This weekend

I am going up north this weekend and I am a little excited. this weekend is for me. I will be doing some long thinking and I will need it. Even though I will have my cell I won't have a computer or cable which will suck but I can live with out them. I will be taking a lot of pictures around my cottage inside and out. I will post them when I get back. It's just gonna be my parents and I. I have a lot to keep me occupied in the car and for the rest of the weekend. I haven't been up there in years and there is a reason for that.

I need this weekend so I can refresh myself and come back a whole new person. Then I can finally see what my strengths and weaknesses are and I can work on those when I come back home.

I hope everyone has a great memorial day weekend and I will write and I will see you when I get back.

Who is to BLAME

I was thinking about now I got the way I am. I am blaming my parents. They have poor eating habits and I am not successful all because of them. They don't believe in me but one day once I get the body I want and I am successful with the career I pick out. I will show my parents that I did it on my own with out any of their support and it will feel good once I see my dreams come true.

On a better note I weight myself this morning and I lost 2 lbs. Which is good cause at least I am not gaining it. I feel a lot better about myself inside and out. I just can't wait till September and my sister sees a change in me. I am hoping to lose around 20 to 30 lbs.

Now that I cut my red meat intake. I am now focused on not eating fried foods. By me taking these small steps that I can manage I can get rid of my bat eating habits. I tried sot do it all at once but I failed when I did it. So I am seeing a change and I am liking it.

So I have been super busy with me focusing on my wight loss and my career. I am going back to school soon to finish up my degree. I am learning new things like learning how to play the guitar and knowing how to reading music, Chords, and tablature. So I have a lot on my plate and I an finally getting happy with my life.

Heading out to California

Ok it's the weekend and I am still busy. I haven't updated my blog in a while and I though since I have a little time now I would do it. I am still focused on me and I am a little bit happier now. I have some new hopes and dreams fo rmy future. I am trying to get my life straighted up and organized which is a good thing. I have a lot running through my head.I have so much planned for my future. I am positive that I will be heading out to California in the near future. I don't know when that is gonna be. i wanted to be there by the time I was 30 but isn't gonna happen I have a few more things that have to get accomplished here in Michigan and I am already on that.

My weight loss is going good even though I haven't gone to the gym in the lats 3 days but I have been exercising. this week was so busy for me. This weekend is still busy for me. I have to go to Babies R Us and get a gift for a baby shower for tomorrow. Yes I know it's late but both my mom and I haven't had time. Then tomorrow is the baby shower at 1:00 p.m. I haven't been to a baby shower in while so it's a good thing. So I am off to the store to buy a gift then I have to head to the gym. I will update more later I have a lot more to write.

Eye Candy

WOW. I am loving the eye candy on my new gym. There a lot of men trainers and also men who workout there are all so good looking. It gives me a little motivation to go to the gym more. Anyways, I am still sore. I am feeling a lot better on the inside and hope I keep this up.

Cancer

Well it's been a while since I last wrote in here. I thought I give a update to what has been going on. Well A friend of the family passed away a week ago of Cancer. Cancer can be a deadly disease and there are many forms of it. I have known a few people who have had it and lost their battle to it.

My next door neighbor's husband died a few years ago. He had it once it went away and then it came back and it came back worse and when you have for a second time it is rarely someone ever lives. Then my cousin had Hodgkin's Lymphoma which is a another form of cancer and she is a survivor of that and I pray that doesn't come back. Then recently I heard that a guy I go to church with has cancer. I also praying that he can survive that. I hope that one day that they will find a treatment for cancer that it will nevcr exsit again.

Then with my dad having a heart attack and having 2 stints and a defibrillator on his heart makes me worry. I have a family history of heart attacks and I am now starting to realize I have to get healthy and watch what I eat and exercise. I have already cut my meat intake. I am eating more chicken and seafood. Then I have to focus on not eating fried foods and foods that have a lot of fat in it.

I started to exercise again. My new gym opened up on may 2nd and I just went today for the first time. I forgot how sore you can be after not working out in a long time but I am back on the wagon and feeling great. I just hope that I can meet someone at my gym and I can have a workout buddy to help motivate me.

I also need to lose about 20 lbs before September but I am not really not that focused on that cause if I do I am setting myself up for disappointment. I am also geting in shape to run a 5K soon.