Tragedy at MCTI

We had a tragedy happen here at MCTI. A boy by the name of William Beals passed away. He had a seasure and downed in the pool. They were working on him until they got to the hospital and he passed away there. They put up a memorial poster with his picture and if you wanted to put words. They also put 3 roses on that poster and 2 roses by the pool.

I had seem him a few times. Since my dorm room is close by the CSA classroom.

Achieving goals that are making my dreams come true.

Today Horoscope: There is a tremendous discipline to your way of thinking that is helping you make advancements toward your goals. Don't expect that you will solve every problem right away, but keep in mind that you will be able to sort through issues much more clearly and efficiently. Once you have things fleshed out sufficiently, you will find it easier to put the pieces back together again. Stay detached from situations instead of becoming emotionally involved.

While I am here in school I am achieving my goals and also working on bettering myself. Mr D. told me I am doing good at cleaning it's just that I need to be a little bit more bossier. I am also working on my multipliction tables.

I am trying to lose weight too. I am making a deal with myslef. I need to stay away from the deserts and when I get to vegas I can pig out.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~If you can imagine it, you can achieve it. If you can dream it, you can become it. -William Arthur Ward~

Detroit Red Wings

GO WINGS!!!!!

In the Stanley Cup Playoffs there are the Conference Quarter Finals then the Conference semifinals then Conference Finals and then the Stanley Cup Final.

Right now the Red Wings are in the Conference Finals Against Chicago Blackhawks. The Wings won today at home 5-2. The next game is at home on Tuesday and then the next 2 games are in Chi-town. All they need to do is win the next 3 then it's time to defent the cup and have the Stanley Cup back to back. We need to keep the Stanley Cup here in Hockeytown.

Back to School

I am all ready and set to go back to school and start my 2nd term. I have to work twice as hard this term to show Mr. D. I am a good student.

Angie helped me book my trip to Vegas. I am going to California on the 22nd first to spend a couple days there and spend a little time with Lola and then the weekend we are going to vegas and then coming back to California and on the 29th I am going back home.

I am leaving for my train soon. My train gets in at 5:30 p.m. and I should be getting in to Kalamazoo at 8:54 p.m. I just can't wait for my life to start to where I am working a full time job, have my own car, and paying for my own groceries.

Another chapter in my life

I am finally at home and it feels good. Angie will be coming tonight and I am happy to see her. The last time I saw her was at Christmas.

WOW. That is all I can say. I will be going to second term when I get back to school. I will have
Mr. D and I will be busy and excused at the end of the day. I am no longer in 1st term and the beginner. I will work hard and study hard as l did my first term. When I get back on the 12th. I will go back to a new roommate. I see this as a another chapter in my life.

Now I have to think about a couple things. The first thing is that If I want to start my own business and the second thing is that if I want to move to California to be in a new state and start a whole new life for myself.

Future Business Dream

I thought I would ever diet pills again and I did yesterday. I bought Slimquick. As soon as I took them I have more energy and I was bounceing off the walls. I need this weight off by July. At least 240 by then. I know that if I start losing weight I will have more energy and cleaning will be alot easier.

I hope that I am meant to have my own cleaing business. I am spending so much time into ideas for my business but I will have to just wait and see what my life will take me.

No I am looking to see if I can find something to help me write a business plan. I hope I am not wasting my time into this future business dream.

Shoot for a goal and don't stop until you reach it

~Horoscope for today~

Expand your mind to its farthest reaches today, Kristine. There is an incredible opportunity opening up for you in which you can make great strides in a creative realm. Follow the music today. Pick up an instrument, go to the record store, or listen to a live band. Let the artist within you have room to shine. Shoot for a goal and don't stop until you reach it.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

~Shoot for a goal and don't stop until you reach it.~

That is my now moto. I have a lot of goals that I want to reach. I have to work hard and I won't stop until I get to where I want to be. All I want is success and be able to make a lot of money. Weather if it's owning my own cleaning business and having celebrities as clients. It would be nice to know some and maybe be friends with them. This is a big goal all I have to do it work towards that goal and also I wnat to be well known and bigger then Jo's Cleaning.

As Christina Aguliera said it in her song Soar. Lift your head high and stay strong, keep pushing on. Spead your wings and soar.

Proud Day for me

Well today in class we did auto deatialing today. It was fun I can't wait to start my own business and start making money doing it. We also had a Award assembly. I have 3 of them. I am so very proud of myself for working my ass off and also praying to God to help me on my journy in life.

I can't believe that first term is almost done and soon I will be heading home and seeing Angie. I have 3 more class days until I am done with first term. Second term will be a lot harder for me but I know I can do it. I have to work twice as hard and my hard work will pay off once again.Plus my teacher for 2nd term is a lot tougher.

It's HUMP DAY

This week is almost over and I am getting closer to going home. I have 5 days of class and 8 days total. I hope that I don't get sick on the 6th which is my last day of class cause I want this trip on the train to be comfortable. and I get to go home early. I am taking the 3:45 train and so that I will be home around 7:00. I am hoping that Flo will take that train cause I want someone to talk to at the train station and on the train.

I signed up for the Tiger game on June 7th. I never have been to Comerica Park. I am looking forward to it. I gonna bring back some Tiger T-shirts. I hope that I can buy some stuff there at the shop.

Personal Growth

• Leadership
• Success
• Self Esteem
• Motivation
• Self help

Since this day is almost over. I have 7 more days of class and I am done with first term. I am looking forward to 2nd term since I heard it's a lot harder then first term. I know I can do it. I can't wait till the end of July. I will be going to vegas for my birthday. My older is taking me as my gift. I will be going to California first. I wnat to see Lola (my sisters roommate/friends puggle).

Beauty Pagent Dream

Your horoscope for April 26, 2009

Today is a fantastic day for you, Kristine, so enjoy yourself fully. Your emotions will be stable and you will find that you have a very expansive sense of well-being. Your self-confidence is strong and you should use this to your advantage. This energy may be subtle, but if you tune in to it early in the day and set a plan for what you want to get accomplished, you will find that you can be very productive.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I had woken up at 5:30 am for some reason then after I watch some TV and then went back to sleep again. I had a weird dream. I was in a Miss Michigan Beauty Pagent. At first I was getting rady and I had told some guy that I was worried about how I looked. I was over weight and concerd what everyone might think. Then when I was up on stage I actually saw myself getting called down to be part of the lucky 15. I never finished my dream so I will never know how l did.

Here is what the dream meant: To watch or dream that you are in a beauty pageant, refers to your own insecurities about your appearances. You are constantly comparing yourself to others and how you measure up to them. You may also be subscribing to society's standards of beauty.

This is so true. I am concerend about my weight. I have having a hard time losing weight but right now I am so focused on school cause that is the most important thing I need to focus on. First is my career and then weight loss.

Can't seem to get back in a routine

I can't seem to get back in a routine that will get me back on track. It's hard cause I am up at school for another 3 monthis and the most I have lost is 5 lbs but not I gotta try to get back into the gym here at school. It sucks but it will have to go. I miss my gym at home not a lot of eye candy to keep me from going to go work out.

I need to lose some weight for Vegas at the end of July my sister is giving me a free trip for my 3oth Birthday.

I just turned 30 on the 22 of this month. I don't feel any differnet but me being 30 hasn't sunk in yet.

Confidence leads to Inspiration

My horoscope for April 25, 2009

"Inspiration" is the keyword for today, Kristine. You may be feeling highly motivated to move on with what others may consider impossible dreams. Impossibility has never stopped you before, and you're not likely to let it stop you now. Instead, you are more likely to consider all contingencies carefully and practically in order to make them work. Friends could be inspired by your vision and determination, and follow your example. Go for it.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Since I last blooged. I have tuned 30 and it hasn't sunk in yet but it's a new age bracket. I hope that means that new and exciting things will start happening. I am almost done with my 1st term. I only have a week and 3 days. I go home on May 6th and don't come back until the 12th. Then I will start my 2nd term and last term.

Since my first time I came here. I have become more confident and sure that my future will not be like the past. I am excited to be going into my 2nd term and seeing what 1st term will be like towards us.

I still am thinking about starting my own cleaning business. I have done a lot of research and the more I think about it the more I am sure I need to learn everything I need to start my own business.

I had some weird dreams list night about me having a baby and breastfeeding it. Here it what it says about it.....


Baby - To see a baby in your dream, signifies innocence, warmth and new beginnings. Babies symbolize something in your own inner nature that is pure, vulnerable, helpless and/or uncorrupted. If you find a baby in your dream, then it suggests that you have acknowledged your hidden potential. If you dream that you forgot you had a baby, then it suggests that you are trying hide your own vulnerabilities; You do not want to let others know of your weaknesses

Breast Feeding - To dream that you are breast feeding, symbolizes tenderness, love, nurturance, and motherly love. Good things will be at your grasp. Alternatively, the dream suggests that you need to be careful in who you confide in.

80's

1. Joe Jackson
2. Thompson Twins
3. Daryl Hall & John Oates
4. Hewy Lewis and the news
5. Michael Jackson
6. Matthew Wilder
7. Pat Bentar
8. Cindy Lapur
9. Tears for Fears
10. Level 42
11. George Michael

Back on Track

I am back on track and taking little steps to changing my bad habit lifestyle. I am trying to put new and healthy changes in my life that will be with me forever.

I have already don't eat hot dogs,Veal, and Taco Bell. I mostly drink water but on every once in a while I will have some diet pop and when I want it I have1 can of regular pop. I hardly ever snack but I need to at least have 1 snack a day to keep my hunger in check.

Turn for the worst

This week has not been very good. It's nice and relaxing to be at home and see family and friends but the past couple days have been not good. My Aunt Anna had fallen down and broke her hip bone. She was doing fine but today when my mom called she had taken a turn for the worst. They sent her to the ICU in the Cardic Unit. She was having a hard time breathing. So I will be going to the hospital to see her. Right now my other Aunt Anna is there. My mom is taking a half day so we can go see her. I don't need another death in the family. It's been a year and a month since my grandma passed away. I have so much going for me. I haven't been happy like this for a long time and it will break my heart if my Aunt passes away. So I am hoping and praying she can pull through this.

I feel loved

Well after I bitched on here about my last post. Sarah called me back and said that it was ok to come over at any time. I went. Spent some time with them. Then Tom and Tim came by and they wanted to see if I still wanted to go to Sonic with them and I did. SO I am not a Sonic virgin anymore. It was good. I had a double cheeseburger with fries and a shake.Their pineapple shake is sooo good. Then after we went by Sarah and Elliot's again. They stayed a few and then left. I was feeding Ariana and Amanda and Rob came over. I wanted to go with Tim and Tom.

I feel loved that all my friends want to spend time with me. I am gonna try to hang out the Angela tomorrow before I go with Tom to church. I still want to hang out with my other friend Sara too and maybe Tiffany.

Venting: PISSED!!!

Tom pisses me off. I called him to see if he still wanted to do something and it sounded like he didn't' care. He was the one that wanted to do something. I already seen him and I don't care if I see him again until I came back home in 4 weeks. Also another friend that pisses me off is my so called friend Sarah. I called her on both my home phone and my cell and once again she never picks the phone when I call so I am saying SCREW IT, I don't care anymore about them. They never call me or answer my calls so that means they don't want to be friends. I am sick of people like this. They only want to invite me to things so that they can call me a friend and get a gift. Well no more. I don't need that shit in my life. I can't stand people like this.

Weird Dream

I had this weird dream last night. It was of me winning all this money. I had $100 and $50 dollar bills in my hand and then somehow my went everywhere and I was trying to pick them up and people in my class were picking them up.I got worried and told them to stop. I was taking the money out of their hands.

Here is what dreammoods.com says.......To dream that you lose money, signifies temporary unhappiness in the home and a few setbacks in your affairs. You may be feeling weak, vulnerable, and out of control in your waking life. Additionally, you may be lacking ambition, power and self-esteem.

I just don't understand why I had this dream. I am at school learning a trade that will be a stepping stone for my future. I am happy that I am doing this but the unhappiness part is that I have to be away from home for another 13 weeks.

I can't wait till I am done with school then after this week I have 4 weeks until 1st semester. Then 5 days to come back home and then after that I have the start of the 2nd semester. I am hoping it goes by fast. I just want to get done, graduate and find a job. I know I should enjoy the process but I hate being away from home.

So I am ready for the next 4 weeks and hoping those weeks will fly by fast just like the 6 weeks did.

Last Saturday I went to church with my parents and I seen a surprise. It was Tom. I didn't expect to see him but I did. Then when church got out he asked me what I was doing and I told him jsut gonna be watching the Final 4 game. He then asked me if I wanted to go grab dinner and then watch the game at his cousins house. I went and long story short. Tom had a few shots and a beer. That was at Randy's house and then as the time went on. they all went over to Bob's. Then Tom asked me if he could get a kiss and that totally caught me off guard. Then at the end of the night when I was in my bed he called and we talked and when he let me go he said good-bye and I Love you and so did I. I was too tired to catch myself. I am confused.

I weighed myself a couple days ago and I saw a surprise. I actually lost weight. I went from 262 when I weighted myself at school and then at home I was 257. YAY that is a 5 lb weight loss. I was happy to see that number on the scale. I haven't seen that number in a while and I am glad that I am back in the 250's but now my next goal is to be in the 240's.

At home

It feels so good to be back home. I can now relax and not think about school. I don't miss it and that is a good thing. I have been away from home for 6 weeks and then after break I am gonna be gone for another 4 weeks and then come back home again for about a week and then 2nd term starts and I will be gone for another 4 weeks until I will can come back again and after that I will have another 4 weeks and when I come home again in July it will be for good.

I go back on Sunday which is Easter and we are going over my Uncle Adam's house which I will see my new baby cousin Alicia.

I will be leaving tomorrow and I am so excited. I get to go on my first train ride and after being here for 6 weeks with going home I am gonna need this coming week to relax and not think about school but spend time with my family and friends.

Right now I am on Joy's labtop and I am updating quickly before dinner. I will be updating after dinner.

I can't belive that after break I will have 4 weeks here and then I will start my 2nd term.

I have 2 more days until I get to go home. I am so excited all I am gonna be doing is relaxing and spending time with my family and friends. It will feel good to finally sleep in my own bed with out Joy talking or walking in her sleep. I will be going on the train for the first time in my life. I will be giong with Joy since she will be getting off ahead of me.

I will be busy when I get home but I will also spend some time by self.

3 more Days

I am sooo excited that I will be going home in 3 more days and then I have 2 more days of classes. We are going over to my Aunt and Uncles house for Easter and I am happy we are cause I will be seeing my new little cousin.

After break I will have 4 weeks until I am in 2nd term and it's the countdown to Graduation.

80's Memories Part 2

I remember all sorts of "mint" stuff from the 80's. We had the best stuff like

• cabbage patch kids
• rainbow brite
• my little pony
• hugga bunch
• Lite brite
• strawberry shortcake
• care bears
• smurfs
• He man
• She-RA
• Teddy Rusbin
• Thunder Cats
• Facts of Life
• Different Strokes
• garbage pail kids
• charm necklaces (clipped onto plastic necklaces)
• The Incredible Hulk
• Night rider
• Punky Bruster
• The Greatest American Hero
• THE MUPPET SHOW
• Movies: Sixteen candles, Dirty Dancing, the Goonies, Neverending Story, The Karate Kid.( I thought Ralph Macchio was soooo cute!) I remember the clothes fondly too. Champion sweatshirts, and three layers of socks!, tight rolled up jeans, Benneton. I think, the thing I miss the most from the 80's is being so young. I didn't have a care in the world and I enjoyed everything. There was just enough technology to have fun (like nintendo) but not too much, so we could still use our imaginations. Like Digging for gold in the backyard sandbox, or spending the afternoon way up in a tree. Life was simple then, probably because I was young, but I will never forget how much fun I had.

80's Memories

I was just thinking about my childhood and all the funI used to have and the rhymjes I have learned. Such as these I used to say when I was a little girl and then find it on this website....

• Miss Susie had a babyshe named him Tiny Tim She put him in the bath tubto see if he can swim He drank up all the water, he ate up all the soap He tried to fit the bathtubbut it wouldn't fit his throat Mrs. Susie called the doctorThe doctor called the nurseThe nurse called the lady with the alligator purse
• Trick or Treatsmell my feetgimme something good to eatIf you don'tI don't careI'll pull down your underwear
• The Freddy Kreuger rhyme (Nightmare on Elm Street)- One, two, Freddy's coming for you three, four, you better lock your door five, six, get your crusifix seven, eight, you better stay up late nine, ten, never sleep again!
• On top of Spaghetti, all covered with cheese I lost my poor meatball when somebody sneezed It rolled off of the table and onto the floor and then my poor meatball rolled right out the door It rolled on to the floor and then my poor meatball it went ou the door.
• Cinderella, dressed in yella, went upstairs to kiss a fella. Made a mistake - kissed a snake! How may doctors did it take?1,2,3,4, ...

Then here are so games I used to play.

• Red light/Green light
• Red Rover
• Star (a game I made up)

Horoscope for March 28, 2009

Today is an excellent day for you to say exactly how you feel, Kristine. Your thinking is sharp and clear. You will find that once you start talking, you may never stop. People will listen extra carefully to your words today. You have a great deal of influence on other people, so realize how much impact you are having on the environment around you. You will be able to accomplish a great deal.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

All I can say is that I am able to accomplisheh a lot today. I have a pretty busy week a head of me.

3 day weekend

I found out yesterday that Jeff left the custodial program on Monday, Yes I was heart broken cause I won't be able to see him everyday but at least I know that it was never meant to be. So I am now just moving on and enjoying my time here and I have no class tomorrow and that means a 3 day weekend. Patty, Dawn, and Jenny will be leaving tomorrow. Jenny for good but Dawn and Patty will be back. Patty will be back in May when I will be starting 2nd Term and she will be in 1st and that sucks that is happening but I will at least see her again.

Right now I am doing my laundry. Waiting for the washer to get done. I will be going shopping again this saturday to get a few things. I have Spring Break right around the corner. I leave next week Friday and I am oh so excited. I get to be home for a week in my own bed, on my own computer, eating what ever I want. Then after Spring Break I will have 4 weeks until this Term in done and I will be going on to 2nd Term.

I can not wait till I go home.I am gonna need to get away from here. I ahve been here since I came here in Feburary and being home will help me requivate myself even though I will miss seeing Jeff.n I miss my friends and my room.

I hadn't seen him today. He must be really sick. I hope he feels better tomorrow. I am having my review tomorrow to see how I have been doing these 5 weeks that I have been here.

So Confused

Horoscope for March 22, 2009

Be open and communicative about your feelings today, Kristine. Everyone may find it easy to share a fact or piece of concrete information. The challenge is to be able to share something from your heart, as opposed to something from your head. Don't think that feelings always need to be kept secret. In fact, just the opposite is true. Make sure you leave channels open for emotional expression at this time.

Yesterday as I waiting for the van I saw Jeff go to the smoking hut to smoke and that made me happy when I saw him when I was in the van he was walking back with a girl and he was talking to her that is when I got sad and my jelously comes into place. I don't know what to do anymore if I should keep on pursing to see if he likes me or just forget about it. I am so confused.

Liking it more each and every day.

My feelings for Jeff are so so. I still think hes cute and all but the thing is that I don't think he has the same feelings for me but Patty is going to ask him if there is anyone he likes in our class then I will finally have my answer.

I am so looking forward to going home for Spring Break. I have a week and 4 days until I am home for a week. I miss my bed and my parents not so much and also my friends.

I am making a lot of new memories here and a lot more friends like Flo and Patty, Jenny, Matt and Dawn. When I first came here I was a loner. I sat by myslef and now I am sitting with people and making conversation. Yes I will miss it here when I leave but I hope I can make it to 2nd Term so I can spend more time with Flo and Patty if they make it.

Update

I haven't been on here for a while. Just a quick update. I have been sice since yesterday. Then on friday my class along with 2nd Term Cusidal had this exersice that if we wanted we could walk across this high rise thigng. I didn't do it but after that we played this game where we formed 2 groups and I was on a group with Flo and Jeff. When I ran the first time I didn't get hit but the second time I did and so did. But the first time I ran I made it through and so did Jeff but when I was running back from the chair I almost ran into Jeff and after he was done he made a commet to me and said you thought I was gonna run into you and I said yes. Then when I went for the 2nd time I got hit my Greg and so did Jeff. He then came and sat by me.

Yesterday I went on the Shopping Trip and so did Jeff. He was the only one that went to Meijers and when the Van went to go pick him up and all he had was a Mountian Dew.

Disapointed

There is a guy in my class that I think it cute and I like well it seems that since today he didn't sit by me today. Ever since class started he had sat by me and I prayed to GOD that he would give me a sign and today was it. So I am now focusing on my career and getting my butt out to California.

Quick Update

I start a whole new week this week. I have 4 more weeks until Spring Break. I have been doing a lot of reading and working on my poems. I will be typing them out when I get home. This weekend has been easy. I did my lanudry this morning after Brunch and then when I get back to my room I will be reading more. I will try to update every day with what is going on with me.

Quick Update

Ok I am offically at MCTI and I know it's been a while since I last updated. I have been busy with school things and stuff. I am relived that I am finally doing something with my life. I have the whole month of March to be here and then on April 2nd I leave for home for a week and then it's back to school. I will be going on my first train ride and kinda looking foreward to it. Well I will try to update more since I have a password to the computer lab and I will take advantage of it.

I have been doing a lot of reading and soul searching since I have been here and since this coming week will be different from my first week which was pretty busy. I will be getting more into school work. I will be doing a lot of studying once I get more into the term.

One more day

I can't believe the day is finally here and soon I will be on my way to MCTI and a better future. Time flies by so fast and it seems that it was only yesterday that I met with Sarah and I broke down and then after I have been waiting the day to come and soon it will be here.

Tomorrow I have to fianalized everything and make sure I have everything I need to take with me. I just can't wait till I finally start and see where my life takes me.

My day

I spent the day with Tom. I went to church with him and then we came back here to relax. Were waiting for a call from Matt to see when he wanted to out to dinner with us. Then we went to dinner at 6:30. Went to a new place in downtown Utica called Shamrocks. I never went there but Tom and Matt did. Anyways, every time I am with Tom, every now and then he talks dirty to me. Like for example we were talking on the phone and he was singing get o tof your clothes and into my car and yes he really said this to me and he is supposed to be going into the priesthood. He told me that he wanted to get that out of his system and he still makes those kids of comments to me. He isn't going back into the semary until the fall. By then I hope to have a guy I am dating.

It's easy to give up when you don't even try

I always take the easy way out and I always give up. How the hell am I ever gonna learn anything if I don't even try. This goes for learning the guitar. If I want something bad enough I have to keep focus and try my best until I succeed.

MCTI is my stepping stone to bigger and better things and I have to do what to takes to get where I want to go I have work hard and that is what I have to do. I know what God will help guide me through out my life and lead me to the right direction.

I have 4 more days until I leave. I am almost ready to move out there for 6 months and learn all I can that will help me graduate so that I can get a decent job rather than working retail.

I see what I was telling myself in my friend Angela. She is in the same boat I am until I made the decision to move on to another boat that will take me to another direction in my life. I will never be in the boat again.

Wanting/Needing/ and Saving

There is a difference between wanting something and needing something. It's simple just look at the word wanting.

• Wanting something like that diamond necklace that you can't afford but really want it but you don't really need but want it anyway.
  
• Then needing something is that thing that you need in life like everyday necessities like Shampoo.

I lot of people when they get money they instantly want to spend it. Then that is when you have to think about the situation. That urge tells you to go shopping but the real thing is that you need to be saving it. Example: The urge is telling you that now that you have the money you have to go get that things that you have been wanting. It's not gonna kill you if you don't get it. Once you get it and you ask yourself did I really need to spend that much money and do I really need it. It's ok to spend the money on something you have been working hard ot get. Like if you lose 100 lbs and that is when you can spend that money on that special something you want.

Another Dream about my Grandma

I had a dream last night and I was at a house. I don't know if it was my house but I was in my bedroom. It was a new house and we had people come by to look at it kind alike a open house. Towards the end of my dream before I woke up I was in my room and and my grandma comes in my room. She had a smile on her face. This was like my 6th dream about her. I do miss her but I know that every time I dream about her she is smiling. My mom tells me that when she is smiling means that she isn't suffering.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

This is my dream dress. Its from Platinum for Priscilla of Boston. It's a very expensive dress that costs $5,000 and up. Strapless gown with beaded pearl bodice, full A-line front, 3-tiered embroidered train. Available in Ivory Silk Satin and White Silk Satin.

I don't care about the price all I care about is that I found the dress that will make me looking beautiful and that will beat Amanda's (my ex's wife) wedding dress. You can't see the bottom but only a little. All of their gown are hand swen and I love how the bodice, skirt, and train of the gown has a lot of beading to it.

Countdown : 6 days to go

I can't believe it that i have 6 more days to go until leave for MCTI. I am a little excited. I know that by going I will have a happier life. I just want to start so I can get finished and start looking for a job and start living my life. When Tuesday come I will be counting down to days till I graduate.

Yesterday I was talking to my mom on the phone while she was at work. I was telling her that once I get a job I will be saving for a car. She then is always negative and says that why don't you wait until we get a another car and we will give you the Mercury Sable and you can pay the insurance on that. I want my own car that I can pick out and my mom won't have any say so. I am 30 years old and my mom it still over protected of me. What I am trying to do is make my own decisions but have all this negative energy coming at me.

I can't wait till I have my life under my control with out my mom and dad having any say so.

Remeber the 80's

1. You've ever ended a sentence with the word SIKE.
2. You can sing the rap to the Fresh Prince of Bel-Air and can do the Carlton
3. You know that 'WOAH' comes from Joey on Blossom
4. If you ever watched 'Fraggle Rock'
5. It was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons.
6. You wore a ponytail on the side of your head.
7. You got super-excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.
8. You made your mom buy one of those clips that would hold your shirt in a knot on the side.
9. You played the game 'MASH'(Mansion, Apartment, Shelter, House)
10. You wore stonewashed Jordache jean jackets and were proud of it.
11. You know the profound meaning of ' WAX ON , WAX OFF'
12. You wanted to be a Goonie.
13. You ever wore fluorescent clothing. (Some of us...head-to-toe)
14. You can remember what Michael Jackson looked like before his nose fell off, his cheeks shifted and his nationality became questionable.
15. You have ever pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.
16. You took lunch boxes to school...and traded Garbage Pail Kids in the schoolyard.
17. You remember the CRAZE, then the BANNING of slap bracelets.
18. You still get the urge to say 'NOT' after every sentence.
19. You thought your childhood friends would never leave because you exchanged handmade friendship bracelets.
21. You ever owned a pair of Jelly-Shoes.
22. After you saw Pee-Wee's Big Adventure you kept saying 'I know you are, but what am I?'
23. You remember 'I've fallen and I can't get up'
24. You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates.
25.. You have ever played with a Skip-It.
26. You remember boom boxes and walking around with one on your shoulder like you were all that.
27. You remember watching both Gremlins movies.
28. You thought Doogie Howser/Samantha Micelli was hot.
29. You remember Alf, the lil furry brown alien from Melmac.
30. You remember New Kids on the Block when they were cool... and don't even flinch when people refer to them as 'NKOTB'
31. You knew all the characters names and their life stories on 'Saved By The Bell,' The ORIGINAL class.
32. You know all the words to Bon Jovi - SHOT THROUGH THE HEART.
33. You just sang those words to yourself.
34. You still sing 'We are the World'
35. You tight rolled or french cuffed your jeans. And still debate on which is the right term!
36. You owned a bannana clip.
37. You remember 'Where's the Beef?'
38. You used to (and probably still do) say 'What you talkin' 'bout Willis?'
39. You're still singing shot through the heart in your head, aren't you!

Vegas

I can't believe that time is going by fast and soon I will be on my way to MCTI. My sister IMed me on Facebook and she was asking if we were still planning on going to Vegas for my 30th since I will turn 30 when I am up at school. I told her that I thought we weren't going since she has a trip planned to Poland then she said that we can still go end of July beginning of August for 5 days. I am hoping that I will be able to go I need wanted to do this for a while.

Taurus Outlook for 2009

It's time to celebrate yourself, Taurus! You are pouring yourself into your life's mission and rejuvenating yourself with abundant thinking, which attracts great things to you. You're diligently creating a public arena where opportunities will emerge for you to be a teacher or messenger. Engagements for speaking, writing and sharing your thoughts will open up. Other people will be inspired by your enthusiasm and insight, and will support you in accomplishing your goals.

Taurus's excitement radiates more than ever this year, bringing with it a magnificent energy the world has been lacking. As you embrace the power of your heart and spirit, you are allowing yourself to transform and align with a universal energy source. You discover the space for your creativity to flow and abundantly bring the truth of your being into the world. Your focus on your connection with a higher purpose brings out the best in you and refines your self-expression.

You appreciate all the expansive shifts that are taking place in your life, and you are learning to break up routines and old patterns of rigidity. This allows you a new level of awareness and acceptance of your ultimate purpose. Pay attention to what has heart and meaning. Express your truth and you will advance. You will find avenues to bring your talents and belief systems to philanthropic endeavors. By the end of the year, you will be able to slow down a bit and find more time to enjoy the new you that you have created.

Amazing

Horoscope for February 13, 2009

In spite of your feelings to the contrary, you are bound to be successful. It is likely that you are involved in some sort of group project that is requiring a lot of time and effort of you. All indications are that those efforts will pay off shortly. Continue to work those long hours, even if it means pulling an all-nighter or two. In just a few months time you will have caught up on your sleep and will be rolling in the money.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
When I saw this I knew my future was on the right track. I has a weird dream last night, I was playing a slot game at a hotel lobby. I was next to Kara (Jeana's daughter from the real house wife's of Orange Country). This was my second dream that I had of her that she was in it. I guess I was friends with her. Anyways, I had won over 2,000 dollars but what happened was the women came and I couldn't find my purse and then my mom came and told me that my purse was in the hotel room. Then after I woke up so I don't know what would of happened after.

Then I went on dreammoods.com and looked for money and this is what it says......

• To see or win money in your dream, symbolizes that success and prosperity is within your reach. Money may represent confidence, self-worth, success, or values. You have much belief in yourself. Alternatively, dreaming about money, refers to your attitudes about love and matters of the heart. It is frequently a symbol for sexuality and power. In particular, finding money indicates your quest for love or for power.

This makes me happy to know that in the future I will be seeing successs and that I have been wanting for a long time and I can't wait will I finally see my dreams coming true. All I want is to be successful and make a lot of money to where I can buy things I want and still not have to worry about if I have enough in the bank.

I'm freaking out

I was watching the Clean House on Style Network and when it was finished it was Dress my Nest and I heard a name I recognized and she said she was from Michigan and yes it was her it was Angie Greenup. She hasn't changed at all. I guess she now lives in California. I guess she was on The Price is right and she won some furniture on the showcase showdown and she hates and wanted Thom (from Queer Eye for the straight guy) to fix her house up. She owns a company called So Cal Booty Camp.

Wedding Reviewer Part 2

I was thinking that once I have money rolling in and I have a car of my own that I will be trying out the !st place to 5th place and seeing if these Wedding vendors are the best in Metro Detroit. I know that I can't right away book a Venue but I will try my best to get other brides reviews. I will be reviewing......

• Bakers
• Photographers
  

Update

Last Friday My parents,sister, and I went to my old neighborhood. I didn't want to go back but I had no other choice. It's hard to go back to my past to where I grew up but in the end I was ok with it. My grandmas old house and the ones and the 2 my parents used to own are all owned by Mexicans who are fixing it up. I am glad to see that they aren't ruined.

Then Last night I was on my phone checking Facebook and my ex-boyfriends wife posted some of her wedding pictures. I never thought I would ever see them but I am kinda glad that I did.I will be having a much better and more expensive wedding than theirs. The Wedding pictures turned out crappy, the cake looked horrible and not to mention she only had a Maid of Honor and one Bridesmaid. Her Dress and the bridesmaids dresses looked ugly and the flowers were also ugly. She has no style or class even though she pretends too.

I will have all the best vendors that I can afford and it will all be put together beautify.

My Horoscope

My Horoscope for February 5, 2009

If you have had a long-standing interest in film or photography, today would be a good day to explore that interest further, Kristine. You will likely receive an opportunity to learn some of the intricacies of the craft. And who knows, maybe you will decide to go into the business on a professional basis. If indeed this is your true love, you should find a way to incorporate it into your life in whatever way possible.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I have so many dreams and one of them is to get into photography. I want to buy myself a professional camera and learn how to take really good photographs. It's a hobby so I don't care if it doesn't turn into something professional.

I am still tying to figure out if my dream of becoming a Massage Therapist is still alive deep inside of me. I have a lot to focus on. To my #1 focus at MCTI and finding a job after I graduate to really think about what i really want out of my life.

A Really Good Dream

I just had a really good dream last night. It all started when my family and I went over my cosin Thresa's house. I didn't see Rob my cousins husband and my dad but it had her sons TJ an drew. We were sitting at the table eating dinner then after it went to me making out with a guy. I don't remmebber his name though. I think it was Dave but anyways when we were leaving and I kissed and hudgged my cousin good-bye she told me that I had a glow to my face. Then my dream turned to me at home on the computer with my friend Tom behimd me. He saw that I hs some persoal ads through my e-mail and I don't remember what he said. Then at he end and the greatest part is that I got married. It was was some glitsy hollywood banquet area. It looked awesome. I was in the womans room to where the bride and other woman could do their thing. I hung up my dress like it was a showing at a meusum. I looked up and there was my cosun Janae and Kim Kardashian congrating me. By them I had already changed and I walked back to my seat. You think that I would of sat by my husband but I was sitting my mom mom and dad. I don't know where my sisters were or by that fact my husband. As I was getting my slef comfortable I look up and it was Khole Kardashian. I got up to give her a hug. She said to me hi my bestfriend congratualtions then we hugged. Then I woke up.

Wow! Now that was a good dream. I hope when I move to California I will get the chance to meet some celebrities and become friends with them.

21 more days

I will be studying my ass off to be able to pass my classes so I can graduate in 6 months I can't believe that days are getting closer and I just can't wait to start and be finished with MCTI. I just want my life to start. To start working and saving money so I can buy my own car.. This will be a good experience for me knowing that it is like to live in a dorm like my sisters experienced.

The countdown

The countdown is on and I am excited. I am finally gonna be doing something with my life. MCTI is just a stepping stone to bigger and better things. I don't want to go but its something I have to do in order for me to be successful in my life. I leave on February 24th and my first day is February 25th. Then I am in school through July. On July 11th I graduate. Then when I arrive at home the next ay my first call will be to Sarah telling her I am ready for my process to finding a good full time job.

I want to go to Poland, Prague and Budapest with my sister on Aug 27 to Sept 14 but I dont know if I I'll be able to go but I'll have to wait and see.

New Career

I wanna start a new career in the wedding industry. I think I would call it Wedding Reviewer Since I love weddings so much/ I wanna have a website were bides can go to like the knot but I want to be the main source for brides. Such as the best of the best Brides can e-mail me their vendor reviews and based on the most of good reviews on a grading scale. I will start of with the Best of the Best of Metro Detroit.

I will have reviews on the best

• Reception Venue
• Photographer
  
• Videographer
• Baker
• and many more......

I will be there for the bride. I also want to able to work with the vendor somehow. Have them tell me what they offer and I can put it on my site and I will post the bride reviews along with that Vendor.

Process to MCTI

I already accomplished a goal on my list and that was attend MCTI since I am leaving in 24 days. I already marked that off.

• ~ Attend MCTI (Accomplish Date :February 24, 2009)

During school my main focus is to study hard to get good grades in order for me to go to my next step and that step is to graduate.

Then the next step is to find a full time job and once I do that save enough money to put a down payment on a used car. For that I am going to my cousin. He is a used car manager. I rather go to him and give him the commission rather than someone I don't trust and give him the commission on my sale.

Staying Positive

I am so fortunate that I have a family and friends I love. I have done the things I wanted to do so far and still need goals to accomplish. I believe that I can do anything I can put my mind too. Soon my life will be changing and I'll have job and then soon I will get a car.

Failure is not a option anymore. I have to do anything I can to get myself on track to a life of my own and block out the negative people and thoughs in my life and I gotta keep on reaching my goals.

The Biggest Loser

When I watch the Biggest Loser. I get motivated to workout and get healthy. I love this show and I thought I would want to be on it but after 7 seasons of watching it. they put the contestants to hell. they really lose a large amount of weight in a small period of time. I am lucky to lose 2 lbs. I have to work hard at exercising and eating healthy.

Looking Forward

I can't wait till I am finished with MCTI then I will be on my way on to establishing my life. On to bigger and better things.

On to bigger and better things

I can't wait till I am finished with MCTI then I will be on my way on to establishing my life. Once I get a job then I can check off that off my list then I can focus on saving money for a car after that I have to start saving to move out maybe even into a apartment or even better yet to move to California. I will be able to buy my own groceries, go to my own church and be able to support it. I also want to learn how to cook healthy for me and my parents. Plus it will save me money and also I am sick of always going out to eat.

I was talking to Tom yesterday and he was telling me that he went to Assumption Grotto and after he was helping out with the pancake breakfast. He was playing basketball with some 10 year old boys and he told me that he would be a great father and I said priest and he said no a dad. So I don't know why he said that. I just hope that he will be able to follow through into the priest hood. I have given up on him and on to bigger and better things. I will support him either way and I hope he goes through this.

My Priorities

I have a lot of priorities to focus on and my first one is my career and to get to my career I have to go through MCTI study hard and graduate and then after my priorities come into focus.

1. career
2. weight loss
3. buying a car

I just want to establish a carrer so that I know I am doing something with my life. Im not a loser just sitting at home and not doing nothing. I also don't want to be living at my parents house.

Poland, Prague, and Budapest

I want to go to Poland, Prague, and Budapest with my sisters, cousins and some of her friends. By then I would be done with school and that ends on July 11. They are leaving on Aug 27 and staying till Sept 14. I hope to have a full time job and start working so I will have a little money for myself. I really want to go and I hope I can borrow some money from my mom and sister. Once I start working I can pay it back. I would like to travel to some other county other than Canada. If I am not able to go then it wasn't meant to be. I will be able to go one day.

Why I want to move to California

Pros

• My Sisters live here
• My Cousin live here
  
• Better job opportunities
  
• Warmer weather/no snow
• Always something to do
• Start a new fresh new life - A start of a new chapter in my life.
  
• Ocean
• Beaches
  
• New places to visit
• Celebrities
  
• Meet new people
• Make new friends
  
• I love the atmosphere - I wnat to live the California Life,
• Make new memories

Cons

• Earthquakes
• Mudslides
• Fires
• Miss my family and friends
• Get used to living in a different state
• I’ll have to learn how to drive in California
• Drive in lots of traffic
• Expensive to live there
• Away from Friends
• Miss out on Family Functions
  

Pros

• My family and friends are here
• I’ve lived her all my life
• No major disasters
• Cheaper to live here
• Cheaper gas prices
• Won’t miss out on Family Functions

Cons

• Miss out on better job opportunities
  
• Weather changes - 4 seasons
• There aren’t any jobs here
• My past is here
• Need to get out of this state
• Missing out on new experiences

~Why I want to move to California~

When I leave Michigan to visit California I’m happy to step off the plane, get my luggage and out of the airport. To smell the California air, feel it on my skin. Then Angie comes to pick me up, I get in the car & glance around LAX airport as Angie heads to her apartment, I look at everyone living their lives, Then I stay for awhile and enjoy myself, then it’s time for me to leave to go back home, my sister takes me back to the airport, I say good -bye, I am sad and I feel like crying, as I leave to wait for my plane I get tears in my eyes, then I board the plane, about 4 hours later I get off the plane, step into the Michigan air, feel the Michigan air, My mom picks me up and then it’s HOME! But…..I do miss California when I am not visiting.

I want my new home to be California. It will be good for me to move here. It's a fresh start in my life with a new state and a new atmosphere. I make new friends and drive in the California traffic and live my life as a Califorian. I can't wait to finally move and start a new chapter in my life.

I will be back to Michigan to visit that is for sure cause my family and friends are here. I just need a new life and that is why I want to move to California.

I need a new life. Away from my past and I need to make new memories. Since 2008 my younger sister Patricia, Neha and Rich (my older sisters friends), and Keri (my younger sister friend) have moved there and soon rich will be there. It is a bad time in Michigan with may people losing their job and moving out of state to find work.

Having a good day

Horoscope for January 23, 2009
You awake this morning feeling happy and enthusiastic, Kristine. Your intuition is telling you that you will achieve whatever you set your mind to. Whatever your goals are, whether they are success with your career, in your studies or in your personal life, you are bound to succeed. If you don't have a significant someone by your side to support your steady progress, all signs indicate that you will meet someone soon. If you already have a mate, lucky you!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
When I read this it put a smile on my face and what it said it was true caue I did wake up feeling happy and enthusiastic. I know that I can achieve what ever I can set my mind to and I hope to have success in whatever career I am supposed to do and with school I will be going on February 24th. Then comes my personal life I know I am succeeding. I am setting focus on my goals and I am seeing them accomplished. There comes love, well I am not focusing on that right now and I am just wait till he comes and finds me. I have more important things to think about then finding a guy in my life. If I meet someone with out even expecting it then it will be good. I believe that things happen for a reason and there is a time a place when things happen for you.

The East Coast to the West Coast

I can't stop thinking about how my future how much better it will be with me going to MCTI and after when I graduate, It will be hell living in a dorn and I have to study hard and focus on my studies. I can not wait until I save enough money to move out of Michigan and to California.

I love watching shows that on TV and I see LA. Its like awww I so can not wait till I will be able to finally know that for sure I will be moving out there when I get a apartment. My older sister is looking for a condo and it would be night to move in with her until I can get my feet on the ground but I want to show everyone I can do it on my own without no one helping me just like it was in the past until now.

Closer to California

It's 50 percent official. I finally got my packet from MCTI. When I go and register then that is when it will be 100 percent. I am so excited cause all I want is to go to that school and then graduate and finally get a full time job and start making money so I can start saving it. Then I can buy a car of my own and go anywhere I want to go.

I leave MCTI on February 23rd and start class the next day. I have a lot to do before then to get ready and packed. Then in between I will come home a couple times and then on May 15th is registration for the summer term ans that will go through July 10 and then I graduate on July 11th.

I an getting closer to moving out of Michigan and to California. I can not wait till that day when I can say goodbye to MI and hello to CA. Leaving the East coast to the West Coast. It will be an end of a chapter in my life and a start of a new one.

Staying Focused

I weighted myself today and I lost 3 lbs which is good but not cause the last time I weighted myself I was 265 and now I am 262. I have to be back below 259. I have to keep focused and watch what I eat and exercise. I exercised a little yesterday an I also exercised today. Shoveled the snow they plowed on the driveway and I also did some weights. I still have more to do on my stability ball but I will do them tonight.

All I want

1. In my life all I want is to establish a career which I am focusing on.
2. Weight loss in which I am struggling with but tiring to work on.
3. Love, well love can wait. I have more important things to focus on than finding love.

I have made my decision and I am sticking to it

My Horoscope for January 19, 2009

A deep and intimate conversation could take place today between you and a romantic interest, Kristine. If this is officially only a casual relationship, it may suddenly become more. If you're involved but not committed, an understanding could be reached. If you're already committed, there may even be talk of marriage. The end result of this conversation should be, needless to say, happiness for both of you. Celebrate tonight at home.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
WOW!!! All I can say this is so off. I don't have a love at this time cause I am too busy focusing on me. My first priority in my life is to establish a career and then get a car of my own and then to get the hell out of my parents house and in to a apartment of my own. Then in the near future I want move out of Michigan and to California.

Tom is on his journey into the priesthood and I am supporting him on his decision. If something happens when he decides that the priest hood isn't for him and he tells me that he has feelings for me then by then I will long gone. I have made my decision and I am sticking to it. By that I am a lot more happier.

I also a few weeks ago and 2 nights ago. I had another dream about my grandma. A few weeks ago we were downstairs in her old bacement and then 2 nights ago I was in her old house in the living room I was hugging her and she was laughing and happy. I miss her but I am happy that she is in a bette place where she won't have to suffer anymore. I will see her when my time has come and that will be a long time. I will always think of her and she will always be with me in my heart and she will be with me on my wedding day. I will have a meery frame on my bouguet and I will walk down the aisle with her rosery as my something old.

Looking back

I am so happy that Talia and I are friends again. I missed her so much. I forget how funny she is and I love that she can make me laugh. Back in 2004 we ended our friendship over something stupid and she told me she also missed me and it good to know that I have her back in my life. Also Talis's mom told her that it was about time her and I were friends again. I also missed Karina and Dave and all the gang. We had so much fun together in the past and it sucks that Talia is now in Louisiana but I can always see her when she comes to visit. We both forgave and forget about the past that was bad and we can never forget the good times we had and oh did we have them. Those memories is what I had thought about before I seen Talia.

When she was in town during Christmas I am glad that I met with her and I got to see Karina,Dave, and Trina. Now the one other person I wish I was in good terms with is Annemarie. I did see her that day I seen Talia but maybe one day I hope we can rekindle our friendship but all I have to do is wait until something comes up. It was my fault that we aren't friends anymore. I was a bitch. I am hoping that I can have enough courage to write her and apologize for what I said 4 years ago. I would like to see if we can become friends again is she wants to and if she doesn't then it will be ok then at least I know what she thinks.

Diet Plans

I was thinking that once I get a full time job and get myself working and established that I will be able to buy my own grocery's. I was thinking about trying NutriSystem, I think it's cheaper than Jenny Craig and I have heard the pros and cons to the diet system. So I will maybe try it when I get the money.

1. Take your Vitmins
2. Drink Water
3. Eat on hour before and right after you exercise

No Support

I am so pissed that the MCTI packet hasn't come in yet and it's already Saturday. I'll have to wait until later until the mail comes. Well anyways, I started looking for a job already and I have been looking forward to that packet cause by that I am close to seeing a brighter future.

The way I am now is because of my parents. I blame them for not supporting my dreams. They never believed in me and that is why I am 29 with no job and unsuccessful with both my sister had been supportive by my parents. They both graduated from U of M and now are in the same field successful. It hurts me to think that I am a loser.

All I want is to have a career going for me with a car of my own,a apartment. Being able to support myself. I want to show my parents that I can do this on my own. Once I move out I will not be calling or visiting for a while. I need to be on my own to live my own life with out the support of my parents.

Portion Control

I just got home from the gym. I worked out at LA Fitness. I did 15 minutes on the treadmill and 20 on the Elliptical. As I was almost done with my workout one of the workers/trainers come up to me and asked if I had my free personal training and I said no and he told me that when I was done to come talk to him and I did and scheduled a appointment for January 14th at 3:00. I am looking forward to that. I feel good that I wanted to go to the gym but didn't feel like it so the secret is that I have to go the gym no matter what I feel. Just get up and go.

The thing I have to focus on is eating healthy = Portion Control and along with that is working out = cardio and weight training.

I feel good that I worked out and also I went the full 20 minutes on the Elliptical, which kicked my ass. The last 5 minutes I was thinking if the Biggest Loser contents can do this...so can I and I had Jillian Michales in my mind telling me I could do it and not give up.

A Summary of My Life - What makes me happy!!!!

God - With out having my belief in him. My life would be lost and would head down the wrong direction. I need him to guide me in the right direction so that I can continue to believe in myself and become successful. I used to pray when I was younger but somehow I didn't until last year. When I began praying again my life is focused and I happier.

Family - I love and cherish my family. I don't know what I would do if I didn't have a family and also have my extended with my Aunts and uncles and cousins.

Friends - If I didn't have friends I would be alone. I love that whatever I do I have friends that I can hang out with and have fun. That makes me happy to know I have friends.

Music - Music has been in my life since I was a little girl. I could not live without it. I love listening ot all kinds of music, playing it on my guitar and even writing it.

Writing Poetry - I've been writing poetry since I was a child and since then I have gotten a lot better. I am glad I have the ability to write it and express my feelings in this way. I keep all my poetry private cause they mean so much to me. They come from my heart and soul. I hope to one day publish them for the whole world to see.

Changes instead of Resolutions

There are going to be a lot of changes between This month until the end of the year. I am from nwo on not making any resolutions but instead I am going to change a little through out this year. I plan on going to the gym today at LA Fitness. Since I am paying 29.99 a month I need to take advantage of this great gym with a lot of machines to choose from and its also nice to see the men working out. I love eye candy. My problem is that I make alot of excuses like oh I don't feel like going so I will go tomorrow. I have to stop that and it's getting me no where. I have to learn how to stick to working out 3 days a week for 30 minutes, which it's a start to get back on this diet wagon.

My diet wagon has stopped and it's hard to get back on again. But today is a new day that I will start getting healthy.

Taurus: Yearly Overview - Outlook for 2009

It's time to celebrate yourself, Taurus! You are pouring yourself into your life's mission and rejuvenating yourself with abundant thinking, which attracts great things to you. You're diligently creating a public arena where opportunities will emerge for you to be a teacher or messenger. Engagements for speaking, writing and sharing your thoughts will open up. Other people will be inspired by your enthusiasm and insight, and will support you in accomplishing your goals.

Taurus's excitement radiates more than ever this year, bringing with it a magnificent energy the world has been lacking. As you embrace the power of your heart and spirit, you are allowing yourself to transform and align with a universal energy source. You discover the space for your creativity to flow and abundantly bring the truth of your being into the world. Your focus on your connection with a higher purpose brings out the best in you and refines your self-expression.

You appreciate all the expansive shifts that are taking place in your life, and you are learning to break up routines and old patterns of rigidity. This allows you a new level of awareness and acceptance of your ultimate purpose. Pay attention to what has heart and meaning. Express your truth and you will advance. You will find avenues to bring your talents and belief systems to philanthropic endeavors. By the end of the year, you will be able to slow down a bit and find more time to enjoy the new you that you have created.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I so hope this is true. This gives me a positeve outlook on my future and more good things are about to come as time goes on. By the time I graduate from MCTI. I will have a degree in something I can get a decent pay job. Me going to this school is just a stepping stone for my life and hope it will bring me a good job with good pay and benifits. So I can be able to save enough money to buy a car and move out of Michigan and move to California.

Things are looking up

Wow, so far this year been good to me. 2 days ago I called my counselor at MRH and left a message. It seems that every time I call her she is out of the office but the next day she got my message and e-mailed MCTI and as soon as she got a responce she called me and told me that they said they would sent me the information packet yesterday and I should be getting it sometime next week. I am excited cause this means that I am half way closer to seeing a brighter future.

My plan still is after I graduate from MCTI in 6 months that I would find a full time job here and to get work experince and save up money to buy a car and then to save money so I can move out to California. I am positive the future will bring me success that I am looking for and be able to reach a lot of my goals I set for myself. I think 2009 will be my year to finally see my dreams come true.

Ashamed

Ashamed is how I feel right now. I am having a hard time getting back on the wagon. I just need to tray harder and stayed focused. Since I don't have to worry about a man. I need to make myself my #1 priority in my life. Starting with finding a job and now I can focus on getting healthy. I have to stop worrying about the future and start living in the now. This year I am taking little steps to change and I hope this is my year to finally change my self from the outside

My Plan

My upcoming plan is to attended MCTI and then in 6 months graduate and after I graduate find a full time job here and save money for a car and then to save money for my move to California. Here is a list I made......

Save money for……

1. California Diver License
2. A car - Down payment/car payments/Insurance and registration
3. Apartment - Deposit/monthly rent
4. Groceries - Food
5. Necessities - shampoo/toothpaste/face wash
6. Couch (maybe)
   
7. Kitchen - Table/Chairs/Pots, Pans/Silverware/
8. Bedroom - Bedroom Set - mattress/
9. Bathroom - Bathroom Towels
10. TV/DVD - VCR Player/Desk/Chair/Computer - Laptop/Radio/Bookcase/CD Bookcase/Cable/Internet

A year of Luck and Happiness

This year has been looking up for me. Nothing but good things have been happening to me. So far USC (one of my favorite Teams) won the Rose Bowl against Penn State and then today my least favorite team OSU lost the Fiesta Bowl against Texas. All I have to say that I hope that this year brings me a lot of good luck and success with a job and weight loss and maybe if I am supper lucky a move to California.

The last 2 years 2007 and 2008 were bad for me with my grandma getting sick on the end of 07 and then passing away in March 2008. Then my cousin Donna got a divorce and I hope this year will be a year of luck and happiness for me and my family.

Life as a Californian

Its the new year and a lot of things will be changing this year. I spent my new year with Tom at his cousins girlfriends house. It was a fun night.

Since Tom will be going into the priest hood. I am free of him and will be focused on moving to California. I no longer have feelings for him and I am happy to say that my mind is on Cali. Every time I see a show that takes place in California. I think of how it will be for me to move out there and live my life as a Californian. I will be close to my sisters and cousin. My older sisters friends Neha and Rich moved there last year along with my little sisters friend Kari.It's like what the hell. Its my turn to move out there.

Drinking away 2008

It's almost the end of 2008 and the start of a New Year 2009/ I am happy this year is almost to a end and that means it's a fresh new start of a new year and for me that means a lot of small little changes. this year I do not want to spend it alone so my plan is to spend it with Tom and get drunk and drink away 2008. If Tom bails out on me one more time. I promise that I will end my friendship with him. He let me down too many times. If he bails again I will go to the casino with my parents.

A lot has happened this year with divorce and death. Donna got a divorce and my grandma and my moms friend Barbra passed away. I am hoping that this coming new year will give me a lot of happiness and good changes in my life.

My Dreams

2 nights ago I had a dram about Lindsey Lohan don't ask me I don't know why and then Last night I had a dream another dream about my grandma. She was at her old home and she was in the backyard pulling out flowers. She love her garden. Another part of my dream after that I was looking at a book it was about beers around the world and who wrote it was Rachael Ray, she was walking around signing the books. She would never write a book about beer cause she is a cook. Maybe I had that dream cause I am in the process of writing one.

Why Wait Until New Years?

Why do so many people wait until New Years to start getting healthy. It' s a New Years Resolution that a lot of people don't stick to all year. After so many days or months they give up. In my case that was me a few New Years ago. Until I heard that why not start now rather than to wait until the start of the new year to start eating healthy. You'll just gonna gain a lot more weight and it's gonna be harder for you to lose it. That is how I see it.

There is hope

Last night I was talking to Tom and he told me that some people want him to become a Deacon instead of a priest so he can get married and have a family. He told them maybe well see. He told me in the beginning of the year that he changed him mind about getting married and wanting kids. He saw the look on his nephew face and how much joy it gave him.

He also told me that he needs to get all the time with me before I go to school. He told me is he is gonna miss me but I will be coming back a few weekends and a week during the month of April.

Was it or Wasn't it - I am not sure

I was taking to Tom today and at the end of conversation I thought he said I love you but I could be mistaken. Since I an 50/50% sure he likes me. Also 50/50% sure that he will be serious about the priesthood but I will have to see about that.

There are a lot of signs that are already there and I am not gonna forget about those. He said that he was not going to take classes next semester but he was gonna wait until that following semester and then live at the seminary. I will have to wait and see what he decided cause we were talking about his grandfathers house since his sister is going to be getting it temporary until she can find something else for her and her son since she recently got divorced anyways he said if the priesthood doesn't work out then he is getting that house. That gives me 50% hope but I will support him either way cause I love him as a friend and I am also falling in love with him.

I am waiting for that day when he finally tells me he likes me but right now all I can do it think about him and wait cause good things come to those who wait.

My dream

I had a dream last night that I had a baby with a old friend of mine that I haven't seen in many years. It was a baby girl but I don't know what I named it. Here is what it says about having a dream about a baby........To see a baby in your dream, signifies innocence, warmth and new beginnings. Babies symbolize something in your own inner nature that is pure, vulnerable, helpless and/or uncorrupted.

Praying for a better future

Horoscope for December 2, 2008
Try, try again today, Kristine. It can feel so terrible to 'fail' at something that you just want to hide your head in the sand rather than face potential loss again. Yet, if succeeding is important enough for you, you need to overcome embarrassment and fear. Most people have to try more than once to succeed - especially in the most important of goals. Don't give up on yourself. Your goals are worthy of as much effort as it takes.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I am in the process of getting back to exercising again and I will be training for a 5K race. I don't know when and where that is gonna be. I don't want to rush it and I am taking my time to get back in to a routine that I can stick to that will help me succeed. After I do that 5K I will start training for a half marathon.

I want running to be a part of my life and do it on a regular basics. A new life for me. To become healthy and fit. I am hoping a praying that 2009 will bring me that and a better year.

Why I want to Join the Team in Training Team?

I want to be able to raise money and help find a cure for leukemia, lymphoma, Hodgkin's disease and Myeloma, and improve the quality of life of patients and their families. Also I had a family member who had Hodgkin's disease and she is a survivor of 10 years and counting.

Not only will it help me find a cure but it is good for my health and I’ll be able to meet new people and experience a whole new world.

I plan to start jogging first then start training for a 5K run somewhere close to me and then I plan a taking on and training for a half marathon. Then I want to run my first marathon. I never thought I would want to do this but it’s a big change for me and I have to work up to it.

My Problems : I Need Change

Eating Healthy: First off I blame my bad eating habits to my parents. I never learned when I was little to eat healthy and when I want to it's hard for me to start. I aways fail and since I don't have a job and cant afford to go grocery shopping for myself I don't eat healthy and when my dad buys the bad junk food I eat it when I get the craving. Also I have a huge sweet tooth but I have learned how to take care of that by buying Extra Sugar Free Spearmint/Peppermint Gum and that usually satisfies my sweet tooth. I found out about the tip on my favorite show The Biggest Loser. Also I just stick to water and avoid all pop cause I found out how much sugar one can of regular pop had and if I drink diet pop that will mess up my diet and make me wanna crave carbs.

Exercising: Second, I need to develop a routine that will get up off my butt and be more active. To exercise more and stop making excuses and put it off until tomorrow and I never do it.

McCain and Obama : Hope for our future

I saw this article on yahoo and I thought it was interising and it gave me a sense of hope and relief for my and every Americans future. Here is the Article if you want to read it.

Obama and McCain say they'll work together.

I am hoping that The Republications and the Democrats can work together to fix the problems in our country. It will bring me such relief to know that America can be where it was before the economy was good and people weren't losing their jobs.

A good thing that is happening now is that the gas prices are below $2.00 and I haven't seen it this low since this is a long time. People are losing their home cause they can't afford them weather they lost their job or aren't getting paid enough to afford all the things they need in her life. More jobs need to be made and the jobs that are lost need to come back. We as Americans need to work together to help our county in being the way it was in the past.

I know a lot of people who are leaving the state of Michigan to move else such as California and if I can get a job there I will be leaving as soon as I can. A one way ticket from Detroit to Los Angeles or as I would say Michigan to California.

The Past

Well I was telling myself that how I missed hanging out with Talia and now I am talking to her again and will be seeing her the week of Christmas. I am actually looking forward to it. I has some pretty fun times with her. She moved to Louisiana where her boyfriend is and she told me she is happier with him. I am happy to hear it.

I am trying to get back on track on my diet wagon but this time I am making some changes and those changes have to stick. I will be developing new healthy habits that will help me in my life and weight loss.

About me

I am single and looking for that someone and I am also looking for new friends. I am shy at first but when you get to know me I’m not, I am also friendly and in my spare time I love to dance, hang out with friends, go to bars once in a while for a few drinks to talk, going to the movies, listening to music, writing poetry, driving around, traveling, and I love giving massages. When I'm with a group of people I'm usually the quiet one. I also enjoy cuddling, holding hands, kissing, quiet evenings on the couch watching TV or a movie. I also love to travel. In a relationship I am looking for someone who is honest, mature, fun loving, supportive, great sense of humor, a hopeless romantic, a good listener. Someone who knows how to treat me like a woman and sweep me off my feet, someone that knows how to make a woman feel special, and how to treat her like a lady. As a girlfriend I am supportive and kind. I will treat you with respect and I will do anything to make you happy. I’m just a shy fun loving person that is easy to get along with. I am the type of person who will do anything for their friends and love ones. I like the type of girl who will treat you the way I want to be treated, I love to be romanced and even though I don’t like surprises, I don’t mind them if they are good and meant for a reason. I enjoy going out, spending time with family and having fun with my friends. In my spare time I love to dance, hang out with friends, go to bars once in a while for a few drinks to talk, going to the movies, listening to all kinds of music, write poetry and I love giving massages, and renting a movie and staying in. When I'm with a group of people I'm usually the quiet one.

At times it’s hard for me to start a conversation cause I have little experience with meeting guys and talking to them. I enjoy spending time by myself from time to time, watching TV, and relaxing. At first I'm really shy but once when you get to know me I’m not. I'm nice, caring and a loving person. I am looking to find someone that I can talk to and be my best friend. What makes me happy : Right now it’s spending time with my Family and having fun with my friends is making me happy. What I hate : Fake people, liars. I believe that being honest is good but if you keep on telling lies it will catch up to you. I am so proud of my country. I don’t like war but the people who fought before us had to fight for our freedom. That is why we are fighting Why you should get to know me: I’m a friendly person and I usually get along with everyone I meet and I love to give massages. I am a pretty open person when it comes for doing things such as picking what to do for the day. I also like to cook but cause I know the way to a man heart is through his stomach. What have past relationships taught you (be positive)? To be more open to others. Describe some of the most important things in your life: My Faith, Family, friends, and music. Anything else you'd like to add? Give me a chance guys and you won't be disappointed cause if you know how to treat a woman, I know how to treat a man but no players.

I am a simple person when it comes to life. Doesn’t take much to make me happy. For fun I have varied interests such as movies, eating out but staying home with a movie and a meal is good too. Social drinker and prefer a quieter type of bar with karaoke although I don’t sing, but like to watch other people. As opposed to rap music blaring all night. Not opposed it but I don’t like it loud and all night long. Like all kinds of music except opera.

I love going out and having a good time, I’m into all types of music just depends on the mood. I’m very into my family, I’m not a big partier, but I don’t want to stay at home all the time either. I like going to concerts, movies, the beach, or anything else that might sound fun. I love animals, long blond hair, blue eyes, great smile. I’m very out going, humorous and silly, fun loving, and affectionate and I love to laugh and have a good time. I’m looking for someone to get to know and to make friends with and possibly forum into a relationship. i want someone sweet, romantic, funny but serious when needed, someone i can tell everything to and they can do the same. likes animals, is family oriented, likes to go out and have a good time but doesn’t mind staying at home cuddling and watching a good movie or 2. I’m not someone who’s egar to jump into a sexual relationship, I like to get to know the person first you know....if that’s you then id really like to get to know you!!

I don’t smoke but do drink. I am looking for friends and see where it goes from there Looking for some one to show me what it is all about or if its your first time we will learn together.