the expansive shifts that are taking place in your life, and you are learning to break up routines and old patterns of rigidity. This allows you a new level of awareness and acceptance of your ultimate purpose. Pay attention to what has heart and meaning. Express your truth and you will advance. You will find avenues to bring your talents and belief systems to philanthropic endeavors. By the end of the year, you will be able to slow down a bit and find more time to enjoy the new you that you have created.

Amazing

Horoscope for February 13, 2009

In spite of your feelings to the contrary, you are bound to be successful. It is likely that you are involved in some sort of group project that is requiring a lot of time and effort of you. All indications are that those efforts will pay off shortly. Continue to work those long hours, even if it means pulling an all-nighter or two. In just a few months time you will have caught up on your sleep and will be rolling in the money.
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When I saw this I knew my future was on the right track. I has a weird dream last night, I was playing a slot game at a hotel lobby. I was next to Kara (Jeana's daughter from the real house wife's of Orange Country). This was my second dream that I had of her that she was in it. I guess I was friends with her. Anyways, I had won over 2,000 dollars but what happened was the women came and I couldn't find my purse and then my mom came and told me that my purse was in the hotel room. Then after I woke up so I don't know what would of happened after.

Then I went on dreammoods.com and looked for money and this is what it says......

• To see or win money in your dream, symbolizes that success and prosperity is within your reach. Money may represent confidence, self-worth, success, or values. You have much belief in yourself. Alternatively, dreaming about money, refers to your attitudes about love and matters of the heart. It is frequently a symbol for sexuality and power. In particular, finding money indicates your quest for love or for power.

This makes me happy to know that in the future I will be seeing successs and that I have been wanting for a long time and I can't wait will I finally see my dreams coming true. All I want is to be successful and make a lot of money to where I can buy things I want and still not have to worry about if I have enough in the bank.

I'm freaking out

I was watching the Clean House on Style Network and when it was finished it was Dress my Nest and I heard a name I recognized and she said she was from Michigan and yes it was her it was Angie Greenup. She hasn't changed at all. I guess she now lives in California. I guess she was on The Price is right and she won some furniture on the showcase showdown and she hates and wanted Thom (from Queer Eye for the straight guy) to fix her house up. She owns a company called So Cal Booty Camp.

Wedding Reviewer Part 2

I was thinking that once I have money rolling in and I have a car of my own that I will be trying out the !st place to 5th place and seeing if these Wedding vendors are the best in Metro Detroit. I know that I can't right away book a Venue but I will try my best to get other brides reviews. I will be reviewing......

• Bakers
• Photographers
  

Update

Last Friday My parents,sister, and I went to my old neighborhood. I didn't want to go back but I had no other choice. It's hard to go back to my past to where I grew up but in the end I was ok with it. My grandmas old house and the ones and the 2 my parents used to own are all owned by Mexicans who are fixing it up. I am glad to see that they aren't ruined.

Then Last night I was on my phone checking Facebook and my ex-boyfriends wife posted some of her wedding pictures. I never thought I would ever see them but I am kinda glad that I did.I will be having a much better and more expensive wedding than theirs. The Wedding pictures turned out crappy, the cake looked horrible and not to mention she only had a Maid of Honor and one Bridesmaid. Her Dress and the bridesmaids dresses looked ugly and the flowers were also ugly. She has no style or class even though she pretends too.

I will have all the best vendors that I can afford and it will all be put together beautify.

My Horoscope

My Horoscope for February 5, 2009

If you have had a long-standing interest in film or photography, today would be a good day to explore that interest further, Kristine. You will likely receive an opportunity to learn some of the intricacies of the craft. And who knows, maybe you will decide to go into the business on a professional basis. If indeed this is your true love, you should find a way to incorporate it into your life in whatever way possible.
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I have so many dreams and one of them is to get into photography. I want to buy myself a professional camera and learn how to take really good photographs. It's a hobby so I don't care if it doesn't turn into something professional.

I am still tying to figure out if my dream of becoming a Massage Therapist is still alive deep inside of me. I have a lot to focus on. To my #1 focus at MCTI and finding a job after I graduate to really think about what i really want out of my life.

A Really Good Dream

I just had a really good dream last night. It all started when my family and I went over my cosin Thresa's house. I didn't see Rob my cousins husband and my dad but it had her sons TJ an drew. We were sitting at the table eating dinner then after it went to me making out with a guy. I don't remmebber his name though. I think it was Dave but anyways when we were leaving and I kissed and hudgged my cousin good-bye she told me that I had a glow to my face. Then my dream turned to me at home on the computer with my friend Tom behimd me. He saw that I hs some persoal ads through my e-mail and I don't remember what he said. Then at he end and the greatest part is that I got married. It was was some glitsy hollywood banquet area. It looked awesome. I was in the womans room to where the bride and other woman could do their thing. I hung up my dress like it was a showing at a meusum. I looked up and there was my cosun Janae and Kim Kardashian congrating me. By them I had already changed and I walked back to my seat. You think that I would of sat by my husband but I was sitting my mom mom and dad. I don't know where my sisters were or by that fact my husband. As I was getting my slef comfortable I look up and it was Khole Kardashian. I got up to give her a hug. She said to me hi my bestfriend congratualtions then we hugged. Then I woke up.

Wow! Now that was a good dream. I hope when I move to California I will get the chance to meet some celebrities and become friends with them.

21 more days

I will be studying my ass off to be able to pass my classes so I can graduate in 6 months I can't believe that days are getting closer and I just can't wait to start and be finished with MCTI. I just want my life to start. To start working and saving money so I can buy my own car.. This will be a good experience for me knowing that it is like to live in a dorm like my sisters experienced.

The countdown

The countdown is on and I am excited. I am finally gonna be doing something with my life. MCTI is just a stepping stone to bigger and better things. I don't want to go but its something I have to do in order for me to be successful in my life. I leave on February 24th and my first day is February 25th. Then I am in school through July. On July 11th I graduate. Then when I arrive at home the next ay my first call will be to Sarah telling her I am ready for my process to finding a good full time job.

I want to go to Poland, Prague and Budapest with my sister on Aug 27 to Sept 14 but I dont know if I I'll be able to go but I'll have to wait and see.

New Career

I wanna start a new career in the wedding industry. I think I would call it Wedding Reviewer Since I love weddings so much/ I wanna have a website were bides can go to like the knot but I want to be the main source for brides. Such as the best of the best Brides can e-mail me their vendor reviews and based on the most of good reviews on a grading scale. I will start of with the Best of the Best of Metro Detroit.

I will have reviews on the best

• Reception Venue
• Photographer
  
• Videographer
• Baker
• and many more......

I will be there for the bride. I also want to able to work with the vendor somehow. Have them tell me what they offer and I can put it on my site and I will post the bride reviews along with that Vendor.

Process to MCTI

I already accomplished a goal on my list and that was attend MCTI since I am leaving in 24 days. I already marked that off.

• ~ Attend MCTI (Accomplish Date :February 24, 2009)

During school my main focus is to study hard to get good grades in order for me to go to my next step and that step is to graduate.

Then the next step is to find a full time job and once I do that save enough money to put a down payment on a used car. For that I am going to my cousin. He is a used car manager. I rather go to him and give him the commission rather than someone I don't trust and give him the commission on my sale.

Staying Positive

I am so fortunate that I have a family and friends I love. I have done the things I wanted to do so far and still need goals to accomplish. I believe that I can do anything I can put my mind too. Soon my life will be changing and I'll have job and then soon I will get a car.

Failure is not a option anymore. I have to do anything I can to get myself on track to a life of my own and block out the negative people and thoughs in my life and I gotta keep on reaching my goals.

The Biggest Loser

When I watch the Biggest Loser. I get motivated to workout and get healthy. I love this show and I thought I would want to be on it but after 7 seasons of watching it. they put the contestants to hell. they really lose a large amount of weight in a small period of time. I am lucky to lose 2 lbs. I have to work hard at exercising and eating healthy.

Looking Forward

I can't wait till I am finished with MCTI then I will be on my way on to establishing my life. On to bigger and better things.

On to bigger and better things

I can't wait till I am finished with MCTI then I will be on my way on to establishing my life. Once I get a job then I can check off that off my list then I can focus on saving money for a car after that I have to start saving to move out maybe even into a apartment or even better yet to move to California. I will be able to buy my own groceries, go to my own church and be able to support it. I also want to learn how to cook healthy for me and my parents. Plus it will save me money and also I am sick of always going out to eat.

I was talking to Tom yesterday and he was telling me that he went to Assumption Grotto and after he was helping out with the pancake breakfast. He was playing basketball with some 10 year old boys and he told me that he would be a great father and I said priest and he said no a dad. So I don't know why he said that. I just hope that he will be able to follow through into the priest hood. I have given up on him and on to bigger and better things. I will support him either way and I hope he goes through this.

My Priorities

I have a lot of priorities to focus on and my first one is my career and to get to my career I have to go through MCTI study hard and graduate and then after my priorities come into focus.

1. career
2. weight loss
3. buying a car

I just want to establish a carrer so that I know I am doing something with my life. Im not a loser just sitting at home and not doing nothing. I also don't want to be living at my parents house.

Poland, Prague, and Budapest

I want to go to Poland, Prague, and Budapest with my sisters, cousins and some of her friends. By then I would be done with school and that ends on July 11. They are leaving on Aug 27 and staying till Sept 14. I hope to have a full time job and start working so I will have a little money for myself. I really want to go and I hope I can borrow some money from my mom and sister. Once I start working I can pay it back. I would like to travel to some other county other than Canada. If I am not able to go then it wasn't meant to be. I will be able to go one day.

Why I want to move to California

Pros

• My Sisters live here
• My Cousin live here
  
• Better job opportunities
  
• Warmer weather/no snow
• Always something to do
• Start a new fresh new life - A start of a new chapter in my life.
  
• Ocean
• Beaches
  
• New places to visit
• Celebrities
  
• Meet new people
• Make new friends
  
• I love the atmosphere - I wnat to live the California Life,
• Make new memories

Cons

• Earthquakes
• Mudslides
• Fires
• Miss my family and friends
• Get used to living in a different state
• I’ll have to learn how to drive in California
• Drive in lots of traffic
• Expensive to live there
• Away from Friends
• Miss out on Family Functions
  

Pros

• My family and friends are here
• I’ve lived her all my life
• No major disasters
• Cheaper to live here
• Cheaper gas prices
• Won’t miss out on Family Functions

Cons

• Miss out on better job opportunities
  
• Weather changes - 4 seasons
• There aren’t any jobs here
• My past is here
• Need to get out of this state
• Missing out on new experiences

~Why I want to move to California~

When I leave Michigan to visit California I’m happy to step off the plane, get my luggage and out of the airport. To smell the California air, feel it on my skin. Then Angie comes to pick me up, I get in the car & glance around LAX airport as Angie heads to her apartment, I look at everyone living their lives, Then I stay for awhile and enjoy myself, then it’s time for me to leave to go back home, my sister takes me back to the airport, I say good -bye, I am sad and I feel like crying, as I leave to wait for my plane I get tears in my eyes, then I board the plane, about 4 hours later I get off the plane, step into the Michigan air, feel the Michigan air, My mom picks me up and then it’s HOME! But…..I do miss California when I am not visiting.

I want my new home to be California. It will be good for me to move here. It's a fresh start in my life with a new state and a new atmosphere. I make new friends and drive in the California traffic and live my life as a Califorian. I can't wait to finally move and start a new chapter in my life.

I will be back to Michigan to visit that is for sure cause my family and friends are here. I just need a new life and that is why I want to move to California.

I need a new life. Away from my past and I need to make new memories. Since 2008 my younger sister Patricia, Neha and Rich (my older sisters friends), and Keri (my younger sister friend) have moved there and soon rich will be there. It is a bad time in Michigan with may people losing their job and moving out of state to find work.

Having a good day

Horoscope for January 23, 2009
You awake this morning feeling happy and enthusiastic, Kristine. Your intuition is telling you that you will achieve whatever you set your mind to. Whatever your goals are, whether they are success with your career, in your studies or in your personal life, you are bound to succeed. If you don't have a significant someone by your side to support your steady progress, all signs indicate that you will meet someone soon. If you already have a mate, lucky you!
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When I read this it put a smile on my face and what it said it was true caue I did wake up feeling happy and enthusiastic. I know that I can achieve what ever I can set my mind to and I hope to have success in whatever career I am supposed to do and with school I will be going on February 24th. Then comes my personal life I know I am succeeding. I am setting focus on my goals and I am seeing them accomplished. There comes love, well I am not focusing on that right now and I am just wait till he comes and finds me. I have more important things to think about then finding a guy in my life. If I meet someone with out even expecting it then it will be good. I believe that things happen for a reason and there is a time a place when things happen for you.

The East Coast to the West Coast

I can't stop thinking about how my future how much better it will be with me going to MCTI and after when I graduate, It will be hell living in a dorn and I have to study hard and focus on my studies. I can not wait until I save enough money to move out of Michigan and to California.

I love watching shows that on TV and I see LA. Its like awww I so can not wait till I will be able to finally know that for sure I will be moving out there when I get a apartment. My older sister is looking for a condo and it would be night to move in with her until I can get my feet on the ground but I want to show everyone I can do it on my own without no one helping me just like it was in the past until now.

Closer to California

It's 50 percent official. I finally got my packet from MCTI. When I go and register then that is when it will be 100 percent. I am so excited cause all I want is to go to that school and then graduate and finally get a full time job and start making money so I can start saving it. Then I can buy a car of my own and go anywhere I want to go.

I leave MCTI on February 23rd and start class the next day. I have a lot to do before then to get ready and packed. Then in between I will come home a couple times and then on May 15th is registration for the summer term ans that will go through July 10 and then I graduate on July 11th.

I an getting closer to moving out of Michigan and to California. I can not wait till that day when I can say goodbye to MI and hello to CA. Leaving the East coast to the West Coast. It will be an end of a chapter in my life and a start of a new one.

Staying Focused

I weighted myself today and I lost 3 lbs which is good but not cause the last time I weighted myself I was 265 and now I am 262. I have to be back below 259. I have to keep focused and watch what I eat and exercise. I exercised a little yesterday an I also exercised today. Shoveled the snow they plowed on the driveway and I also did some weights. I still have more to do on my stability ball but I will do them tonight.

All I want

1. In my life all I want is to establish a career which I am focusing on.
2. Weight loss in which I am struggling with but tiring to work on.
3. Love, well love can wait. I have more important things to focus on than finding love.

I have made my decision and I am sticking to it

My Horoscope for January 19, 2009

A deep and intimate conversation could take place today between you and a romantic interest, Kristine. If this is officially only a casual relationship, it may suddenly become more. If you're involved but not committed, an understanding could be reached. If you're already committed, there may even be talk of marriage. The end result of this conversation should be, needless to say, happiness for both of you. Celebrate tonight at home.
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WOW!!! All I can say this is so off. I don't have a love at this time cause I am too busy focusing on me. My first priority in my life is to establish a career and then get a car of my own and then to get the hell out of my parents house and in to a apartment of my own. Then in the near future I want move out of Michigan and to California.

Tom is on his journey into the priesthood and I am supporting him on his decision. If something happens when he decides that the priest hood isn't for him and he tells me that he has feelings for me then by then I will long gone. I have made my decision and I am sticking to it. By that I am a lot more happier.

I also a few weeks ago and 2 nights ago. I had another dream about my grandma. A few weeks ago we were downstairs in her old bacement and then 2 nights ago I was in her old house in the living room I was hugging her and she was laughing and happy. I miss her but I am happy that she is in a bette place where she won't have to suffer anymore. I will see her when my time has come and that will be a long time. I will always think of her and she will always be with me in my heart and she will be with me on my wedding day. I will have a meery frame on my bouguet and I will walk down the aisle with her rosery as my something old.

Looking back

I am so happy that Talia and I are friends again. I missed her so much. I forget how funny she is and I love that she can make me laugh. Back in 2004 we ended our friendship over something stupid and she told me she also missed me and it good to know that I have her back in my life. Also Talis's mom told her that it was about time her and I were friends again. I also missed Karina and Dave and all the gang. We had so much fun together in the past and it sucks that Talia is now in Louisiana but I can always see her when she comes to visit. We both forgave and forget about the past that was bad and we can never forget the good times we had and oh did we have them. Those memories is what I had thought about before I seen Talia.

When she was in town during Christmas I am glad that I met with her and I got to see Karina,Dave, and Trina. Now the one other person I wish I was in good terms with is Annemarie. I did see her that day I seen Talia but maybe one day I hope we can rekindle our friendship but all I have to do is wait until something comes up. It was my fault that we aren't friends anymore. I was a bitch. I am hoping that I can have enough courage to write her and apologize for what I said 4 years ago. I would like to see if we can become friends again is she wants to and if she doesn't then it will be ok then at least I know what she thinks.

Diet Plans

I was thinking that once I get a full time job and get myself working and established that I will be able to buy my own grocery's. I was thinking about trying NutriSystem, I think it's cheaper than Jenny Craig and I have heard the pros and cons to the diet system. So I will maybe try it when I get the money.

1. Take your Vitmins
2. Drink Water
3. Eat on hour before and right after you exercise

No Support

I am so pissed that the MCTI packet hasn't come in yet and it's already Saturday. I'll have to wait until later until the mail comes. Well anyways, I started looking for a job already and I have been looking forward to that packet cause by that I am close to seeing a brighter future.

The way I am now is because of my parents. I blame them for not supporting my dreams. They never believed in me and that is why I am 29 with no job and unsuccessful with both my sister had been supportive by my parents. They both graduated from U of M and now are in the same field successful. It hurts me to think that I am a loser.

All I want is to have a career going for me with a car of my own,a apartment. Being able to support myself. I want to show my parents that I can do this on my own. Once I move out I will not be calling or visiting for a while. I need to be on my own to live my own life with out the support of my parents.

Portion Control

I just got home from the gym. I worked out at LA Fitness. I did 15 minutes on the treadmill and 20 on the Elliptical. As I was almost done with my workout one of the workers/trainers come up to me and asked if I had my free personal training and I said no and he told me that when I was done to come talk to him and I did and scheduled a appointment for January 14th at 3:00. I am looking forward to that. I feel good that I wanted to go to the gym but didn't feel like it so the secret is that I have to go the gym no matter what I feel. Just get up and go.

The thing I have to focus on is eating healthy = Portion Control and along with that is working out = cardio and weight training.

I feel good that I worked out and also I went the full 20 minutes on the Elliptical, which kicked my ass. The last 5 minutes I was thinking if the Biggest Loser contents can do this...so can I and I had Jillian Michales in my mind telling me I could do it and not give up.

A Summary of My Life - What makes me happy!!!!

God - With out having my belief in him. My life would be lost and would head down the wrong direction. I need him to guide me in the right direction so that I can continue to believe in myself and become successful. I used to pray when I was younger but somehow I didn't until last year. When I began praying again my life is focused and I happier.

Family - I love and cherish my family. I don't know what I would do if I didn't have a family and also have my extended with my Aunts and uncles and cousins.

Friends - If I didn't have friends I would be alone. I love that whatever I do I have friends that I can hang out with and have fun. That makes me happy to know I have friends.

Music - Music has been in my life since I was a little girl. I could not live without it. I love listening ot all kinds of music, playing it on my guitar and even writing it.

Writing Poetry - I've been writing poetry since I was a child and since then I have gotten a lot better. I am glad I have the ability to write it and express my feelings in this way. I keep all my poetry private cause they mean so much to me. They come from my heart and soul. I hope to one day publish them for the whole world to see.

Changes instead of Resolutions

There are going to be a lot of changes between This month until the end of the year. I am from nwo on not making any resolutions but instead I am going to change a little through out this year. I plan on going to the gym today at LA Fitness. Since I am paying 29.99 a month I need to take advantage of this great gym with a lot of machines to choose from and its also nice to see the men working out. I love eye candy. My problem is that I make alot of excuses like oh I don't feel like going so I will go tomorrow. I have to stop that and it's getting me no where. I have to learn how to stick to working out 3 days a week for 30 minutes, which it's a start to get back on this diet wagon.

My diet wagon has stopped and it's hard to get back on again. But today is a new day that I will start getting healthy.

Taurus: Yearly Overview - Outlook for 2009

It's time to celebrate yourself, Taurus! You are pouring yourself into your life's mission and rejuvenating yourself with abundant thinking, which attracts great things to you. You're diligently creating a public arena where opportunities will emerge for you to be a teacher or messenger. Engagements for speaking, writing and sharing your thoughts will open up. Other people will be inspired by your enthusiasm and insight, and will support you in accomplishing your goals.

Taurus's excitement radiates more than ever this year, bringing with it a magnificent energy the world has been lacking. As you embrace the power of your heart and spirit, you are allowing yourself to transform and align with a universal energy source. You discover the space for your creativity to flow and abundantly bring the truth of your being into the world. Your focus on your connection with a higher purpose brings out the best in you and refines your self-expression.

You appreciate all the expansive shifts that are taking place in your life, and you are learning to break up routines and old patterns of rigidity. This allows you a new level of awareness and acceptance of your ultimate purpose. Pay attention to what has heart and meaning. Express your truth and you will advance. You will find avenues to bring your talents and belief systems to philanthropic endeavors. By the end of the year, you will be able to slow down a bit and find more time to enjoy the new you that you have created.

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I so hope this is true. This gives me a positeve outlook on my future and more good things are about to come as time goes on. By the time I graduate from MCTI. I will have a degree in something I can get a decent pay job. Me going to this school is just a stepping stone for my life and hope it will bring me a good job with good pay and benifits. So I can be able to save enough money to buy a car and move out of Michigan and move to California.

Things are looking up

Wow, so far this year been good to me. 2 days ago I called my counselor at MRH and left a message. It seems that every time I call her she is out of the office but the next day she got my message and e-mailed MCTI and as soon as she got a responce she called me and told me that they said they would sent me the information packet yesterday and I should be getting it sometime next week. I am excited cause this means that I am half way closer to seeing a brighter future.

My plan still is after I graduate from MCTI in 6 months that I would find a full time job here and to get work experince and save up money to buy a car and then to save money so I can move out to California. I am positive the future will bring me success that I am looking for and be able to reach a lot of my goals I set for myself. I think 2009 will be my year to finally see my dreams come true.

Ashamed

Ashamed is how I feel right now. I am having a hard time getting back on the wagon. I just need to tray harder and stayed focused. Since I don't have to worry about a man. I need to make myself my #1 priority in my life. Starting with finding a job and now I can focus on getting healthy. I have to stop worrying about the future and start living in the now. This year I am taking little steps to change and I hope this is my year to finally change my self from the outside

My Plan

My upcoming plan is to attended MCTI and then in 6 months graduate and after I graduate find a full time job here and save money for a car and then to save money for my move to California. Here is a list I made......

Save money for……

1. California Diver License
2. A car - Down payment/car payments/Insurance and registration
3. Apartment - Deposit/monthly rent
4. Groceries - Food
5. Necessities - shampoo/toothpaste/face wash
6. Couch (maybe)
   
7. Kitchen - Table/Chairs/Pots, Pans/Silverware/
8. Bedroom - Bedroom Set - mattress/
9. Bathroom - Bathroom Towels
10. TV/DVD - VCR Player/Desk/Chair/Computer - Laptop/Radio/Bookcase/CD Bookcase/Cable/Internet

A year of Luck and Happiness

This year has been looking up for me. Nothing but good things have been happening to me. So far USC (one of my favorite Teams) won the Rose Bowl against Penn State and then today my least favorite team OSU lost the Fiesta Bowl against Texas. All I have to say that I hope that this year brings me a lot of good luck and success with a job and weight loss and maybe if I am supper lucky a move to California.

The last 2 years 2007 and 2008 were bad for me with my grandma getting sick on the end of 07 and then passing away in March 2008. Then my cousin Donna got a divorce and I hope this year will be a year of luck and happiness for me and my family.

Life as a Californian

Its the new year and a lot of things will be changing this year. I spent my new year with Tom at his cousins girlfriends house. It was a fun night.

Since Tom will be going into the priest hood. I am free of him and will be focused on moving to California. I no longer have feelings for him and I am happy to say that my mind is on Cali. Every time I see a show that takes place in California. I think of how it will be for me to move out there and live my life as a Californian. I will be close to my sisters and cousin. My older sisters friends Neha and Rich moved there last year along with my little sisters friend Kari.It's like what the hell. Its my turn to move out there.

Drinking away 2008

It's almost the end of 2008 and the start of a New Year 2009/ I am happy this year is almost to a end and that means it's a fresh new start of a new year and for me that means a lot of small little changes. this year I do not want to spend it alone so my plan is to spend it with Tom and get drunk and drink away 2008. If Tom bails out on me one more time. I promise that I will end my friendship with him. He let me down too many times. If he bails again I will go to the casino with my parents.

A lot has happened this year with divorce and death. Donna got a divorce and my grandma and my moms friend Barbra passed away. I am hoping that this coming new year will give me a lot of happiness and good changes in my life.

My Dreams

2 nights ago I had a dram about Lindsey Lohan don't ask me I don't know why and then Last night I had a dream another dream about my grandma. She was at her old home and she was in the backyard pulling out flowers. She love her garden. Another part of my dream after that I was looking at a book it was about beers around the world and who wrote it was Rachael Ray, she was walking around signing the books. She would never write a book about beer cause she is a cook. Maybe I had that dream cause I am in the process of writing one.

Why Wait Until New Years?

Why do so many people wait until New Years to start getting healthy. It' s a New Years Resolution that a lot of people don't stick to all year. After so many days or months they give up. In my case that was me a few New Years ago. Until I heard that why not start now rather than to wait until the start of the new year to start eating healthy. You'll just gonna gain a lot more weight and it's gonna be harder for you to lose it. That is how I see it.

There is hope

Last night I was talking to Tom and he told me that some people want him to become a Deacon instead of a priest so he can get married and have a family. He told them maybe well see. He told me in the beginning of the year that he changed him mind about getting married and wanting kids. He saw the look on his nephew face and how much joy it gave him.

He also told me that he needs to get all the time with me before I go to school. He told me is he is gonna miss me but I will be coming back a few weekends and a week during the month of April.

Was it or Wasn't it - I am not sure

I was taking to Tom today and at the end of conversation I thought he said I love you but I could be mistaken. Since I an 50/50% sure he likes me. Also 50/50% sure that he will be serious about the priesthood but I will have to see about that.

There are a lot of signs that are already there and I am not gonna forget about those. He said that he was not going to take classes next semester but he was gonna wait until that following semester and then live at the seminary. I will have to wait and see what he decided cause we were talking about his grandfathers house since his sister is going to be getting it temporary until she can find something else for her and her son since she recently got divorced anyways he said if the priesthood doesn't work out then he is getting that house. That gives me 50% hope but I will support him either way cause I love him as a friend and I am also falling in love with him.

I am waiting for that day when he finally tells me he likes me but right now all I can do it think about him and wait cause good things come to those who wait.

My dream

I had a dream last night that I had a baby with a old friend of mine that I haven't seen in many years. It was a baby girl but I don't know what I named it. Here is what it says about having a dream about a baby........To see a baby in your dream, signifies innocence, warmth and new beginnings. Babies symbolize something in your own inner nature that is pure, vulnerable, helpless and/or uncorrupted.

Praying for a better future

Horoscope for December 2, 2008
Try, try again today, Kristine. It can feel so terrible to 'fail' at something that you just want to hide your head in the sand rather than face potential loss again. Yet, if succeeding is important enough for you, you need to overcome embarrassment and fear. Most people have to try more than once to succeed - especially in the most important of goals. Don't give up on yourself. Your goals are worthy of as much effort as it takes.
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I am in the process of getting back to exercising again and I will be training for a 5K race. I don't know when and where that is gonna be. I don't want to rush it and I am taking my time to get back in to a routine that I can stick to that will help me succeed. After I do that 5K I will start training for a half marathon.

I want running to be a part of my life and do it on a regular basics. A new life for me. To become healthy and fit. I am hoping a praying that 2009 will bring me that and a better year.

Why I want to Join the Team in Training Team?

I want to be able to raise money and help find a cure for leukemia, lymphoma, Hodgkin's disease and Myeloma, and improve the quality of life of patients and their families. Also I had a family member who had Hodgkin's disease and she is a survivor of 10 years and counting.

Not only will it help me find a cure but it is good for my health and I’ll be able to meet new people and experience a whole new world.

I plan to start jogging first then start training for a 5K run somewhere close to me and then I plan a taking on and training for a half marathon. Then I want to run my first marathon. I never thought I would want to do this but it’s a big change for me and I have to work up to it.

My Problems : I Need Change

Eating Healthy: First off I blame my bad eating habits to my parents. I never learned when I was little to eat healthy and when I want to it's hard for me to start. I aways fail and since I don't have a job and cant afford to go grocery shopping for myself I don't eat healthy and when my dad buys the bad junk food I eat it when I get the craving. Also I have a huge sweet tooth but I have learned how to take care of that by buying Extra Sugar Free Spearmint/Peppermint Gum and that usually satisfies my sweet tooth. I found out about the tip on my favorite show The Biggest Loser. Also I just stick to water and avoid all pop cause I found out how much sugar one can of regular pop had and if I drink diet pop that will mess up my diet and make me wanna crave carbs.

Exercising: Second, I need to develop a routine that will get up off my butt and be more active. To exercise more and stop making excuses and put it off until tomorrow and I never do it.

McCain and Obama : Hope for our future

I saw this article on yahoo and I thought it was interising and it gave me a sense of hope and relief for my and every Americans future. Here is the Article if you want to read it.

Obama and McCain say they'll work together.

I am hoping that The Republications and the Democrats can work together to fix the problems in our country. It will bring me such relief to know that America can be where it was before the economy was good and people weren't losing their jobs.

A good thing that is happening now is that the gas prices are below $2.00 and I haven't seen it this low since this is a long time. People are losing their home cause they can't afford them weather they lost their job or aren't getting paid enough to afford all the things they need in her life. More jobs need to be made and the jobs that are lost need to come back. We as Americans need to work together to help our county in being the way it was in the past.

I know a lot of people who are leaving the state of Michigan to move else such as California and if I can get a job there I will be leaving as soon as I can. A one way ticket from Detroit to Los Angeles or as I would say Michigan to California.

The Past

Well I was telling myself that how I missed hanging out with Talia and now I am talking to her again and will be seeing her the week of Christmas. I am actually looking forward to it. I has some pretty fun times with her. She moved to Louisiana where her boyfriend is and she told me she is happier with him. I am happy to hear it.

I am trying to get back on track on my diet wagon but this time I am making some changes and those changes have to stick. I will be developing new healthy habits that will help me in my life and weight loss.

About me

I am single and looking for that someone and I am also looking for new friends. I am shy at first but when you get to know me I’m not, I am also friendly and in my spare time I love to dance, hang out with friends, go to bars once in a while for a few drinks to talk, going to the movies, listening to music, writing poetry, driving around, traveling, and I love giving massages. When I'm with a group of people I'm usually the quiet one. I also enjoy cuddling, holding hands, kissing, quiet evenings on the couch watching TV or a movie. I also love to travel. In a relationship I am looking for someone who is honest, mature, fun loving, supportive, great sense of humor, a hopeless romantic, a good listener. Someone who knows how to treat me like a woman and sweep me off my feet, someone that knows how to make a woman feel special, and how to treat her like a lady. As a girlfriend I am supportive and kind. I will treat you with respect and I will do anything to make you happy. I’m just a shy fun loving person that is easy to get along with. I am the type of person who will do anything for their friends and love ones. I like the type of girl who will treat you the way I want to be treated, I love to be romanced and even though I don’t like surprises, I don’t mind them if they are good and meant for a reason. I enjoy going out, spending time with family and having fun with my friends. In my spare time I love to dance, hang out with friends, go to bars once in a while for a few drinks to talk, going to the movies, listening to all kinds of music, write poetry and I love giving massages, and renting a movie and staying in. When I'm with a group of people I'm usually the quiet one.

At times it’s hard for me to start a conversation cause I have little experience with meeting guys and talking to them. I enjoy spending time by myself from time to time, watching TV, and relaxing. At first I'm really shy but once when you get to know me I’m not. I'm nice, caring and a loving person. I am looking to find someone that I can talk to and be my best friend. What makes me happy : Right now it’s spending time with my Family and having fun with my friends is making me happy. What I hate : Fake people, liars. I believe that being honest is good but if you keep on telling lies it will catch up to you. I am so proud of my country. I don’t like war but the people who fought before us had to fight for our freedom. That is why we are fighting Why you should get to know me: I’m a friendly person and I usually get along with everyone I meet and I love to give massages. I am a pretty open person when it comes for doing things such as picking what to do for the day. I also like to cook but cause I know the way to a man heart is through his stomach. What have past relationships taught you (be positive)? To be more open to others. Describe some of the most important things in your life: My Faith, Family, friends, and music. Anything else you'd like to add? Give me a chance guys and you won't be disappointed cause if you know how to treat a woman, I know how to treat a man but no players.

I am a simple person when it comes to life. Doesn’t take much to make me happy. For fun I have varied interests such as movies, eating out but staying home with a movie and a meal is good too. Social drinker and prefer a quieter type of bar with karaoke although I don’t sing, but like to watch other people. As opposed to rap music blaring all night. Not opposed it but I don’t like it loud and all night long. Like all kinds of music except opera.

I love going out and having a good time, I’m into all types of music just depends on the mood. I’m very into my family, I’m not a big partier, but I don’t want to stay at home all the time either. I like going to concerts, movies, the beach, or anything else that might sound fun. I love animals, long blond hair, blue eyes, great smile. I’m very out going, humorous and silly, fun loving, and affectionate and I love to laugh and have a good time. I’m looking for someone to get to know and to make friends with and possibly forum into a relationship. i want someone sweet, romantic, funny but serious when needed, someone i can tell everything to and they can do the same. likes animals, is family oriented, likes to go out and have a good time but doesn’t mind staying at home cuddling and watching a good movie or 2. I’m not someone who’s egar to jump into a sexual relationship, I like to get to know the person first you know....if that’s you then id really like to get to know you!!

I don’t smoke but do drink. I am looking for friends and see where it goes from there Looking for some one to show me what it is all about or if its your first time we will learn together.

My last day I was in California. I had video taped my sisters friend/roommates dog which is a puggle. At first she barked at me but then the next day she got better and by the end of the week she was good. Well I do miss playing with her. That what I was donig in the video. Well watch and enjoy.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EkCWvWLl8jU

Politics

~Just a quick update~
I am so sick and tied of hearing about politics. I am do glad that we only have the beginnig of next month. I am sick of Obama and his lies and BS talk. If he becomes president he will scew up America. He just tells the American people what they want to hear. When it all comes down to it, he is fake and full or hot air.

Well yesterday I went to see my friend Sarah and Elliot and their 2 beautiful baby girls. This was the second time I had seen them. I got to hold Ariana when I was at the hospital on my first visit and then yesterday I got to hold Rebecca and also Ariana. Holding them just makes me wanna have one of my own but one day I will.

when I was holding Rebecca, I made a joke to Sarah telling her that I was gonna take her home with me and Sarah wouldn't notice cause she has a another one. Then I said NO I wouldn't do that. Sarah is very lucky to have 2 beautiful baby girls and even though they are premature, they are both healthy.

Vegas 2009 Update 3

I had written months ago about gong to Vegas for my 30th Birthday. Well seems that I might still have classes then I might go in May. It was will during the week since I am on a budget and it's a lot cheaper to go during the week.

I know some of you had told me that you wanted to go and you are more and welcome to come. I will post more information on my blog when I know what dates,what hotel I will be staying at, and what we will be doing when we are there.

It will sure be a good time since I will be celebrating my 30th in Vegas and also what goes on in Vegas, stays in Vegas.

A little about me - Reliving my past

Music has always been in my life since I was a little girl and it will always be in my life until the day that I die. I also love to dance and that goes with music. My favorite music era has to be the 80's I grew up listening to the radio. I remember dancing in my grandmas living room with the radio. I go down in the basement and play. But there are songs that remind me of my past and when ever I hear them I think back to a place of my past. I sometimes cry cause some songs remind me of my grandma. I lived upstairs from my grandma from the time I was born to age 10. So I have many memories songs like Live to tell by Madonna remind me of my grandma and it's weird cause the day my grandma passed away that song was playing. I don't remember if it was before or after she did. Also when I hear Crazy for you by Madonna that also reminds me of my Grandma.

Babies

My friend Sarah and Elliot just had twin baby girls yesterday 10-01-08. Ariana Grace Stephens 5 lbs 9 oz and Rebecca Sierra Stephens 5 lbs 10 oz, Both are so adorable and precious. I even got the chance to hold one. The last time I held a new born was a long time ago and all I can say is that holding a new born is awesone. So small and cute with the little fingers and toes. I went to go see them today and both are healthy and doing good.Oh and the Mom too. I am very happy that Sarah and the babies are healthy and nothing went wrong during her c-section. I have heard some stories and I didn't want anything to happen to Sarah. Congratulates Sarah. If you need anything let me know I am happy to help you.

Then earlier on in the week my cousin Jordana had her second baby and it was another boy for her. I am hoping she is doing well.

I love getting happy news from my family and friends. Since some of you know that it has not been a good one for me. I know that God takes life away but he also gives life. The saying: One life goes away while another one is born. That is the way life goes.

Writings

I have been writing poetry for a long time now and I have given a lot of thought about publishing my poetry and I am also working publishing 2 books in the future and maybe even writing more. I have put this aside for a while cause I have had writers block and every chance I get a idea I write something down. I still have to do some research on the subjects of my books.

Time for a change - Part 2

Life is too short to think about a guy. What I need is a fresh new start in my life even though I don't like changes that much but it's time for me to end this chapter in my life and start a new one. A while ago I made this thing that I compared the good and bad about staying in Michigan and also about moving to California.
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~Moving to California~Good & Bad~

The Good

• Angela & Patricia live there
• Better job opportunities
  
• Warmer weather/ no snow
  
• Always something to do
  
• Start a new fresh new life
  
• Ocean / Beaches
  
• New places to visit
  
• Celebrities Expensive to live there
• Meet new people
  
• Make new friends
  
• I love the atmosphere
• Make new memories

The Bad

• Earthquakes
• Mudslides
• Fires
• Miss my family and friends
• Get used to living in a different state
• I’ll have to learn how to drive in California
• Drive in lots of traffic
• Away from Family and Friends
• Miss out on Family Functions

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Staying in Michigan ~ Good & Bad~

The Good

• My family and friends are here
  
• I’ve lived her all my life
  
• No major disasters
  
• Cheaper to live here
  
• Cheaper gas prices
  
• Won’t miss Family Functions
  

The Bad

• Miss out on better job opportunities
• Weather changes - 4 seasons
• There aren’t any jobs here
• My past is here
• Need to get out of this state
• Missing out on new experiences

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~Michigan to California Summary~

Overall I am still thinking about if I really want to move to California. It all depends on if I meet someone here and fall in love and we decide to get married then I’ll stay in Michigan but if I am single by age 30 then I will move to California to pursue a new life. Moving to California will give me the opportunity to start a fresh new life. I’ll be able to make new friends and memories. To be able to leave my past behind. I’ll be able to explore new things that California has to offer. Leaving all that I know here, my family, friends, and all of the memories I have made here. I need to start a new beginning of my life somewhere away from my past. I’ll keep all of my memories that are good close to my heart and let those bad fade away. This is why I need to start a new life in a another state other than Michigan.

When I leave Michigan to visit California I’m happy to step off the plane, get my luggage and out of the airport. To smell the California air, feel it on my skin. Then Angie comes to pick me up, I get in the car & glance around LAX airport as Angie heads to her apartment, I look at everyone living their lives, Then I stay for awhile and enjoy myself, then it’s time for me to leave to go back home, Angie takes me back to the airport, I say good -bye, I am sad and I feel like crying, as I leave to wait for my plane I get tears in my eyes, then I board the plane, about 4 hours later I get off the plane, step into the Michigan air, feel the Michigan air, My mom picks me up and then it’s HOME! But…..I do miss California when I am not visiting.
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As you can see that there are a lot more advantages to moving to California rather than saying in Michigan. I tried to think of more but I couldn't. I guess that California beats Michigan so until I can think about more good things about staying in Michigan I guess my future home will be in California.

Time for a change

Since I got back from my trip to California. I can't think how many times I go and visit California and every time I hate to leave and can't wait to go back again. Since 2002 I have been wanting ot move out to California. I know it costs a lot of money to live there but I know what I have to do to move out there. Save a lot of money, by a lot I mean I need to make enough money to help support myself. By paying my rent,bills such as my car, grocery, and the things I need for my apartment.

When I am in California I feel so much happier. I can see myself living there and dealing with the crazy traffic. I have never drove in it but I have been in it with my sister, so I know how bad it can be during rush hour. I know I have all my family and friends here but it's time for a change and for me to get a fresh start in my life. As soon as a get a full-time job I will be saving up for a car and then after I get a car I am saving to move out of my parents house. That is what I can not wait for. I need freedom from them. To live on my own will be a BIG change for me and it's a first time experience and everyone goes though it and I am hoping that I can do it. I am also hoping then when I do move out it will be to California.

I did look at some apartments and I am liking the one that my sisters live in. It's close to the 101 freeway and close to LA and many things to do and see.

What I love about California is........I love the weather and there are so many places to go and see. My different kinds of restaurants to eat at and not to mention the experience to live in California is so different Michigan. Plus I am hoping I can be lucky and find a good job out there making a lot of money so I can be able to support myself.

Hi everyone,

I am so happy that I am in California and having a good time so far. so many things planned and cant wait for the wine trip on Saturday.I will write about that when I get back. So far I went out to dinner with my older sister and her friend Jamie last night and right now I am going to keep Lola company.(my sisters friend/roommates puggle). I love this dog. she'll be suprised to noticve when I leave next week Wednesday that Lola will be gone. HEHE.Well anyways I hope everyone is doing well. I will see you when I get back. Well that is if I want to.

She's done it again!!!

OMG! The damn Dugger family has done it again. That woman can't keep her legs closed. She has to keep reproducing. She is on her 18th Child. I thought she was done a few kids ago. I just do not like that family for some reason. I don't know what kind of religion they are but they have to fashion sense and she needs to stop having these damn kids.

YAY...One more day

I can't believe I am leaving for California tomorrow.It is such a beautiful day out today and tomorrow will be the same and I checked the weather forecast for when I am there and it's gonna be nice, no rain for the week I am there but they do need it.

I will be taking the redeye flight back home on Wednesday, September 24 and I will arrive home in the morning If anyone wants to do something when I come home let me know.I will gvie you a call when I am in town when I all rested up on Friday.

It's 2:45 in the morning and I can't sleep

It's 2:45 in the morning and I can't sleep. I am so excited that I have one more day until I leave for California. It's been a couple years since my last visit. Lots of new things to see when I arrive. then I still have to pack and print out my e-ticket. I can't wait to see both of my sisters and cosin and go on my first wine trip Also I am exctied to see that my friend Sara is finally here back in Mi. Can't wait to see her then sometime this month or early next month my other friend Sarah is going to have twins. I am hoping they are healthy when they are born. Then I have my 10 year reunion in November and I never thought this day would come to quick. Damn I feel old. It will be good to see old classmates again. Then I keep asking my self where has summer gone. Well for a week for me it will still be warm. Ahh that California sun. I love it.

Unplug myself from everything today

My horoscope for September 11, 2008.........This kind of strange day doesn't come around very often, Kristine. It will seem as though you no longer know what you want. Do you have a yen to work or to take off for the other side of the globe? People may become nonplussed because you will be thinking that to explain your point of view is pointless. The best thing to do may be to unplug yourself from your usual activities and go for a walk. At this point, you have nothing to lose.
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Wow this is true. Right now I don't know what I want to do. So I am glad that I am going to California next week Wednesday. I need a vacation away from here and the state of Michigan. Later on tonight I am going to plan on taking a walk just so I can clear my thoughts and figure out what I want to do. Plus I had a dream last night that didn't make sense.

9/11 - 7 years later- The Day that changed the world.

Wow! Its been 7 years since the attacks in New York City, Shanksville Pennsylvania, and Washington DC. I am watching the replay of that day on September 11,2001 on MSNBC. This is the day that changed the U.S and probably the whole world.

I remember what I was doing on that day. I woke up and answered the phone and my sister was asking me if I knew what was going on and I said no so she told me turn on the TV and I saw one of the Twin Towers on fire. My first thought was there was a fire but as I was watching I heard a plane flew into it. It was on every news channel. Back then I was 22 years old and now here I am 7 years later and I am 29 years old. Watching TV and reliving that day. This is the day that the war started and still we haven't gotten Osama Bin Lade. We don't know if he is alive or dead. We hacent heard from him in a while but we have to be ready for him.

I was in California 7 years ago before 9/11 and I am going again after 9/11 and security has been really tight to protect the passengers flying.

~Moment of silence~
8:46 a.m. - Marking the time of impact at the north tower.

9:03 a.m. - Marking time of impact at south tower.

9:59 a.m. - Marking collapse of the south tower.

10:29 a.m. - Marking collapse of the north tower.

We will never forget what happened on September 11, 2001.

I can't believe it happened

Well on Saturday I had my friend Sarah's Baby Shower. It was nice she had about 25 women there. When the Baby Shower ended I was waiting to help them and Amanda walked by and said she thought my purse was cute and I said thank you. Well anyways, I had helped bring the pop to their house and who else helped was Shawn (Kevin's Girlfriend) and Amanda (my ex-boyfriend's wife) . I had talked to some of Elliot's family until Tom called and I talked to him for a while and he asked me who was there and I told him some of Elliot's family,Shawn and Amanda. then after I got off the phone with him Amanda was talking to Sarah about going to dinner for my ex-boyfriend's birthday. Then as I got off the phone with Tom. She asked me me if I wanted to join them as I was more than welcome to join them and I said yes. So I went to pick up Tom and we went on our way. So we headed to their condo and waited for Kevin and Elliot and Sarah. Then we all headed to Fishbone's on the Nautical Mile in St Clair Shores.

We go there waited about 15 minutes for a table and then we got seated. We all talked I even talked to Amanda for a bit. I can't even believe that I would actullay talking to her and I was fine with it. By that I knew am over my ex. After dinner we went back to my ex's condo and had drinks and some ice cream cake which was good.

Over all I had a long day and I am glad that had happened and it is done with. I already got a thank you note from Sarah. This is the fastest I had ever gotten a thank you note for someone. I can't wait till she has the babies. I will go see her when they are born.

I have 1 week till I leave for California and I am getting excited to see my sisters and cousin Donna and not to mention Lola my sisters friend/roommate Jamie's Dog. It's a cute puggle and I'm going to be able to play with it during the day. I love dogs. When I arrive I plan on gong to dinner with my sisters but I'll see what happens cause both of my sisters have been fighting and I hope they make up when I get there.

Another Wedding Dream

Lat night I had another Wedding Dream but this time I saw myself Thin and wearing a Red wedding Dress. Why a red wedding dress. I don't know. I am a traditional girl and I would not be wearing a red wedding dress on my wedding day. Anyways, I was walking around waiting to get married. There were a few before me. The bouquets were fake and they looked ugly as hell. Not my style. Then somehow I was ducking and trying to hide while I was walking so that none of my guests could see me. I think I saw my friend Tom standing at the end of the aisle waiting for me but I wasn't sure. Right now I am not focusing on him. I have more important things to focus on such as my cleaning business.

Well anyways here is what dreammoods.com has to say.....To wear a wedding dress in your dream, indicates that you are evaluating and assessing your personal relationship......ok what I don't know is what this exactly means. It could mean many things, like I am trying to figure out if I should really forget about Tom or just leave it alone and let things work out on their own until I am focused on my life and that is going to take a while. Since I will be starting MCTI soon and then it'll take me 6 months to Graduate and then I will be focused on finding a full-time job while I am trying to figure out my cleaning business.

A New Beginning

~My Horoscope for Today~
You can expect your mood to improve today, Kristine. The projects that you have at the moment, both professional and private, should be progressing well. You feel reassured and are encouraged to make some new plans. If you continue to keep up the good rhythm you will have success redefining your professional life...
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I had another wedding dream last night but this time I wasn't getting married it was my cousin Lucy which is already married and I was her Maid of Honor. So I looked up what my dream meant and this is what it means....To see a wedding in your dream, symbolizes a new beginning or transition in your current life. Dreams involving weddings are often negative and highlight some anxiety or fear. It often refers to feelings of bitterness, sorrow, or death. Alternatively, wedding dreams reflect your issues about commitment and independence.

Venting : Confused & I don't care

Last night I was over my friend Elliot's House and we were talking about things and some how we were talking about guys and girls and somehow he mentioned that I wasn't his type and pats me the leg. Then he still touches me and when we calls me he says how is my sexy mama. He said he does like this girl named Sheryl and wants to know how he can get her to go out with her then I tell him. I told myself this is my last draw and I will not be interested in him. I have too many things on my mind to think about some guy. I still want to move to California in the future. I still have things here to get accomplished before I start a new chapter in my life.

I am still thinking about owning my own cleaning business. I am focused on that getting the things I need to get done. I still have some thinking to do and I am so confused about Tom's actions. Since he did tell me I am not his type then I am taking that it's a sign telling me to back off and stop the flirting and stop thinking about men. I do hate them. They are nothing but trouble and right now and I need to focus on me.

Venting

~My Horoscope for Today~
If things haven't been going too well with those you spend the majority of your time with, it might be time to consider your expectations of them. Ask yourself what kinds of demands you place on others and if they're truly fair. Is it possible that you expect the same from others as what you give but that maybe they aren't able to match your level of performance? Consider talking with the people involved and find out how they are feeling.
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My horoscope is partly true. I am pissed that I always have to see my friend and he never wants to see me at my house. It's all one sided. All he cares about is himself and his own feelings. I don't know how to tell him in a way I don't want to have him get mad at me. It's been hard for me to express my feelings to anyone. I always keep them to myself. But I am sure that if Tom and I ever get together I am not gonna be seeing him as much as I am now or else we won't see each other.

Going Down

I was supposed to weigh myself yesterday but I did today. I am down 2 lbs from 253 and I would like to be under 250 by September 16th. I am hoping that I will be around 245. That would be awesome. I want to surprise my sisters and everyone who hasn't seen me since 2005. I just want to be healthy and look good. I can see my dream goal getter closer. I am still deciding on a professional photographer.

What the heart wants the heart will get.

~Quote from a Oprah e-mail~
If you haven't before, start having dreams. Have lots of them. Have great dreams, have small dreams. - James B. Stewart

~My horoscope for Today~
The energies from the day should have you feeling pretty good, Kristine. Your spirits should be high and laughing may well be a good part of your day. When you laugh, it gets other people going. They can't but laugh too. This is a powerful effect to have! You may find that you can transfer the enthusiasm and good feelings you have to those that are around you today. Share your positive energy by smiling, laughing and just being yourself.
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I have been thinking about after I Graduate From MCTI that I might start my own cleaning business. Right now I am reading into everything I need to know about dong this. My friend Tom said that he would like to help me and wants to work along with me. That would help me a lot since he knows a lot about knowing about what you need to know about owning your own business.

I had hang out with my friend Tom a couple days ago. I have a long day that day by waking up at 5 am and going to bed at 12 am. So anyways about the day. We had gone over Elliot and Sarah's house (friends of ours) and Elliot told us that he will be having a anti Baby Shower/ My ex and their friend Rob's B-day on September 6th. So Tom said that he would go. Along with their friend Kevin, and Elliot's Brother Tim. I will be seeing Shawn (Kevins girlfriend), and my ex-bf wife Amanda. So this is the first baby shower that I will be attending without my mom and knowing anyone there. Except for Shawn, who I met once and talked to a few times. I seen my ex's wife at Sarah and Elliot's Wedding last year but never got introduced to her. Witch I don't want to meet her but if I do I do.

So later on today I will be again going over to Toms grandfather house to help him clean up. I also want to see him again. I am completely fallen for him and I am in love. I have listened to my heart and what the heart wants the heart will get. I love spending time with him and can't wait till the day when he confesses he likes me and when we first kiss. I will be writing about that when it does happen.

Amazing

I am changing my life a little at a time. I am watching what I eat, I am more focused on me, I am going to church cause I want to not just because I have to. I pray at night more than I used to. I am more happier with my life now then I have ever been.

I had another dream about my grandma. This is like the 4th or 5th time I had one of her in it. Last night I had a dream that my mom and I were at my old house/my grandmas old house. We walked in the door and I always gave her a kiss and a hug and said my grandma in polish. We sat on the couch and talked and she looked happy. She was laughing. As I am tying this I am in tears. I know that she is resting in peace and she is safe up in heaven with God. I still do think about her and miss her very much and I will never stop thinking about her. I know she is watching down on me and her sprint is with me. But everyday is getting better and I am crying less and getting on with my life.

Here is what dream moods.com says.....To see your dead sibling, relative, or friend alive in your dream, indicates that you miss them and are trying to relive your old experiences you had with them. In trying to keep up with the pace of your daily waking life, you dreams may serve as your only outlet in coping and coming to terms with the loss of a loved one.

Then again I had another dream about my family. My younger sister was holding my baby girl. I do want to have a baby girl and name her after my Grandma. I hope this dream ties together with the one I had a few days ago with the wedding dream I had. I have had wedding dreams before and could never see his face and then few days ago when I had this dream I saw my friend Toms face (the one I like). I am hoping it will come true and we do get together and get married and have a baby,

My Dream : Feels like it may come true one day

Two nights ago I had another wedding dream and this one wasn't the usual one that I don't see who I am marrying. I actually saw the guy and it was my friend Tom that I like. If I believe it or not I can actually see myself marrying him. I never thought that when I met him that I would ever date him or actually fall in love with him like I am. He calls me more often and we also flirt a lot too and I love spending time with him. I don't have a best friend but If I did he would be it.

I get daily horoscopes and here is what mine said today........The stars indicate that love and romance are in your favor, Kristine, and you will find that this area of your life is indeed going well. Shower your partner with love and affection. The more hugs and kisses, the better. You honey's ego wants to be stroked. You can earn points by petting their head and scratching them beyond their ears. Be careful, however, that you don't spoil them to the point that they become arrogant and self-centered, and end up disregarding all of your wants and needs.

My future looking Bright I gotta wear shades

I am getting excited that I have about 5 weeks till I am in California. I wish I could go there and never come back. I have found out that last week Talia (my ex-friend) moved to Louisiana. It's like damn all these people are moving out of Michigan and I am stuck here. Well what ever my life takes me and if I am meant to stay in Michigan then I will stay.

I can't wait till I get MCTI out of the way cause that way I can look for a job in my career and I can start saving money for a car and then getting the hell out of my house.

My weight loss is going good. I am noticing my curves and my clothes are fitting better on me. My goal of getting my pictures done by a professional photographer is getting closer but I can't decide who I want. I am leaning towards The Shooting Gallery but another one I am thinking of is Arising Images.

Quick Update

I have been MIA in updating my blog. I really haven't had the energy to write in here. There have been some good stuff to the bad stuff. All I have to say is that I will try to get back on here and write about what has been happing in my life.