A New Beginning

~My Horoscope for Today~
You can expect your mood to improve today, Kristine. The projects that you have at the moment, both professional and private, should be progressing well. You feel reassured and are encouraged to make some new plans. If you continue to keep up the good rhythm you will have success redefining your professional life...
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I had another wedding dream last night but this time I wasn't getting married it was my cousin Lucy which is already married and I was her Maid of Honor. So I looked up what my dream meant and this is what it means....To see a wedding in your dream, symbolizes a new beginning or transition in your current life. Dreams involving weddings are often negative and highlight some anxiety or fear. It often refers to feelings of bitterness, sorrow, or death. Alternatively, wedding dreams reflect your issues about commitment and independence.

Venting : Confused & I don't care

Last night I was over my friend Elliot's House and we were talking about things and some how we were talking about guys and girls and somehow he mentioned that I wasn't his type and pats me the leg. Then he still touches me and when we calls me he says how is my sexy mama. He said he does like this girl named Sheryl and wants to know how he can get her to go out with her then I tell him. I told myself this is my last draw and I will not be interested in him. I have too many things on my mind to think about some guy. I still want to move to California in the future. I still have things here to get accomplished before I start a new chapter in my life.

I am still thinking about owning my own cleaning business. I am focused on that getting the things I need to get done. I still have some thinking to do and I am so confused about Tom's actions. Since he did tell me I am not his type then I am taking that it's a sign telling me to back off and stop the flirting and stop thinking about men. I do hate them. They are nothing but trouble and right now and I need to focus on me.

Venting

~My Horoscope for Today~
If things haven't been going too well with those you spend the majority of your time with, it might be time to consider your expectations of them. Ask yourself what kinds of demands you place on others and if they're truly fair. Is it possible that you expect the same from others as what you give but that maybe they aren't able to match your level of performance? Consider talking with the people involved and find out how they are feeling.
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My horoscope is partly true. I am pissed that I always have to see my friend and he never wants to see me at my house. It's all one sided. All he cares about is himself and his own feelings. I don't know how to tell him in a way I don't want to have him get mad at me. It's been hard for me to express my feelings to anyone. I always keep them to myself. But I am sure that if Tom and I ever get together I am not gonna be seeing him as much as I am now or else we won't see each other.

Going Down

I was supposed to weigh myself yesterday but I did today. I am down 2 lbs from 253 and I would like to be under 250 by September 16th. I am hoping that I will be around 245. That would be awesome. I want to surprise my sisters and everyone who hasn't seen me since 2005. I just want to be healthy and look good. I can see my dream goal getter closer. I am still deciding on a professional photographer.

What the heart wants the heart will get.

~Quote from a Oprah e-mail~
If you haven't before, start having dreams. Have lots of them. Have great dreams, have small dreams. - James B. Stewart

~My horoscope for Today~
The energies from the day should have you feeling pretty good, Kristine. Your spirits should be high and laughing may well be a good part of your day. When you laugh, it gets other people going. They can't but laugh too. This is a powerful effect to have! You may find that you can transfer the enthusiasm and good feelings you have to those that are around you today. Share your positive energy by smiling, laughing and just being yourself.
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I have been thinking about after I Graduate From MCTI that I might start my own cleaning business. Right now I am reading into everything I need to know about dong this. My friend Tom said that he would like to help me and wants to work along with me. That would help me a lot since he knows a lot about knowing about what you need to know about owning your own business.

I had hang out with my friend Tom a couple days ago. I have a long day that day by waking up at 5 am and going to bed at 12 am. So anyways about the day. We had gone over Elliot and Sarah's house (friends of ours) and Elliot told us that he will be having a anti Baby Shower/ My ex and their friend Rob's B-day on September 6th. So Tom said that he would go. Along with their friend Kevin, and Elliot's Brother Tim. I will be seeing Shawn (Kevins girlfriend), and my ex-bf wife Amanda. So this is the first baby shower that I will be attending without my mom and knowing anyone there. Except for Shawn, who I met once and talked to a few times. I seen my ex's wife at Sarah and Elliot's Wedding last year but never got introduced to her. Witch I don't want to meet her but if I do I do.

So later on today I will be again going over to Toms grandfather house to help him clean up. I also want to see him again. I am completely fallen for him and I am in love. I have listened to my heart and what the heart wants the heart will get. I love spending time with him and can't wait till the day when he confesses he likes me and when we first kiss. I will be writing about that when it does happen.

Amazing

I am changing my life a little at a time. I am watching what I eat, I am more focused on me, I am going to church cause I want to not just because I have to. I pray at night more than I used to. I am more happier with my life now then I have ever been.

I had another dream about my grandma. This is like the 4th or 5th time I had one of her in it. Last night I had a dream that my mom and I were at my old house/my grandmas old house. We walked in the door and I always gave her a kiss and a hug and said my grandma in polish. We sat on the couch and talked and she looked happy. She was laughing. As I am tying this I am in tears. I know that she is resting in peace and she is safe up in heaven with God. I still do think about her and miss her very much and I will never stop thinking about her. I know she is watching down on me and her sprint is with me. But everyday is getting better and I am crying less and getting on with my life.

Here is what dream moods.com says.....To see your dead sibling, relative, or friend alive in your dream, indicates that you miss them and are trying to relive your old experiences you had with them. In trying to keep up with the pace of your daily waking life, you dreams may serve as your only outlet in coping and coming to terms with the loss of a loved one.

Then again I had another dream about my family. My younger sister was holding my baby girl. I do want to have a baby girl and name her after my Grandma. I hope this dream ties together with the one I had a few days ago with the wedding dream I had. I have had wedding dreams before and could never see his face and then few days ago when I had this dream I saw my friend Toms face (the one I like). I am hoping it will come true and we do get together and get married and have a baby,

My Dream : Feels like it may come true one day

Two nights ago I had another wedding dream and this one wasn't the usual one that I don't see who I am marrying. I actually saw the guy and it was my friend Tom that I like. If I believe it or not I can actually see myself marrying him. I never thought that when I met him that I would ever date him or actually fall in love with him like I am. He calls me more often and we also flirt a lot too and I love spending time with him. I don't have a best friend but If I did he would be it.

I get daily horoscopes and here is what mine said today........The stars indicate that love and romance are in your favor, Kristine, and you will find that this area of your life is indeed going well. Shower your partner with love and affection. The more hugs and kisses, the better. You honey's ego wants to be stroked. You can earn points by petting their head and scratching them beyond their ears. Be careful, however, that you don't spoil them to the point that they become arrogant and self-centered, and end up disregarding all of your wants and needs.

My future looking Bright I gotta wear shades

I am getting excited that I have about 5 weeks till I am in California. I wish I could go there and never come back. I have found out that last week Talia (my ex-friend) moved to Louisiana. It's like damn all these people are moving out of Michigan and I am stuck here. Well what ever my life takes me and if I am meant to stay in Michigan then I will stay.

I can't wait till I get MCTI out of the way cause that way I can look for a job in my career and I can start saving money for a car and then getting the hell out of my house.

My weight loss is going good. I am noticing my curves and my clothes are fitting better on me. My goal of getting my pictures done by a professional photographer is getting closer but I can't decide who I want. I am leaning towards The Shooting Gallery but another one I am thinking of is Arising Images.

Quick Update

I have been MIA in updating my blog. I really haven't had the energy to write in here. There have been some good stuff to the bad stuff. All I have to say is that I will try to get back on here and write about what has been happing in my life.