Michigan Stadium: The Big House

Every time year I go to a game I get excited. When I step inside Michigan Stadium other wise known as The Big House. There is a reason for that. It is the largest stadium in any other college. The Big House is a proud University of Michigan tradition. the first time I was here was back in the 90's it is the only college stadium I have ever been to.

Whenever I attend a game I get this feeling that can not be explained. To look at all the fans and hear Marching Band play. It's something to see if you are a University of Michigan fan. Just go to one game and you will see what I am talking about. I have gone to a game every year since my sister got season tickets. I look forward to this every year. I also can't wait till football season to begin.That is usually in the beginning to September.

When any oppoinet team fan steps inside The Big House. They will know why a Michigan fan says: It's great to be a Michigan Wolvervie. There is no prouder tradition then at the University of Michigan.Not to mention the University of Michigan Fight song is the best college fight song ever written.

Ok, I have to admit I am also a Michigan State Fan. I have been that since the 6th grade but I have been a Michigan Fan all my life and it's a great feeling to be one. Both of my sisters are Alum's from there. My older sister graduated in 1998 and last year 2007 my younger sister graduated from there.

So if you want to know why it's great to be a Michigan Wolverine. Just attend a home game and step inside The BIG HOUSE and you will know what I am talking about.

The most important things in my life

The most important things in my life..............

1. Faith
2. Family/Heritage
3. Friends
   
4. Music

• My faith in God will always be #1. He died for my sins and he forgives me when I have sined. Believing in him I know I have some I can turn to when I am in need of help.

• My family means a lot to me. With out them my life would suck. My grandma meant a lot to me she passes away last month and now she is gone but she is in a better place with other loved ones. Along with my family I can't forget my heritage. I am polish and proud of it.

• My friends also mean a lot to me. With out them I would be alone.

• Last but not least MUSIC. Music will always be a big part in my life. It has been since I was a little girl and as far as I can remember. I listen to it when I am happy,sad,alone, been through a lot of hard times. Music will always be in my life and it can never judge me or leave me. It is always there when I need it. I can say it's like my best friend but if I did I'd be pathetic. Which I am not. There are a lot of different kinds of music out there. Whenver I feel in the mood I listen to what ever I want. That can range from Pop,Rock,R&B,some country,Alternative,Rap. What ever it is I will listen to it.

Music

A long time ago back in my teens. I had written some songs then I look back on them a few years lonter when I was reading them I was like wow this doesn't make sense at all so I turned them into poems. Then I really don't remember how I wanted to play the guitar. I think it was when my friend Elliot was talking about his brother selling his electric guitar and I had thought about it and I had bought it then sat in my room until years later I bought a DVD called Guitar for dummies.I needed a amp to play it. Till that day I still haven't gotten one but this year I will. I have bought a coard for it and a new beginners book for me to practice on.

I am in the process of learning my guitar and knowing now to read music notes. I really don't care if my songs don't make it to the top 10 list. Music has been very important to me. I first started listening to music then writing it and now I want play it. I did join the band in 5th and 6th grade. I played the clarinet and was horrible at it. I gave that up. So I focused on choir. I love to sing, even though I am not good at it. I am not tone death.....I know how carry a tune.

Anyways, so music had been with me my whole life. I consider it therapy. I know that by me writing my own music will enable me to go further in my music knowledge. I forgot to mention that in the past when I moved for the first time my parents got us a keyboard. I tried to learn that but I gave up cause I didn't have the patience to learn something so hard even though I loved how it sounded. Maybe one day I will learn a little bit of it. Until them I am focusing on learning the guitar. It's a easier instrument to learn but a pain to play it but I know that from practice I will learn how to play it.

More to come....I am not finished

Written On:Thursday, April 17, 2008

Well, a few years ago. I had bought a guitar from my friend Tim and since I had bought it from him I put it aside and I also have been on a couple occasions took it out to get a feel for it and try to practice with it. I need to buy a amp for it cause it's a electric. It's a pretty sweet guitar. I was thinking about selling it but I have thought about it and it's gonna be my new hobby.

The reason I bought this was I wanted to learn how to play the guitar so I can turn my poetry into songs. I wanted to learn the keyboard but I tired and the guitar is a better instrument and easier to play. You may think that I don't seem like the person to play a instrument like the guitar cause it's more of a rock star image and I am far from that.

Once I learn the guitar I might buy a acoustic one. I think it's a better guitar to write songs on.

Tally Hall FUN FACT

FUN FACT:
When I see a tie. It will remind me of Tally Hall.

TIE FUN FACT:
When I see a yellow tie. It will remind me of Rob.
When I see a red tie. It will remind me of Joe.
When I see a blue tie. It will remind me of Zubin.
When I see a green tie. It will remind me of Andrew.
When I see a grey tie. It will remind me of Ross.

Tally Hall Birthdays

I found this on the Tally Hall message board. This is their birthday's from oldest to youngest.

Joe- September 23 1982
Rob- august 26th, 1983
Andrew-October 12 1983
Zubin- September 16, 1984
Ross - January 30 1985

Man do I feel old, I have never liked a band that was younger than me and also that wasn't famous. I am writing a letter to Ellen Degeneres and see I can get them on her show and have a little more publicity for Tally Hall rather on the Late Late Show with Craig Ferguson.

Tally Hall Fanatic

Well I am considering myself a Tally Hall Fanatic. I can't stop listening to their CD and I am on their message Boards everyday more than once. I hope they make it famous one day. I am planning on attending one of their concerts one day either in Ann Arbor or somewhere closer if they play. I am also going to be practicing my guitar. I need to buy a amp cause I have a electrical one.

I hope to write songs and have my one music one day. Just for fun.

Rob Cantor: Yellow - - Guitar and vocals

Joe Hawley: Red - Guitar and vocals

Zubin Sedghi: Blue - Bass and vocals

Andrew Horowitz: Green - Keyboards and vocals

Ross Federman: Grey - Drums (2004-present)

Tally Hall

WOW!! All I can say is WOW. This a a band from Ann Arbor,Michigan. The first time I had heard about them was a few years ago from my younger sister. She went to the University of Michigan and Tally Hall is from there. Anyways, she had showed me the video for Banana Man and I instantly loved the video. It's was something I had never seen before. Now I am a big Tally Hall Fan. I just ordered their CD from Amazon. The day before they re released it on April 4th. My younger sisters 23ed birthday. She was the one that told me about them. All of the band members are from MI except Andrew and not to mention they all went to U of M. I can't stop listening to their Cd on my I-Pod.

I am on their message boards on a daily basics more then once. I have never been into a band like this and it's good to support someone like them. The band members are Rob,Joe,Zubin, Ross, and Andrew. Rob and Joe play the gutair, Zubin plays the Bass, Ross plays the drums, and Andrew plays the keyboard. And Rob,Joe, adn Zubin all sing and sometime Andrew does.

Wedding Fanatic

Even though I am not a Bride-2-Be yet. I am a wedding fanatic and I love everything about weddings. I have been to many weddings so I know a good one from a bad one. I have been doing a lot of research from past to present brides on their vendor reviews. From the Knot.com and so on. I am hopping to help many brides in their wedding planning through my website. I don't have any bride reviews but I do have my own reviews of what I think about a vendor through their website and look at their work.

I live around the Metro Detroit Area. I have found out that their a lot of talented people in my area. I am hoping when I do start wedding planning. I will use a lot of them.

I have been to many family, friends of the family, and my own friends weddings. So I know a good wedding from a bad one. Also I have been to many Banquet Halls and I have many reviews on that.

findagrave.com

I was looking for some information about the singer Selena. I has googled her and found a site called find a grave. I had looked at it and it was cool that I had found that cause it a memoral for those who have passed away. I had also looked for a friend of mine that died in 1996 and I was suprised to see her on there too.

So after my grandma had passed away a couple weeks ago. I though I should do this too. In memory of her. I also put my moms dad and brothers on there too.

If you want to check out the memorial click on this link: findagrave.com and it will take you to the search area where you can look on my grandmas memorial page. On that page put in Mary Chryczyk and it will take you to the page.

Busia's Gone

My Busia (Grandma) passed away this evening at 6:19 pm. I could not stop crying, My eyes are sore and I don't think its really gonna sink in until Saturday and the furnal on Monday. I am happy to know that she is in a better place and is happy to see her husband and my uncles and all the other people who have passed.

My grandmas was very strong to live this long. She had a happy and long life and she is a fighter and the Priest gave her last prayer and she closed her eyes. The Priest told her that it was ok to let go and give up cause it was time and she will have her loved ones waiting up in heaven for her. I seen her die and that It will be something I will never forget. The aide sat her up and the told us it wouldn't be too long until she is gone. My grandma gurgled and took a deep breath, closed her mouth and she was gone. The aide had to get the nurse to check if it was true and it was.It was a peaceful death.

My grandma meant to world to me. I will miss her very much and I expect to cry this whole weekend and so on. If I have a daughter I will name her Mary (after my grandma) and her middle name will be Catherine after my grandma's last name initial cause she didn't have a middle name.

Can't stop thinking about him

Tom called me today. I miss him but I know that he is coming home night and he will be here for the weekend. I'd feel better knowing that I was for sure gonna see him. Most of the time he is all I think about. I don't know how friendship turned into something more. I never saw myself dating a friend but I believe that things happen for a reason and if we are meant to be together then it will happen when the time is right. If we are flirting this much then something is about to happen soon. As they say good things come to those who wait. I believe this with all my heart and soul. IF we do get together and become a couple and in the future he pops the question and asks me to marry him then I will know it was meant to be. I don't want to lose a friendship. I guess after my ex and I broke up and we still remained friends.

I don't know when it all began when I developed these feelings for him. But somehow I did. Well anyways enough of him. I filled out some applications. Some online and I one in person. I went to Bed Bath and Beyond. I can't wait till I get married so I can start picking out stuff for my registry. That store has a lot of cool stuff for your house.

Update: I just got off the phone with him and I am happy. I will be doing something with him this weekend on Saturday. Yay. I am so excited. More flirting to come.

He called

Tom called me today from Florida. He called my cell I didn't answer then he called my house. It was good to hear his voice. I wonder if he is gonna go through the priest hood since he is taking classes but I think he is starting to change his mind. I can picture myself marring him. I get along with him and he can make me laugh and I can not believe that I could like a friend like this.

My Heart and Soul

My life is changing. I am heading towards a whole new part of my life. I am not that passionate about being a Massage Therapist but now I am looking towards Photography. I am also interested in trying new things like being a Vegetarian and changing my style. I have a whole new outlook on life and I am positive I will become successful one day in whatever I am meant to do in life.

Now the only thing I have to do is get a steady full time job and start learning about photography.

He left fot a week

Tom is going to Florida today and I am so sad. I didn't talk to him yesterday but he is only going for a week. I am jealous that he is going to warmer weather when it's going to be shitty here. I will miss him but I know that I would of been missing him more if we were dating.

My sister told me that the wine trip is in September and I am getting excited to finally go back there. I am hoping that I can get a job soon so I can save enough money for that trip. I haven't been back to Cali since 2005. I get to see Lola ( my older sister's friend's dog). It's a cute puggle.

I am going to head out to Target and fill out a application. I really need to get a job. I really don't want to work in retail but if that will get me a job then I will do it.

True Feelings

I can not stop thinking about Tom. I can't sleep cause he's on my mind. Also he's been calling me every night. We talked for a bit last night. I know these feeling are real and not cause I want love. I haven't felt this way in a long time and I am starting to fall in love. I do love him as a friend but to love him as something more has to take time and to start dating him. I am wondering when and how he will tell me that he has feeling for me. I never thought that I would ever fall for him and also a friend.

I can see myself marring him. I love his family. I get along with them I have known them for about 8 years. As long as I have known Tom. He is the type of guy I am looking for. He is Catholic and he comes from a good family, he has a good heart, and now what really gets me is that he now wants to get married and have kids. But there is a negative side to this. I met Tom through my ex and at first it was hard for me to handle the ex situation but I got over it and I moved on. I tend to leave my past behind but this time it's different. I keep on thinking if we do ever get together and become a couple and he does pop the question and I say yes then I will have to deal with my ex and see him again.

Good things come for those who wait.

I may be overacting from when he asked me to give him advice on other girls. From all the good things that have been happening from the flirting we have been doing. But I will have to wait and see. What ever will happen will happen and all things will happen for a reason and who ever takes the first step there will be a time for it. All I can think about is him. Why I don't know. In the beginning I had denied my feelings for him but then when I got real that feeling that I had was gone. I know that I liked him and as days went by and I didn't see him as much. The saying is true distance does make the heart grow fonder. Even though I am not in a relationship with him. I am falling for him more every day. I get butterflies in my stomach every time I do think about him. I am starting to listen to love songs more. I wonder if he is my one true love that I will fall in love with and marry. I do think about that. How our wedding will be like and my new family that I will have. I wonder if that will ever come true. He may not be that good looking for a guy but he has a heart of gold with good family morals and the good thing is that he wants kinds now after spending time with a boy that he watched from this church he attended for a short time and of course his nephew.

When we were at McDonald's waiting for his friends. He was saying if we ever had a baby it would be 100% polish for me and half polish and half Italian for him. It makes me wonder what he is thinking. I just wish that he would grow some bigger balls and tell me he likes me and that is if he does. He also said that one day that he doesn't want a relationship cause he has a lot going on with his life.

My e-mail

I had e-mailed a friend about my current situation involving My friend Tom. Here is my e-mail it's a lot more detailed from what my last post was about.

My email: I don't know if you can help me or not but I know you are good with advice and a married woman. So I know what ever advice you give me will help. I have been really confused about my friend Tom. I hung out with him a couple days ago and since I am falling for him.. When I hang out with him he says he misses me and then he talks to people about me ( a good thing). He also finds ways to touch me. After he dropped me off he rolled down the window and asked me where his sugar was, so I blow him a kiss and he sad ohh and I walked away to go inside and not even a minute later he called me twice. I called him back to see if anything was wrong and he told me he misses me. He has invited me to go with him to Florida this summer and then his grandfather passed away last year and he might move into his grandfathers house and asked me if I wanted to move in with him. We had been talking about this before a few years ago. That was before I realized that I liked him.

Then there is the other side. He said that he likes this girl and wants my advice on how to ask her out. This makes me think why in the hell is he flirting with me and then he tells me this. I don't know if this is a way of him telling me that he likes me and wants to find a way to ask me out. I am so confused. I have never liked a friend before and if we do like each other and start dating I don't want to mess up our friendship.

Her reply: You can ask him what is up with all the flirting straight out. I mean do not beat around the bush. Ask him straight out why he asked for his sugar and asked if you wanted to move in with him. Also ask him what is with all the moves he has been putting on. It is always best to put it out there. There might not be another girl. He might be scared to tell you that he likes yu and maybe not sure how you feel about him. I know it is hard for you to come out in front and ask him what he is thinking and try to figure it out on your own without asking will just end up driving you crazy. You will just have to ask him up front. If you feel more comfortable you can always ask him over the phone.

Like I said the only way you will find out what is really on his mind you have to ask him. It is the only way you will know. If he does like you then it will not ruin the friendship. Even if he does not like you then your friendship will be ok. I know it is hard. But in the end just knowing the truth will make things so much better.

It is the best advice I can give you right now. You have to do the rest on your own. If you find out that he does like you I wish you both the best.

Cleaning up my life

My life is really stressful from trying to to get a job to figuring out what I really want to do with my life. I am 28 almost 29 and I am going no where with my life. I am starting from outside then working on the inside. This is gonna take a lot of time but it's time for another change in my life. I am the only one that can make something of myself. I have 2 songs that get me through the rough times. Soar and Keep singing my song from my favorite singer Christina Aguilera. Ever since that CD came out back in 2003 I have been though some tough times but those songs always help me when I need it.

I am cleaning up my room organizing all the stuff that I don't need and putting them downstairs and I am throwing out my junkie desk that I got a long time ago from when I worked at K-Mart. I am going back to school so I can get my degree cause once I start something I have to finish it. I am going to be studying photography and web design. So I can make my own professional website and take my own professional pictures and have them on there. I also want to travel the world and see new things, and meet new people, and make new friends.

Love Compatibility of Taurus with Taurus

When two Bulls get together, they do it in a well-thought out, practical manner. It may not sound like the most romantic thing in the world, Taurus, but you don't believe in fairy tales - you see the world around you for what it really is. You're both into the great outdoors, and will enjoy hiking and gardening together. You love food as much as you love nature, so a perfect date would be a picnic in a meadow or a park. If you and your Taurus partner have similar ideas about love, family and money, this relationship could easily be a forever thing.

I found this on MySpace through the horoscopes and it's the love compatibility of Taurus with another Taurus. I found this interesting from the night I had last night. I will write about that later but the only odd thing about this is that he loves the outdoors and I don't like camping.

About last night - Well I went out with my friend Tom ( who I am liking more and falling for him) and we had a wonderful night. He picked me up then we went to Partage Creek and walked around talked and went to Starbucks. He got a Venti Hot Choclate and I got a Grande Chi Tea Latte. We sat by the fireplace and talked about some personal things that are going through out lives. Then we headed out to Metro Airport cause he had to pick up Sal ( the guy who took care of Tom's grandfather before he died). But the things that he says to me I can't believe what I hear but from my previous post I found online that it means he likes me.

Here a few of the things that he says to me: He says me loves me,he misses me, last night the called me right after he dropped me off and not to mention that he it one phone call after another. I thought something had happened but then I asked him if any thing has happed and he said he missed me. When I got ou tof the car he said me if he can have some sugar and I blow a kiss at him and then I walked away and smacked my ass and he said ohh baby. He also takes about me to other people. I am falling for him more and more every day. I know these these are true feelings not that I want someone cause I am lonely. He told me that he doesn't want to date anyone cause he is going through a lot lately and that goes for me. I have too much on my mind.

Update: I just got off the phone with Tom and he was telling me that he likes this girl named Sheryl and wants to get my advice on how to ask her out. He is playing with my emotions. What an idiot. I can't gotrhrough with this anymore. It's either he likes me or not. I hate that is flirts with me and then he tells me this shit.

What are signs a guy likes you that you might be missing?

Signs a guy likes you

• I think the most obvious signs a guy likes you is when he says the dumbest things just to keep talking. I say this because a guy I really like does that to me but he doesn't want to admit that he likes me. Because he thinks I will laugh. Also if a guy tries to hold your hand or starts talking dirty as a joke its totally obvious.

• one of the most obvious signs that a guy likes you is that he will just always stare at you even if they don't know you, they will just stare at you from a distance hoping that you will notice them

• Most likely a guy will just stare at you a lot of the time and when you look his way he just stops looking at you until you look away. He will always ask only you for stuff they really don't need. Just so that they can get yur attention or he just wants to small talk or even make you laugh!

• I agree!! when a guy likes you, you notice them always staring at you, looking until they notice your looking to so they know that you are intrested at least, I also think when a guy calls you at random times or calls you a few times a day just to say hi, means that he is intrested. it also makes you feel good, I think its the sweetest thing.

• when a guy likes to play around a lot and glance his eye at you a lot even when your looking. he makes up nicknames and picks on you for fun because he nos it will be a funny joke and not serious to make you mad. when your angry he will feel sad for you and tell you he's sorry if he bothered u. they also will take up for u.

• HE WILL RESPECT YOU A WANT TO KEEP IT REAL ABOUT IT ALL. HE'LL ALSO TELL YOU THE TRUTH ABOUT YOURSELF.BUT NEVER SAY IT DIRESPECTFULLY.

• yeah agreeing with the last message.. stop stereotyping guys. lol. not everyone is going to make dirty jokes or try to hold your hand. the biggest thing you should look for is respect, and that he is nice to you. cause really, other than that, what else can you want from a guy at the beginning...?

• I think if a guy likes you he'll be touchy-feely or he'll like keep "accidentally" bumping into you just to touch you.

• I also think a guy will play stupid when he's around you looking like a fool but he just really wants to impress you.

• Guys will also act hard when there around a girl they like or over protective of you.

• you'll know that a guy likes if he starts following you wherever you go and always making eye contact

• he'll find any way possible to glance at you three times a day or stare at you a lot. if you catch him in the act he might prolong the gaze(if he's not shy) and other times he'll turn away until you stop looking at him and if you look at the corner of your eyes you will find him taking another glance at you again.

• He looks at you a lot and then turns away quickly or lookin down is a good sign, he may "accidentally" bump into you. His pupils dialate when he talks to you. When you talk to him he seems to be hanging on to every word...

• you will know that a guy likes you when he loves to play with your hair and really annoys you that much... repeat those words you asked them even their not at all funny!!!

• he'll use the any excuse to touch you.. like if you're wearing a necklace he'll move closer and grab it to "look at the necklace" or he'll play with a tie on your shirt or a ring.. anything to get close to you

• he play fights with you

• when he's talking to you he'll touch your arm or put his hand on your shoulder

• he always makes eye contact with you.. even when you're not talking he'll just look at you and smile.. and he can't stop smiling

• he says stupid things to keep the conversation going

• he'll tease you playfully

• if you're going to the movies he'll choose a scary movie over a comedy or anything else.. scary movies are an excuse to cuddle :p

• One sure fire that you can tell if a guy likes you or not is. If you are in a bad mood he will try anyhing to make you smile. Also he will try and get close to you even when you are crowds away. Or at least he will try and catch your eye.

• I've found out that if a guy likes you, he'll act nervous around you sometimes or always try to be around you.

• he might act slightly jealous when you're talking to or about another guy...and then he'll want to know ALL about him so he can try and work out if he's got competition. and i agree with the whole teasing and play fighting thing, and if he accidentally hurts your or annoys you he'll be really sorry and use it as and excuse to get a hug, lol. overall, he'll be nice to you and make you feel good :)

• I think one of the ways that guys do show us they like us is... to be mean to us.. you know like they did in grade school. I have a guy right now that is sooooo arguemenative with me, just for no reason. Just to argue... He comes over to me at work and picks at me, for no reason. He is always looking at me. I will look at him, he will look at me, then smile. He is just one of those guys that is just like a little kid. PICK and be MEAN. Several people have said if they didn't know better they would swear we were married!!! We fight like an old married couple. He says I frusterate him, and vise versa. Its crazy! But I know he likes me. He just can't admit it. Some guys are that way, you know if he likes you if he throws rocks at you... LOL or pulls your hair, LOL anyway. Thats just one way to tell...

• if he says 'hi' to you, multiple times, and its just to get your atention. he enjoys you looking at him.

• Guys will find any excuse to touch you. Like if they point at something in the distance they will grab your arm. They also pretend to fight with you by pushing you or teasing you. If the guy makes you upset, he will comfort you and try to get a hug out of it (again, physical contact). If a guy likes you he will always look you in your eyes and find any reason to talk to you even if the subject is silly.

• i think he likes you if he comes up and talks to you even though he doesn't sit with you alsomt evryday. and when your in a group his attention is almost always on you(example: he says hi 2 you first then 2 evryone else or he doesn't even say ot to them! or he realizes that he's been focusing all his attention on you and then quickly says something to someelse to try and cover it up.)

• Another sign is being mean (yep) this could be comments about your height,age,hair etc. example you could be short so he might make mean comments about it. or playful mean like a water fight or something .

• touching; if he touches you he might try and make up some lame excuse to do so . or he might not he might stand extra close to you and lean on you and kind of bump shoulders with you, of course you don't mind lol when its just the 2 of you you can have a good conversation if you just feel relaxed around him its a good sign and finally looking at you then smiling/turning away quick is a good sign.

• Signs that a guy likes you is that yes, they make a lot of eye contact and usually will not turn their head when you look at them to create that crazy feeling smile between you too. I think a guy trys several different ways to say they like you if they don't know which way to apporach you from. My guy friend and I are always at a loss for words, we know each other well and we have been there and done that several years ago. Take it slow don't rush.. these are the best part of falling in love!! "The Signs" But don't go to slow they may run away casue your not bitting back.

• If a guy really likes you he will gaze at you until you look his way, and then he'll either quickly turn away or smile at you(it depends on whether he's shy or not). Also, he'll always be looking for excuses to get closer to you or be where you are. It'll be pretty obvious. Trust me, you'll know if he likes you.

• NOT EVERY GUY IS THE SAME. EVERYONE HAS DIFF WAYS OF SHOWING HIS FEELINGS. one might fetch things for you, carry things for u, sit with you at lunch, laugh at your jokes. My ADVICE: if you are a girl, you KNOW if a guy lieks you or not. DONT MAKE A PRO-CON LIST out of it.

• I know, this is stereotypical, but DONT EVER ASK A GUY OUT!!!... let him know you like him, but DONT ASK HIM OUT. that gives him waaayyy too much of an EGO BOOST. let him know what you feel,a nd let HIM take it from there.. I know this helps.. AND PLS.. don't change for a guy. worst thing you can DO. same with guys: don't change for sm dumb girl.

• When there is a crowd of his friends or people around you he will wait until everyone leaves or he will hesitate to leave until he gets you on your own so he can talk to you. Also eye contact is a big clue. He'll be really nice to you or compliment you.

• I think you know when a guy likes you when he stares at you from across the lunch room and when you look at him he quickly turns his head . Also when your sitting right beside him in homeroom and he purposely moves his arm so it is right up next to yours and dose'nt move it away .you defenetly know when you drop stuff in the hallway and he always picks it up for you .

• You can never know for sure. Take a chance, ask if they do or ask them out, and if they say "No", what's the worst that coudld happen!?!? (thanks to my friend Ker for that one). If your like me, you'll come up with some story about how you'll be living in a shack with thousands of cats by the age of 21. But in reality, everyone has let downs from time to time. Just think, if he says "Yes", aren't the pros that come along with the little word worth the risk?

• I don't really have anything to add that hasn't already been covered..but if a guy is shy, he will try to be near you, but wait for you to say something before he has the courage to talk. He might seem visibly nervous. With some guys, you can tell. With the other less obvious ones, the biggest sign is usually that they'll do something for you even if you're just joking around about it. But hey- that's just from my own experience.

• I think the most abious thing is that he will look at you alot and he'll try to be around you as much as possible. Just give it time love sweet girl!!=).

• when guys are around you and you dont really know they like you,they will ask for hugs or high fives.they will some times make nasty jokes that invole you in it..:o (if you know what i meen)but they are always trying to be funny around you.they always look for you after school or befor of even during.

• Boys are so honest well if ur me but the guy I like is so so so honest.and I really really like him but his way of showing he likes is that if you write a note and ask him do u like me he will write maybe maybe so i ask him again he says yea so i feel cool so really why dont u JUST ASK HIM and he will apreciate ur honesty and if he likes u he likes u but there is a guy just for u!!!

• a guy likes you if he notices alot of things about you like your outfits,hair,jewlrey etc.

• He'll ask for your number.....

• He will stand really close and tall when he is talking to you.......

• If a guy likes you, he will show interests in your interests. He will not compliment you to your face as much as he does to your friends. He will always want you to make the first move - believe me i know this from past experience. I, too would never ask a guy out but i do think that all you lasses have to be abit bold and daring and put yourself out there. Show your true worth...by showing a bit of self confidence ..in turn, he will become confident enough to ask you out.

• The king of all signs is that a guy will worry about you so much when your ill. He will always ask about you and make sure you get well soon.

• I think if you tell a guy you like him and he says he just likes you as a friend then that could mean two things. 1.He could just be shy or surprised and not want to admit it, because he's embarrased or another reason like that. One way to tell is that he stills sometimes hangs around you. He may joke around and say -/+ things about himself. That means he just wants to impress you or get your attention. 2.He could really NOT like you. If you really think this so, you'll most likely know. He won't pay much attention to you. He may say hi a few times, but he may also be friendly but not over friendly.

• All guys are different and you never know what they are thinking. Guys are strange and absurb, but follow your heart and you may find Mr.Right.

• If he likes you, then he gives you special attention, being totally oblivious to everyone else in the room. U feel like the only person in the world that matters. when u talk, he just gazes into ur eyes..takes special interest in you & your little matters, also gives u utmost respect, looks at you after everything he says to see how u react, and when u look at him, he looks away smiling.he'll try to show off his physical strength, by lifting something or someone heavy, and then looks at you to see if he's impressed you. also, he'll try to defend you when someone makes fun of you.

• Listen to ur instinct.. You'll just know if he likes you.

• A guy does NOT like you if he is mean to you. I dont mean like, making jokes about your height or something like that, Im talking MEAN.....he definetly does not like you. Because in my opinion it is rude, disrespectful and definetly immature!!

• ok this coming from a guy, look for these signs. trying to make jokes. protecting you alot. trying to make you happy while your sad. holding on to you not in a sexually way but like raping his arms around you. smiling at you alot. and the last but biggest one is if he really likes you hell give you a lot of respect. but all guys aren't the same keep that in mind.

Bettering Yourself

Creating goals that will lead you to realize your vision is an important step in professional development. Here are some tips on creating goals for yourself and your team:

• Determine your vision and document it.
• Outline steps that will help you realize your vision.
• Make each of those steps goals that are measurable and attainable.
• Evaluate your vision as you reach each goal.

"The journey of a thousand miles begins with a vision."

Semi-vegetarian diets

Semi-vegetarian diets are diets that primarily consist of vegetarian foods, but make exceptions for some non-vegetarian foods. These diets may be followed by those who choose to reduce the amount of animal flesh consumed, or sometimes as a way of transitioning to a vegetarian diet. These terms are neologisms based on the word "vegetarian". They may be regarded with contention by strict vegetarians, as they conflate terms for vegetarian and non-vegetarian diets.

• Semi-vegetarianism — A diet in which the only animal flesh consumed is seafood and/or poultry, in limited amounts.

Photography

I love memories and I also love to capture memories. The digital camera I have now is the Canon 360. It's a ok camera for my first one but I am looking for a more professional camera. I am liking the Canon EOS 40D SLR Digital Camera with Canon 28-135mm Lens. It's a kit. Even though I have not mastered the one I have now.

Once I get this camera I want to start taking pictureas to get a feel for it. I am going to be taking photography classes to know everything I need to know about photography. I want to do this as a hobby and if I do get rally good I may want to turn it into a career. I also want to practice on family, Maybe give them free photographs as I learn.

Before this can happen I want to become a Massage Therapist.This is my # 1 love and I will see if it is for me.

My Degree

I figured out that I need 5 more classes to get my Associate of Arts Degree which if I take a class this summer and that will leave me to have 4 more. I am taking the classes I need for my degree and then I will take the elective after all my other ones. The last time I took a class was back in 2004 that is a long time, I am hoping to be done by 2010 then in 2010 I will have another 2 years to become a Massage Therapist. I an so focused and I will achieve all my goals. I will also be taking some Photography classes and Web Design classes. I am excited to know that I know what I need to get my degree.

Careers

I have my weigh in tomorrow and I am dreading it. I don't think I lost anything but I will have to wait and see what the scale will say. I have been thinking what I want to do for the rest of my life. I am interested in Massage Therapy. I love to massage people and make them feel good. I want to become a part time photographer. I love taking pictures and capturing memories. Recently I would love to design websites for people. It is a lot of fun and a lot of hard work.

I was thinking that I can start of by taking Nature pics and then family pics and see from there if I wnat ot get a job with a photograph weddings.

My eating Habits

From my previous past I told you the things I don't eat. Well there is a few more things I have stopped eating such as bacon and sausage. It's not that I can't eat it it just that I don't want to eat it. It' s a few more calories I can avoid.

I am taking baby steps into changing my life and I can't wait till this sticks.

My Dreams

There is so much I want to achieve in my life. I want to become a Massage Therapist, become a part-time photographer, and also learn how to develop a website. I know I can go to school for all of these. But first I have to get a job and save money to get a car.

I am determined to succeed and I will one day. As of right now my life isn't where I want it to be. I am making major changes in all aspects in my life. From changing the way I look to hair to wearing making up on a daily basics and also my clothes. Besides all of these. I have am having a different outlook in life as you can see from my last post.

I was watching TV and Ch 7 had a brief showing of the Specs Howard School of Broadcasting. I am not interested in radio or TV but they have a new program in Web design. I am thinking about going there rather than the college I attend. I am going back to Macomb to finish my degree in Associate of Arts. I have a few more classes and once I start something I have to finish it.

I got this quote from the Specs Howard website. It is from a past student that is now really successful. He owns his one DJ. Videography company called Mike Staff Productions. This is what he said: Don't just e-mail your resume and hope for the best. Pursue your dream job. This means to relentlessly follow up on job leads and dedicate yourself to building relationships. Don't take "No" as meaning "never" but rather "not right now". Do something EVERY DAY in pursuit of a job. I'm convinced that the only way to fail in this business is to give up….so don't give up! Give yourself some time to succeed.

I will be reading this on a daily basics for inspiration.

Thinking about going Vegan or Vegetarian

A few weeks back I saw a show on the BBC called You are what you eat. They showed what is in hot dogs and I am never eating a hot dog again ever since I seen what they put in it. I don't eat cute animals like rabbit,dear, duck, and veal. (baby cow) and also creepy things like snails and mussels eww. Anyways, I was watching the Janice Dickinson Modeling Project a few days ago and they had a person from the organization Peta (People for the Ethical Treatment of Animals). They showed a video of how they torture the animals. I am a animal lover and after watching this video on their website I was almost in tears. I do not wear fur or use products that are used on animals. That is JUST PLAN CRUEL.I am thinking about the next step by not eating them. It's gonna take a lot of hard work researching and trying then trying this out cause I love my chicken and I just gotta learn to eat vegan or vegetarian.

This is a part of my change and it will take time to get used to.

Information: What is a Vegetarian?
There are several categories of vegetarians, all of whom avoid meat and/or animal products. The vegan or total vegetarian diet includes only foods from plants: fruits, vegetables, legumes (dried beans and peas), grains, seeds, and nuts. The lactovegetarian diet includes plant foods plus cheese and other dairy products. The ovo-lactovegetarian (or lacto-ovovege-tarian) diet also includes eggs. Semi-vegetarians do not eat red meat but include chicken and fish with plant foods, dairy products, and eggs.


What is a Vegan?
Vegans do not eat meat of any kind and also do not eat eggs, dairy products, or processed foods containing these or other animal-derived ingredients such as gelatin. Many vegans also refrain from eating foods that are made using animal products that may not contain animal products in the finished process, such as sugar and some wines. Although there is some debate as to whether certain foods, such as honey, fit into a vegan diet, if you are cooking for other vegans, it is best to err on the side of caution and avoid using these foods.

I need a change

I was hanging up my clothes in my closet and I realize that I am in need of a makeover. I am starting to wear make-up for no reason on a regular day and now my clothes have got to change. I don't know what kind of change I want to take on but all I know it's about time I do this.

Going back to School

I have decided that I am going back to School. I would like to get my Associate of Arts Degree and I have look back on my Colleges website to refresh the courses that I need and more that I am interested in. I haven't been back since 2004 and I don't have many years to go. I take 2 classes a semester and I might go back this coming fall but I am not too sure cause I would like to go to California and visit my sister cause I haven't been to Cali in a long time and I am due for a visit. Anyways, I am back to my mind focus on my education. Once I start something I have to finish it. No matter how long it will take me. I am also taking classes in Management, Photography, and Website Design. It's something I am interested in and it's great to know. I think they will be fun classes cause it's something I am interested in taking.

I still have to get a stable job and a car. I also still want to go to Massage school but that will have to wait until I am able to attend classes.

My website is going good. I am putting a lot more information on it. I also changed the layout and I put a scroll down box and put outside links on them. I put some pictures that I found on photobucket that I wanted to jazz up my site.

Changes

I have been working really hard on my website. I have changed a lot to it. I deleted some pages that were unnecessary and put them in a drop down bar on the main page. It's still a work in progress cause I keep on adding on to it. There is so much more that I can't put on cause I need to do more research on all my pages.

First day of Lent

It's the first day of lent and I don't know what to give up. I never really gave up anything before but I am gonna try this year and see how it goes. I wanted to give up cheese and all carbs but I will see how that goes. I can go with out cheese but my carb intake will have to do. I am going to limit myself though. I know that when you give up cheese and all carbs you will lose a lot of weight.

My 8 cups of water a day is working out good. I am drinking that and I feel so much better. I have also created another website for living a healthy lifestyle.

I just added 2 more pages to my wedding vendors site. I might give that site a rest and focus on my new website. I can't believe that having a website is so much work but having the 3 of them that I really enjoy updating. I am hoping to have a real professional one once I learn HTML and all that I need to know how to build my own website.

The Small Steps: My Changes

I am changing little by little. I have a long way but I know I can do this with these small little steps that lead to big changes in the end. I am drinking 1% Milk rather than 2%. I love my cheese so in the past I bought veggie cheese and when I did that I lost 7 lbs. I guess the little changes really do make a difference. I am gonna go back to that.

I don't drink diet pop that often cause it blots me and it is said that it reins your diet. The more diet pop you drink the more water you have to drink. By drinking more water I feel more refreshed and cleansed. Not to mention what it does for your insides. I don't have to mention that casuse you probably know what I am taking about.

No matter how many times I have fallen off the diet wagon I get right back up. I am never giving up until I lose all this weight and be at a weight I am comfortable with. Also I have a lot of support though Sparkpeple and a friend that is going through the same thing I am.

Now my next small change I have to do is when my new gym opens up. I have to go to the gym more often about 4 days a week for 30 to 40 minutes.

Weight Loss Devices

I am watching the View now and they gave away a MIO watch. Which helps with weight loss. It tracks how many calories you burn. If you burn 3500 calories that equals to a 1 lb weight loss it also tracks your heart rate to see if you are in your target heart rate that you are burning fat. I do want that watch it's a lot of in one. Check out their website for more information.

I also watch The Biggest Loser and they have a weight loss device that they wear called the bodybugg armband. Here is the product description: bodybugg® takes the guesswork out of weight loss by monitoring your calorie expenditure and consumption using the most sophisticated consumer body monitoring capabilities available on the market today. You always know when you need to move more or eat less. In studies comparing calorie expenditure measurements from the bodybugg® device to calorie expenditure measurements in a metabolic chamber (the "gold standard" of calorie expenditure measurement), the bodybugg® achieved average accuracy rates of 92%.

• it's easy- just manage your average daily caloric deficit number.
• it's flexible- eat what you want when you want. workout on your own terms
• it's personal- no more guessing. you determine how many calories you want to burn to reach your goal
• Includes a three month subscription to the bodybugg web program.

I am up for anything that will help me in my weight loss.

My Website

If you want you can check out my website at http://detroitthemotorcity.googlepages.com it's still a work in progress but it's getting to where I want it. This website is about the city of Detroit Michigan and beyond. There are helpful links about the city, to where to eat and what to see and more. Also my new link is for Metro Detroit Brides I made it to help them in their wedding planning. I will be posting another page on some planning ideas but that will be in the near future.

I also have another blog that I write in that I have for my website. The link to that is on the website.

We got hit BAD!!!

I don't know why little things bother me but they do. I have to stop worrying about something so stupid. I hope to see my cousins this weekend. I am a lot better. Anyways. Yesterday I bought the Christina Aguilera Back to Basics Tour DVD. It's AWESOME!!! I am gonna watch it again. I also bought Jeff Dunham's Spark of Insanity DVD, that guy is so funny.

Today we just got hit with a BAD snow storm. I also had to go in it. SHIT this is why I HATE MICHIGAN in the winter time and I want to move someplace warm like my sisters.

Update on my websites

I haven’t written in here in a while and I wanted to give you a update on my website progress. It’s getting to be a better site. I added a new page to it called wedding vendors. I am writing my reviews and then I will be promoting my site when I am done with that part.

My new Link is to provide helpful feedback on vendors that past brides have had a good or bad experience with. I am hoping that it will help many Brides-2-be in planning for their wedding.

If you are wondering why I put this link and I have never been married before or nor am I dating anyone. I am a wedding fanatic and I have been to many wedding in the past from family, friends of the family, and my friends. I have a lot of cousins so that equals to a lot. I can’t even count how many I have been to. I know a good wedding from a bad wedding.

My Websites

I have 3 websites through Google pages and I am back to updating those. It is fun to work on but in a way it is hard work. It is a work in process. Today I just added a new link that I am very interested in and that is weddings. I am putting my reviews of my personal experience and others. I am doing my research through theknot.com and other wedding websites. I am only doing this for the Metro Detroit area for now cause this is where I live and I have a lot to work on.

Taking Little Steps

To help me change my bad eating habits I am taking little steps to changing how I eat. I had my first oatmeal in a long time. The last time I had it was when I was a little girl. It's not that bad. I wanna get the Quaker Oatmeal Weight Control. They use it on the biggest loser. Also the Brita water pitcher and Wrigley's extra gum. They also say to drink 1% or skim milk and drink that 3 times a day. It's gonna take a while for me to have these stick but I am focused.

My Inspiration

I forgot how much Christina Aguilera inspires me. I am watching the Back to Basics tour on VH1 and it was just a hour long but I will get the DVD February 6th. She is truly an amazing singer with a voice of an angel.

I knew from the first time I bought her first CD that she would be something BIG.

SparkPeople on Ellen today

I watched Ellen this morning and I seen the 3 woman who have lost a lot of weight cause of SparkPeople. But what they failed to say that they lost weight cause of SparkPeople. I wish they would of advertised this site. It really is a motivation to me and others.

Anyways, Well from where I was before at 259 lbs I have lost quite of bit of weight. Before I would be 250 and then go up and down a few lbs then I finally broke the 250 lbs mark. Now my next weight goal is 230 then after that it will be 190. When I hit 190 then my mom is going to pay or my trip to California and my older sister will buy me a new outfit when I am out there visiting her. So I have a lot to look forward to when I get there or that is if I stick to drinking my water, exercising, and eating healthy.

Out of Control

My eating habits are out of control. I am drinking my water though. But I have to learn to eat healthier and discipline myself from eating the bad foods. Maybe I should get in the habit of counting my calories but I need to know how many I need to eat a day.

Anyways, I can not wait till my gym opens up. I will be going a lot more often then I would my other one. Right now I am watching the Biggest Loser and watching that show really helps motivate me.

Things happen for a reason

Well this year I will be trying to find love. It's been a long time and so I have decided to look for someone.

Right now I am talking to this guy named Josh. I have had him on my MySpace for a while and so I thought that this would be a great oppunity to get ot know him. He seems like a nice guy. He is 27 years old and is from St Clair Shores. He is a big guy but I have looked past looks. Ever since I liked Tom. I have given up on him since I don't hardly talk to him and he's gonna be a Priest.

I hope something comes of this but if it doesn't I believe that things happen for a reason and I will find love when it is time. I have to kiss a lot of frogs to get to my prince.

The Best Thing

Having my Brita water pitcher is the best thing I have ever bought myself. I am starting to drink my 8 glasses of water that I have been wanting to do for a while.

I am starting to figure out what I want to do for my 30th birthday in Vegas. I know I want to stay at the Palms and go to the Ghost Bar and Rain. I an not sure how many people are going to come but I hope a lot. Anyways, I also want to see the Thunder from Down Under. A male strip show.

Quick Update

I just wanted to do a quick update. I have been feeling a lot better but not 100% well. I have started my family memory book. I am putting together all my family pictures then I am gonna reprint the ones I want and then really start on it. This is a HUGE project and it's all for me. I am not doing it for no one.

I gave the ones I already made for my sister and my aunt to them and they loved it. I guess that was a practice of what I can expect from what I am making for me.

I want to take some photography classes so I can be able to use a professional camera like to ones that the professional photographers use. I am looking towards a canon one. I want to be able to take some really good pictures.

Vegas 2009

I am planning on going to Vegas for my 30th birthday. I have been planning this since I became 28. I haven't been to Vegas in a long time and so I think that what a great time to go is for my 30th birthday. Since it's the BIG 30. I wanna celebrate it in style. I don't care who comes but all I know it will be a kick ass party. As the saying goes. What goes on in Vegas stays in Vegas.I am counting the day till my 30th and as days go on it will be here before I know it.

Karma is a BITCH

I've been sick for a few days and since then I have done a lot of thinking about my past ex-friends.When I found out that some of them were talking shit behind my back I was really pissed and upset. But like the saying goes what goes around comes around. It's true I seen in with my own eyes and all I have to say is Karma is a BITCH.

From those ex-friends, my friends I have now are 10 times better. I now know what a good friend is and what bad friend is.

Never giving up

I started drinking my 8 glasses of water and have been going to the bathroom a lot today. In a way it's good cause all the toxins are coming out of my body and I am keeping myself hydrated. The weather has been warm but icky. There are serve thunderstorm warning and it's supposed to rain tomorrow. I wanna start running outside soon. I need to get used to running so I can have something new in my life that I can do.

I need to show everyone that have said that I would never lose this weight. I will someday and I will never give up.

Starting from scratch

I made one of my goals come true. One of my goals is to drink at least 8 glasses of water. I went to Bed Bath and Beyond today and I bought a Brita water pitcher. it's the one with the 10 glass one. It also has a indicator that tells you when you need to change it. It's the best this I have ever bough for myself. It will have me drink more water again. I fill my water bottle which is 20 oz and I have tasted the Brita water that I put in it and it tastes so good. I was watching one of my favorites show The Biggest Loser and they are also drinking water from this. I have always wanted to buy one of these and now I did. It will be a BIG help for me to losing this weight.

I have to be honest that I haven't been eating all the healthy but I am starting slow and taking it in little steps. My new gym will be opening soon and I am excited. LA Fitness will be opening some time in February. I can start exercising again at the gym.


I am starting from scratch and having a new mental mind focus on getting healthy. My next weigh in is on the 20th and I hope to lose 2 lbs by then. I am now 247 lbs and need to be 245 lbs. My next weight goal is to be 230 lbs.

6 Stages to Weight loss

Stage 1 I say I have no motivation.
2) I have a slow metabolism.
3) I’ve tried everything and still can’t lose weight.
* I lost weight before, why can’t I lose it again.
Next step: 4) Learn more about weight loss by reading health magazines.
5) Write down problems and list why I want to lose weight.

Stage 2 I’m tired of feeling fat.
6) I’m sick of wearing bigger sizes.
7) I hate trying on bating suits and clothes.
8) I need to do something before I get bigger.
Next Step : 9) Set firm marks that can force you to take action.
10) Get names of personal trainers.
11) Make a dead line for making appointments

Relapse Rx : If I say of stage 1 ( being heavy runs in the family) get some support and team up with a exercise buddy.. Start practicing positive imagines and visualize how good you’ll look and feel once you have lost most of your weight. * Comments you’ll get from family and friends.*

Stage 3 I’m ready for action
1) Focus on your goals.
2) Stay away from fatty foods.
3) Take a walk in the morning.
4) Develop a structure and routine.
5) Know what days you’ll workout so you’ll stick to it.
6) Jot down your workout so you’ll stick to it.
7) Keep a food diary so you can track progress and problems.

Stage 4 I’m on a roll
8) Workout at least 30 minutes 3-4 times a week.
9) Do your homework first and you’ll succeed.
10) Minimize or don’t eat junk food.
11) losing motivation buy something new
12) Set small goals
13) Each week you resist junk food reward yourself

Stage 5 I DID IT!!!!!
14) You’ve reached a realistic goal weight
15) Cleaned you your diet.
16) Take a part in actives
17) Look in the mirror and say I feel great and look good.
18) Keep a old photo so you can see how far you’ve come.

Stage 6 I’m a healthy eater
19) Give yourself credit for all you’ve accomplished.
20) Continue rewarding yourself at this stage.

My worst dream come true when I woke up

Well it's the day of the new year and it didn't go well. I woke up with my worst dream come true. My dad was in a deep diabetic attack and I couldn't help him like I do, so I called 911 and they helped him get back to get normal. This is the 5th time it has happened and I am sick of it. But there were some good looking paramedic's.

From now on I will be watching him and seeing this will not happen again.

New Year - New Me

It's 2008 and I am feeling great. I am sticking to my goals and I am focused. I am going to make this year the best year for me. I am hoping to lose more then 10 lbs this year. I am at 247 and my next weight goal is 230 lbs. I don't have far to go but I know I can do it with eating healthier and exercising.

I also want to try new things like running. This is a whole new thing for me and I am gonna stick it through until I am able to run 3 mile and then if I do that for more then 3 months then I can look to run my first 5k. That is also one of my life goals

Last Blog for 2007

My Paretns went to the casino and I am home alone. I am drinking by myself and having my own party. I am gong to cry when the ball drops and no one will know it. It's 11:48 and it's almost the New Year. I am toasting to myself and hoping that 2008 will be a good year for me. I am crying because I need to leave behind all the pain form 2007 in the past and start fresh for the new year.
See you in 2008.

~So here is to a Happy and joyful 2008. Happy New Year Everyone.~
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Here is to 2008

This coming year I have a lot to get done. I have to lose weight for my class reunion then in the fall I am going on my sisters annual wine trip. I think this is the 3rd of 4th year. I have seen the pictures and it seems like a lot of fun. It would be nice to be around 190 lbs or lighter. I hope that 2008 will bring me a job,weight loss and someone to love.

I am here alone for New Years and I am used to it. I have done it for New Years before. I wanted to go to my cousin's but my mom has to be a ass and wouldn't let me go by myself to South Lyon. Which is about an hour away. I hope I can get a full time job so I can save up for a car and I can go anywhere I want to go. I also need to move out away from my mom and dad. They are a pain in my ass.

Saying Good-bye to 2007

This is the end of 2007 and I am so glad it's almost over. I have been through a lot these last few months. With my 2 jobs that didn't' work out and then to my dad having a heart Attack to my Grandma being sick and in the hospital.

It breaks my heart to have to see my grandma in the hospital. I wanted to breakdown. She means the world to me. I don't know when I am gonna do when she passes away. I will be a wreck for sure. Just typing this brings me to tears.

I will update later before the New Year. I think I might be spending this one alone. Tom is going to a wedding and I don't' know what the rest of my friends are doing. I am hoping that 2008 brings me a full time job, a car, weight loss, a new life and someone to love. I am sick of being single and I am ready for love.

Then I come to find out that all 3 of my Bloop Dairies have been deleted. At first I wa bumbed but then I thought I have this one. It will be good enough.

3 more days

Well it's 3 more days until Christmas and I have been spending my time with my family. This year has been crazy but I am glad it's almost over and a new year will began and I can start it fresh and new. I have a lot of things to focus on. Such as a job and weight loss and getting myself healthy.

Today we are going to the mall and then after we are going to see my grandma and after that we are going to see to visit my aunt and uncle.

I think we are going to my aunt and uncles house for Christmas Eve and then we are having Christmas here. I love this time of year cause it gives me a chance to spend time with my family.

I have a lot going on in 2008. I have my 10 year high school reunion (if we are having one). Then I am planning on going to California in the fall.

Excited

I am excited that my sisters are coming home but I am really excited that only my older sister is coming home not my younger sister. I haven't seen my older sister in a long time and I can't wait to give her the gift I made for her. I hope she notices a change in me. I have lost a total of 12 lbs from my highest weight. I have already had one comment form my Aunt last month. She said "You look like you lost weight" and I said that I did. I felt so good getting that complement from her. It's been a long time since I had anyone notice a weight loss in me. It's also a boot for my motivation for losing this weight.

I am hoping that 2008 will bring me a job,weight loss, new experiences, new friends, and someone to love.

My 130 lb Goal Reward

When I reach 130 lbs. My reward is to have professional pictures taken. I have 2 awesome photographers in mind. The first one is The Shooting Gallery and the second one is Arising Images which was voted # 1 photographer in Metro Detroit. These 2 photographers do a awesome job. I will have a hard time picking one.

I am excited about this goal. I am going to work hard in the coming New Year. I have joined a new gym that is way better then Fitness USA and also I will start run and hopefully join the Team in Training team. I will be attending one of the meetings in January.

Here are some of my 2008 Goals:
~Be more active
~Buy a Car
~Attend The Team in Training Team meeting
~Run a 5K Race = 3 miles

2008 Mission

In 2008 I will be on a mission to try to complete a lot of my goals. I am determined to accomplish them. My first goal is to attend a Team in Training meeting and learn about it. There is a meeting in January and I am gonna attend that one.

Then I am focusing on my weight loss goals. I wish I lived someplace warn so I can start running and maybe run a 5K this year. I can't wait to try out my christmas gift. I got it early this year. My Christmas gift is a new I-POD Nano and along with it came the Nike+ kit. What this is it tracks how many miles you run and how many calories you burn. I am excited to try it out but I gotta wait till my new gym opens up next year.

Inspritional Lyrics

Mpulz - The Journey Lyrics
I know that you're searching for answers,
Afraid that you'll be left behind,
But you can't rush time,Got to wait in line,
In time the answers you'll find

(Chorus)
You'll get your wings at the right time,
Even birds must learn how to fly,
You gotta move on from what’s breaking your heart,
Don't let your life pass you by.

I know that you're scared of failing,
But you can't succeed if you don’t try,
To see what I do,
I believe in you,
And soon your wings will take flight.

(Chorus)

(Bridge)
Sunshine always follows the rain,
Happiness always follows the pain,
Let's never look back and learn from the past,
Heart and soul is all you need, all you need.

(Chorus x2)

Taking the journey,
Enjoying the ride,
Be true to yourself,
Let your heart be your guide.
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Christina Aguilera - Soar lyrics
When they push, when they pull
Tell me can you hold on
When they say you should change
Can you lift your head high and stay strong

Will you give up, give in
When your heart's crying out "that is wrong"
Will you love you for you at the end of it all

Now in life there's gonna be times
When you're feeling low
And in your mind insecurities seem to take control
We start to look outside ourselves
For acceptance and approval
We keep forgetting that the one thing we should know is


Don't be scared
To fly alone
Find a path that is your own
Love will open every door

See in your hands the world is yours
Don't hold back and always know
All the answers you will unfold
What are you waiting for
Spread your wings and soar

The boy who wonders, is he good enough for them
Keep trying to please them all
But he just never seems to fit in
Then there's the girl who thinks she'll never ever be
Good enough for him
He's trying to change and
That's a game she'll never win

In life there will be times when you're feeling low
And in your mind insecurities seem to take control
We start to look outside ourselves
For acceptance and approval
We keep forgetting that one thing we should know is

Don't be scared
To fly alone
Find a path that is your own
Love will open every door

See in your hands the world is yours
Don't hold back and always know
All the answers they will unfold
What are you waiting for
Spread your wings and soar

In the mirror is where she comes
Face to face with her fears
Her reflection looked forward on to her
After all these years
However how she's tried to be
Something besides herself
Now time has passed and she's ended up
Somewhere else with regret

What is it is that makes us feel the need
To keep pretending
Gotta let ourselves be

Don't be scared
To fly alone
Find a path that is your own
Love will open every door

See in your hands the world is yours
Don't hold back and always know
All the answers you will unfold
Don't wait no more
Spread your wings and soar

Find your road
Love will open every door
See in your hands the world is yours
Don't look back in the window, you'll find your way
Always know all the answers will unfold

Oh don't wait
Spread your wings and soar
Don't wait no more
You've got to soar
Spread your wings and soar
Don't wait no more
No don't you wait no more
Spread your wings and soar
You've can soar

So what you waiting for
Don't wait, Don't wait
Soar

The reason for TNT

I am excited to get started. I got interested in the Team in Training a while ago. I saw a flyer and thought about it and since my sisters friend is in it and has already been to many places to run makes me wanna join and help with a cure.I still have to train for my first ever marathon. that will take sometime but I know I can do it. My cousin had Hodgkin's Lymphoma and is now free from it. It's been 10 years since she had it. She is a SURVIVOR.

She isnt the only reason I got interested in the Team in Training. I read stories that really inspired me and if I can do this and help fun for a cure then that makes me feel good.

Another reason I want to do this is that I want to start running more and getting in shape. If Running for a reason like this will help me get inspired and start running then that will be my inspiration. My dad had a heart attack 3 days after Thanksgiving and that really concerned me. I need to do this for me and not end up like my dad and have to go through what he did.

Working towards a marathon

I said that I was gonna start running but I haven't yet. I didn't have enough motivation to start but I will be soon that will be one of my New Years Resolutions.

I want to join the Team in Training team and run a marathon and it's also a great cause to run for. They have many places that I can go and run a marathon and also get a chance to see the world.

This is gonna be a BIG lifestyle change but I know that I can do it. 2008 is the perfect year to get started since 2008 will be my 10 year Reunion.