Motivated!!!!!

I am finally reading the Russel Simmons book "Do You" I bought last year. So far it's so helpful and inspirational. It has great quotes that that I will read over and over again.

I'm am gonna follow through with my vision and I will not let anyone stop me or discourage me. I will listen to what I am reading in that book.

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My Walls towards love

I have 2 walls that are up for my thoughts to think straight. My first wall is the friendship wall and the second is the seminary wall. Yes I still think about if Tom didn't want to become a Priest but that is only once in a while. I think about if we were a couple and how it would be but I also have in my mind that he told me that I wasn't his type and that is what keeping those walls up and not come down quickly.

If he does decide that the priesthood isn't fir him and confesses he likes me more than a friend then I will remind him what he said and we would have to have a long talk about our feelings.


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Worry,Doubt,Fear

When I attended MCTI this year my 2nd Term teacher told me to elimate these 3 words from my vocabuary.

Worry : I am worried about if I am gonna hire the right employees. How am I gonna handle problems that my employees will have with costomers or other employees.

Doubt : I have doubt that I will be able to be my own boss and have to do things on my own cause no one will be above me. I will be the person to go to and I have to become a leader and get out of my comfortable area of always being a follower.

Fear : I fear that I won't succeed and not be able to become a successful business owner.

Wide Width Feet

I have wide width feet and I hate it. There are so many pairs of cute high heel shoes I want to wear but they don't sell them. I googled if my feet will shrink as I lost my weight and it's possible that once I start losing a lot of weight my feet will shrink in size and I can buy those cute high heel shoes.

I am noticing that I am losing inches by the way my clothes are fitting me. My pants are getting too big and that feels great. I weight myself once a month and twice in December.


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Today's word is.......CHANGE.

"You can not change someone but you can change yourself." Sometimes change is good and sometimes it can be bad. What I what to change about myself is good and it's for the better. 

1. I want to change my bad habits for new healthy ones.
2. I want to change the way I look.
3. I want to change the way I feel.
4. I want to change my life.
5. I want to control my actions.
6. I want to control my decisions.
7. I want to control my life
   
8. I want to discipline myself.
9. I want to be fit and healthy.
10. I want to exercise 6 days a week without any excuses.
11. I want a healthy lifestyle.

"You can not change someone but you can change yourself." Sometimes change is easy and sometimes it's hard. My life is starting to change.

Pregnant Dream

Dreammoods.com Dream Descriptionn

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To dream that you are pregnant, symbolizes an aspect of yourself or some aspect of your personal life that is growing and developing. You may not be ready to talk about it or act on it.  This may also represent the birth of a new idea, direction, project or goal.

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I had a dream last night that I Found out that I was pregnant. I went to the Doctors and she felt my stomach and told me that I was. The guy I was dating in my dream was named Alex but he looked like this guy named Tony that I worked with at K-Mart. He had dark hair and he was tall and good looking. Also Jenny the personal trainer that I follow was also in my dream. I told her first before I told the the guy who got me pregnant. I told her that I was lazy and not did cardio but a lot of weights and she told me that I didn't look it and then I woke up.

The description of the dreammoods.com is true.  I am not ready to talk to anyone about my career decision until I know for sure it's gonna happen. I only tod a few people and that is it for now. It is a new direction in my life that I want to go and pursue and a goal of mine that I am working very hard at and I will not stop till I know I can open my business. If I do tell all I will get is negative comments that I do not need. This is what I want to do and I will see it through.

Mind focus/Positive Thinking

I have not done any walking this week and most of last week. I did little cardio and I have been doing my weights. I feel I am losing inches but I don't know cause I don't measure myself. But I do feel it on my clothes and or feels Good.

I saw a 2 hour success story of the past winners/contestints of the Biggest Loser. I was thinking to myself "why can't I be like them and stick to a routine where I am doing my new workout plan cardio 30 minutes 6 days a week and aling with that some weight training.

I heard that when you want to maintain the weight that you lost and have gotten to your goal weight you have got to workout for an hour and a half for 6 days.

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I am hoping I will be able not eat too much and drink to much.



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Bumps in the road

I've hit those bumps in the road. I just can't seem to change my mind focus on the lazyness that I have in my head. It has got to stop. When I do this I am setting myself back 2 steps and losing what I am wanting to work towards my weightloss goals.

I haven't done my walking for this week. So I have an hour and a half of cardio to do. I hope I get the motivation to go on a long walk to clear my head and figure out what I am gonna do about my lazyness thinking that I need to get rid of. This is a BIG problem and once I figure out how to elimate those thoughts then the lazyness will be gone. I need to replace that with something that can fight it off.


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Being Thankful

I can't believe that Thanksgiving is 2 days away. I am so thankful this year for many reasons. Having a good loving family and good friendships. It's the simple things that make me happy.

The things I love about Thanksgiving is waking up in the morning and watching Americas Thanksgiving Parade which takes place here in downtown Deyroit Michigan. Then my parents and I go over to my aunts and uncles house. I love to see them and I enjoy spending time with them. Eating, drinking, and just having a good time.


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I know what I want and I know what I need

I had a great meeting with my Counselor Caroline and I told her about my wanting to start my own business and she gave me some helpful information. I didn't tell her about what kind of business I want to own. I only told a few people and that is it.


When I thought to myself. What I need to do to make me happy in my own life. I needed to put things in my own hands and do what wanna do. Such as I decided to think about what would make me happy. 


I know what I want and I know what I need. I know not to listen to negativity and not to tell anyone what I want to do in my life so that I can not get discouraged from doing what I wanted to do in my life. It's my life and I am living it the way I want.

Me wanting to start my own business has save me a lot of confidence and second thoughts about moving to California. Don't get me wrong every time I visit my sisters. I love it there and I did see myself having a life there. I did my research and I know it is a lot of money to move there. They say it's worst then Michigan. When I am in California to visit I am so happy but where ever my life takes me I will follow it and see where I end up living. Here in Michigan where I have lived all my life or in California where I have visited many times.

So I am gonna stay in Michigan until I completely decide that I have stated the process to owning my own business. Now I have to write a business plan and take it to the Macomb County Planning & Economic Development in Mt Clemens.

Christmas List

Things I want

• Wii Console
• Wii Fit Plus
• Jillian Michaels Fitness Ultimatum 2010 Wii game
• The Biggest Loser Wii game
• Nintendo Wii Accessories - Wii Remote Controller
  
• EA Sports Active
  

Confident

I have confidence in myself that I will be able to start my own business and become successful. I am just hoping that this isn't some idea and I will be able to see my vision come to life.

I have always had ideas but none if them were as serious as this. I think I have found my passion in life and I am sticking to it.

Much of your success will come from your mental commitment

From a local newspaper online article for the Detroit Free Press. Found here. It has a saying that I need to stick in my head. A saying from one of the local Personal Trainers who I look for motivation and I tone into her Saturday Ustream webcast. Jennifer DiDonato from Madefit.com. I mentioned her in a past blog post and she is helped me with getting motivated and helping me get a better workout plan. Here is what she said about working out with a Wii Fit. "Local trainer Jennifer DiDonato said there is a market for things like the Wii Fit, and that no matter what workout plan you follow, much of your success will come from your mental commitment."

It is all in your mind. Your brain controls  what you do. It's is the most powerful part in you body. That is when I have to work on. My thinking when I don't feel like exercising.I am taking my problems and working on them so that I am able to see what needs working on so I can get that out of my life and replace that with new habits that are healthy.

Why I want to own my own business?‏

Owning my own business will give me a sense of accomplishment. I have  
always wanted to own my own business but I thought I knew what career  
I wanted to go in. There are pros and cons to owning a business. I  
have given it a lot of thought and researched a lot too. I still have  
more to think about and research to look into. I know I can do this  
but all I need is help starting my business and get the right people  
hired in and I'll be on my way.
 
I want my business to grow and help hire a lot of people to help out  
the economy in Michigan. I have so many ideas to help my business  
grow into something that no other boutique has.
 
I also don't want to feel that I can get fired or laid off. I know  
owning a business has a lot of responsibilities. I am not gonna give up.  
I hope this is my passion and it's not just a idea or a thought  
running through my mind. I know that I can do this. I will do what  
ever it takes to see if this is a idea or a passion. I won't find out  
until I have a final word of until I get papers signed and a key to my  
business. After that will be getting my store all set up with all the  
merchdise and having a grand opening of my store.

2nd week not so good

This week was not that good. There were bumps in the road but I am not gonna let that stop me. I forgot to weigh myself today sine I weigh myself the 20th of every month and then next month I will weigh myself twice. The 20th and the 31st.

Determined

I am so Determined to see my dreams and goals come true. I will fight to get where I want to go. When all the negativity comes in my way in which they will come all i can say is that I will not listen anyone. I am making me happy and that is it how it's gonna be.

The Biggest Loser

I was thinking about going for The Biggest Loser casting when they came in town again but I knew I can never keep up with the demands the trainers have the contestents do. They lose a lit of weight in a short period of time but with that they are working out for hours and doing challenges.

I am thinking about getting together a walking/fitness group where I live to help motivate me and others that live in my city.

Endomorph

• Lower Calories
• Increase Cardio
• Increase Weight Training
  

This is what I am. I need to do more cardio to lose more weight. To see the results I want to see when I step on the scale.

Discipline

Discipline is something that I need to work on. That also goes with cravings. I need to fight the temptations that come in my way so that I don't eat the bad foods.

Overcome

I want to overcome a lot of my problems. I want to accomplish a lot of things soon. I want to see want will come of my life.

I need to stick with a routine, eat healthy and exercise everyday. I am doing good with getting back on the wagon.

Next week I have a appointment with Caroline (my Michigan Rehab cousler) this will give me a chance to talk to her one on one face to face and finally tell her what I want to do and see if she knows someone who can help me with starting my own business.

All about Passion

The more I think about what my passion is the more I am confident that I will want to persue my passion. I am doing a lot of research on the Bridal Boutique Industry and getting questions ready to ask Bridal Boutique owners in other states.

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Confident

The past week was up and down for me. I had second thoughts about owning my own business but as I think about it more and research what goes into owning a business then I think about what will make me happy in life and I think I found my passion after all. I won't know until I have my ball rolling and I get my company name registered and everything else started.

Right now I want to find a full time job so that I am able to start working again and start saving money. While I am working I can still learn all I can about owning my own business.

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2nd Thoughts

I'm having second thoughts about owning my own business. I don't know why but my feelings are not the same. I feel a don't want to attitude. I am gonna wait and see what my true feelings are in a few days. I just need to give it a rest and if my feelings are the same then I'll start working on my business plan.


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Working Hard

I can't stop thinking about owning my own business. The pros and cons. I am working on a business plan. I know of a retail space that is close to my house that is avaiable and I want to go check it out.

I really hope this is my passion and it will be able to become a success and be able to have it to grow into somthing I have imagined it to be. I'm confident that if I put my mind to this I will be able to see my dream business come to life.

Working hard is what I am doing and it is what I will have to do when I do open up my business. I have to put my mind to it and go for it.


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Old and New Habits

My old habits that I want gone are slowly wanting to creap back into my life. I need to train my brain to block those thoughts that I am able to have the positive thoughts remain in my head.

An example of this is what happened today. I felt lazy and that triggered my brain to make me wanna not go for a walk so I said to myself I gotta stop this old bad habit so I just put on my workout clothes and I just went for a walk. My new habits are a part of my new life that I am making for my self. It's another chapter in my book of life.


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Found my Passion in life

I think I found my passion in life and that is owning my own business. I have been giving it a lot of thought and I can't stop thinking about my passion in life. I was thinking of the pros and cons about owning my own business and I am ready to work hard and long hours to do what makes me happy.

When I was in 11th grade there was a speaker that came to my choir class to speak and I will never forget what he said about finding a career. He said you want to find a career that makes you happy and makes you want to get up in the morning and look forward to your job, rather than having a job that you get up and just go to work for 8 hours and not be happy.

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Website

I am putting together my own website so that it will help me through my journey to weight loss and my journey to running my first marathon. I am putting my Before pics and status and so much more. I also put a blog so that people who what to follow me through my process.

A new week, a better start

I just went on my walk and I feel good. I did a little jog bit mostly I walked. I am noticing that as I walk more the walking is getting easier. When it is time for me to start jogging I will still walk but jog for 30 seconds and walk for 4 minutes and do this in rotation.

When I am walking I do have thoughts running through my head. Like I want to be fit and healthy, I want to look better than my ex's wife, I don't want want to be a fat bride when it is time for me to get married.

I also did my abs and my legs.


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Falling Chocolate Cake with Raspberry Sauce

Debbie Merriam, Olives’ first baker, and Todd came up with this one together. It’s never, ever been off the menu, and it never will be.

Serves 6:
Ingredients for Chocolate Cake:

2 tablespoons unsalted butter, for preparing ramekins
2 tablespoons all-purpose flour, for preparing ramekins
12 ounces bittersweet chocolate, coarsely chopped
1/2 pound (2 sticks) unsalted butter
1 cup sugar
1/2 cup all-purpose flour
6 large eggs

Ingredients for Raspberry Sauce :

4 cups fresh or frozen raspberries
1/2 cup sugar
1 to 3 teaspoons fresh lemon juice

Instructions for Chocolate Cake:

Preheat the oven to 350 degrees. Generously butter and flour six 8-ounce ramekins.

Place the chocolate and butter in the top of a double boiler over simmering water. Stir until completely melted. Set aside to cool.

Place the sugar, flour and eggs in a large bowl and beat until thick and fluffy, about 5 minutes. Gently beat in the cooled chocolate mixture.

Pour the batter into the prepared ramekins, filling them two-thirds to three quarters of the way up the sides. Bake until they begin to puff up, about 15 minutes. Run a knife around the edge of each ramekin and turn the ramekin upside down on a plate to unmold.

Instructions for Raspberry Sauce: Place the raspberries and sugar in a small saucepan and bring to a boil, stirring over high heat. Boil until the sugar dissolves. Add lemon juice to taste. Let cool.

Place half the sauce in a food processor fitted with a steel blade and puree. Combine with the remaining sauce, cover, and refrigerate until cold.

To finish and assemble: Serve each warm cake surrounded by sauce, with a scoop of vanilla ice cream alongside. Garnish with confectioners’ sugar and sprigs of fresh mint.

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ChipIn

My Business

My oh my I have been doing some thinking. It seems that the thought of me owning my own business is coming back to me. I am doing some major thinking and do I really want to do more research on owning my own business.

I want to be successful at something and I am hoping that God is leading me to this. I know it takes a lot of time, hardworking, and a lot of money to get a business going.

The business I want to own is a bridal boutique. I have never worked on a bridal boutique before but I did have 5 years in retail and I am passionate about this cause my boutique will not be like any other boutique. I have found out I can have someone help me. So people with disabilities can own their own business.
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Fighting

I took a walk today for 34 minutes around the block. I actually wanted to take a walk I felt good when I was done except for my back but it was my fault. I need to warm up and stretch before I go on a walk.


I am fighting to change my life. From finding a job to weight loss. I am focused on these and I hope that one day I will see a change from living my own life the way I want it.

Perpare: A new way of thinking

To get myself to walk more I am telling myself that I need to take a walk to help me be more active and it lets me to clear my head and get my thoughts together.It will also prepare me to take that next step to building up my stamina to help me jog and that will turn into running. These little steps are preparing me to run 5K's and my BIG GOAL is to start running marathons.