Life can only get better

I spend most of yesterday with Tom and we went to dinner at the casino with Tom's friend Matt and after dinner he said to me you know I do truly love you. If he meant it, it really did melt my heart. I really do love him. Damn I've fallen in love with him. I should of kissed him when the ball dropped. I wanna kiss him. I just wish we knew what our true feelings are for each other. I know that he's focusing on school and getting re-certified as a teacher and I'm focused on working on my mission to helping my moms friend with their business and saving money.

I'm a lot happier with my life now and it can only get better.

Work Agenda

Even though it's not my business I am consistently thinking about my job. How I can improve the business and what needs to get done for the next day. I made an agenda of work that needs to get done and it's a a lot. All I need to do is focus on that agenda and take it one day at a time to check those things off my agenda. I go into work early to get started on things that need to get done on my agenda. I am happy with my job and happy to be helping my moms friend get her business updated. I will be there as long as I need to be and if I can ever find a full-time job.

My moms friend helped me with hiring me and now it is my mission to help promote the business and update it.

Maybe Changes

I was thinking what would happen if I was left the bookstore since my moms friend is older and isn't gonna be able to do it for much longer. I'd like to open my own business but this is my main focus right now.

I was thinking about if I were to get the business. I would do some minor changes like updating the record keeping system, do major cleaning, and start creating a new store layout.

End of the 2nd week

I just finished my 2nd week at IBC and I'm making little progress to making changes. There still is a lot more to do and I've made a list of all the jobs that need to get done to keep the store updated. Here is my list:
-Clean/Organize store
-Make sure to keep website updated
-Make a store operations manual
-Get to know where everything is
-Make store inventory list
-Make website inventory list

And there is probably still more I haven't thought about. I'm am always thinking about my job. I'm on a mission to get more customers and see things sell. We had some purchases this week so that is a good sign things are being sold and off the shelf.

Venting

I have been very frustrated at my the place I am getting help with finding a job. I find a job and they don't consider that a real job huh that pisses me off. Here is part of the e-mail that was much needed to be sent. (I know that you don't look at this as employment but it is. I am doing a job and I am getting paid. I enjoy what I do. I work 5 days a week I go in early and leave when they close. I am going in on Saturday on my free time to help out. I am not only working and doing office work. I am organizing their store and cleaning it. I am working hard on focusing on one thing at a time and that is helping their business succeed. It isn't doing so good so in addition I am helping to promote them and help get them more business. I am giving them my retail knowledge since they don't know much. This is just for now and that is all I am focusing on. This isn't just a place I work at. I truly care about my moms friends business and I am lucky that she hired me cause it's so hard to find a job. I will give you an update in a month.)

It felt so good and I'm relived that I found the words to tell her screw you in that nice way. Weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I am loving it.

Blocking out the negative

My mom is so negative. She didn't think that I could do the job for her friend. But what she doesn't know is that I want to open my own business. She doesn't know what I know. Her being negative is keeping me from telling her that I will be opening my own business in the near future.

My Passion

One of my favorite quotes is a quote from Rachael Ray. She said a few years ago on her show "You can't turn it off" she was talking about her passion for cooking. This also goes for what ever you're interested in as a career.

I found my passion and it feels good to know I can stop searching. I'm keeping my head up high and reaching for the stars and I'm not stoping. I'm gonna keep on improving my life.

I am happy to have found a temporary job that can help prepare me for being a business owner. I'm experimenting first hand the struggles of a business and I'm happy to help out with whatever I can and to help build up the business again.

I actually love going to work even though the store is open for 5 hours and I'm not getting paid that much but all that matters is that I love what I do and it's helping out someone I've known for a long time and I'm getting the experience I need before I start my own business.

Dream: Another Casino Dream

I've had many dreams about going to the casino and winning money. (If only I could win money in real life) any ways, back to my dream I just went to a slot machine and I put in $20 dollars and I hit the max bet and won $2000 then I woke up.

(Here is what the dream means: To see or win money in your dream indicates that success and prosperity is within your reach. Money represents confidence, self-worth, success, or values. You have much belief in yourself. Alternatively, dreaming about money refers to your attitudes about love and matters of the heart. It is a common symbol for sexuality and power.)

I hope this is a new start of my way to success and that Tom and my feeling will meet and we can start a relationship.

This Week

What I thought was a week of helping my moms friend out. It's sounding like a permeant job position. I guess that I'm a new employee of hers and my job title is Social Networking Administrator which is I am in charge of updating the stores website, Facebook, Twitter, and now blog.

This is a job that I enjoy. It's gonna help prepare me in my future business while I help another business out. I hope to learn some new things while I am there. I'm just hoping I can help bring in new customers into her store.

This is my passion and I'm gonna help my moms friend as best as I can. This is a step in a better direction in my life and I've got a smile on my face and a great feeling my life is starting to change.

First day of volunteering

This week I'm gonna be helping out my moms friend by working at her bookstore. She is in desperate need of help. Since I want to open up my own business I feel that I can use the experience and at the same time help out my moms friend.

When I came home I felt so happy. I really don't mind the retail part. My business is part if the retail industry so I'm hoping to gain whatever experience I can and in hopes to get a job with her so I can start saving the money. I did enjoy what I did today and I hope I can continue.