findagrave.com

I was looking for some information about the singer Selena. I has googled her and found a site called find a grave. I had looked at it and it was cool that I had found that cause it a memoral for those who have passed away. I had also looked for a friend of mine that died in 1996 and I was suprised to see her on there too.

So after my grandma had passed away a couple weeks ago. I though I should do this too. In memory of her. I also put my moms dad and brothers on there too.

If you want to check out the memorial click on this link: findagrave.com and it will take you to the search area where you can look on my grandmas memorial page. On that page put in Mary Chryczyk and it will take you to the page.

Busia's Gone

My Busia (Grandma) passed away this evening at 6:19 pm. I could not stop crying, My eyes are sore and I don't think its really gonna sink in until Saturday and the furnal on Monday. I am happy to know that she is in a better place and is happy to see her husband and my uncles and all the other people who have passed.

My grandmas was very strong to live this long. She had a happy and long life and she is a fighter and the Priest gave her last prayer and she closed her eyes. The Priest told her that it was ok to let go and give up cause it was time and she will have her loved ones waiting up in heaven for her. I seen her die and that It will be something I will never forget. The aide sat her up and the told us it wouldn't be too long until she is gone. My grandma gurgled and took a deep breath, closed her mouth and she was gone. The aide had to get the nurse to check if it was true and it was.It was a peaceful death.

My grandma meant to world to me. I will miss her very much and I expect to cry this whole weekend and so on. If I have a daughter I will name her Mary (after my grandma) and her middle name will be Catherine after my grandma's last name initial cause she didn't have a middle name.

Can't stop thinking about him

Tom called me today. I miss him but I know that he is coming home night and he will be here for the weekend. I'd feel better knowing that I was for sure gonna see him. Most of the time he is all I think about. I don't know how friendship turned into something more. I never saw myself dating a friend but I believe that things happen for a reason and if we are meant to be together then it will happen when the time is right. If we are flirting this much then something is about to happen soon. As they say good things come to those who wait. I believe this with all my heart and soul. IF we do get together and become a couple and in the future he pops the question and asks me to marry him then I will know it was meant to be. I don't want to lose a friendship. I guess after my ex and I broke up and we still remained friends.

I don't know when it all began when I developed these feelings for him. But somehow I did. Well anyways enough of him. I filled out some applications. Some online and I one in person. I went to Bed Bath and Beyond. I can't wait till I get married so I can start picking out stuff for my registry. That store has a lot of cool stuff for your house.

Update: I just got off the phone with him and I am happy. I will be doing something with him this weekend on Saturday. Yay. I am so excited. More flirting to come.

He called

Tom called me today from Florida. He called my cell I didn't answer then he called my house. It was good to hear his voice. I wonder if he is gonna go through the priest hood since he is taking classes but I think he is starting to change his mind. I can picture myself marring him. I get along with him and he can make me laugh and I can not believe that I could like a friend like this.

My Heart and Soul

My life is changing. I am heading towards a whole new part of my life. I am not that passionate about being a Massage Therapist but now I am looking towards Photography. I am also interested in trying new things like being a Vegetarian and changing my style. I have a whole new outlook on life and I am positive I will become successful one day in whatever I am meant to do in life.

Now the only thing I have to do is get a steady full time job and start learning about photography.

He left fot a week

Tom is going to Florida today and I am so sad. I didn't talk to him yesterday but he is only going for a week. I am jealous that he is going to warmer weather when it's going to be shitty here. I will miss him but I know that I would of been missing him more if we were dating.

My sister told me that the wine trip is in September and I am getting excited to finally go back there. I am hoping that I can get a job soon so I can save enough money for that trip. I haven't been back to Cali since 2005. I get to see Lola ( my older sister's friend's dog). It's a cute puggle.

I am going to head out to Target and fill out a application. I really need to get a job. I really don't want to work in retail but if that will get me a job then I will do it.

True Feelings

I can not stop thinking about Tom. I can't sleep cause he's on my mind. Also he's been calling me every night. We talked for a bit last night. I know these feeling are real and not cause I want love. I haven't felt this way in a long time and I am starting to fall in love. I do love him as a friend but to love him as something more has to take time and to start dating him. I am wondering when and how he will tell me that he has feeling for me. I never thought that I would ever fall for him and also a friend.

I can see myself marring him. I love his family. I get along with them I have known them for about 8 years. As long as I have known Tom. He is the type of guy I am looking for. He is Catholic and he comes from a good family, he has a good heart, and now what really gets me is that he now wants to get married and have kids. But there is a negative side to this. I met Tom through my ex and at first it was hard for me to handle the ex situation but I got over it and I moved on. I tend to leave my past behind but this time it's different. I keep on thinking if we do ever get together and become a couple and he does pop the question and I say yes then I will have to deal with my ex and see him again.